It’s time to give up the pretenses, it’s time to look at the mirror and see myself the way my mirror does.

However, it’s not looking at myself in a deregatory manner because im not a size two.

It’s more of allowing myself to see that i’m not as healthy or as fit as i want to be.

It’s always been a struggle for me because i’ve always done things wrong. I ate too little which led me to eating way too much.

I was a yo-yo dieter and a highly inconsistent excercise person.

I was highly neurotic, constantly counting my calories, basically not living my life. Then i lived my life too much.

So i just stopped.

Until today.

I realized that it has nothing to do with being a size zero, i just want to be fit. i want to eat right and eat healthy.

I want to take care of myself because God wants me to take care of the temple of the Holy Spirit.

I also no longer want my body to be a constant foothold of my insecurities, i want to be free from that.

My 22nd year would be the perfect time for me to excellently and holistically become the person God created me to be.