i slept for ten hours today.

i also had my hair color changed and had a hair cut.

and yet, i felt like this day was everything that it shouldn’t be.

i was consumed by my own worries about weight and so on. it was so consuming, i felt like i couldn’t breathe anymore.

then i realized the real core of my existence: my relationship with Jesus which is never going to be perfect but i know i have to put some effort into it.

i found this book in my favorite bookstore and have come to realize that maybe this is what i need, to rest in His grace.