I’m so over this little drama of ours, but it keeps coming back. In reality, I’m a little annoyed at the people who constantly tell us that we have to be together. It’s this constant pressure that won’t go away and it’s killing me because it’s as if I’m left without a choice. Like if I don’t be with you, my life’s ruined forever.
I don’t like who I am when you’re around. I don’t like the insecure person I become, so why can I escape you?
Probably because everyone keeps telling me that you’re the perfect one and these are the people that I care about, so there lies the difference about not caring about what other people say.
It pierces me because maybe I do know that you’re meant to be here, right next to me.
But you don’t have the same realization and going around in the circle that we created a year ago. It is so tiresome, it’s eating me all up.
How many times do I have to fall apart, pick myself and fall into pieces again?
“Sometimes good things fall apart so better things can take place”
More than anything, I’m holding on to that train of thought to keep my sanity.