It’s time to give up the pretenses, it’s time to look at the mirror and see myself the way my mirror does.
However, it’s not looking at myself in a deregatory manner because im not a size two.
It’s more of allowing myself to see that i’m not as healthy or as fit as i want to be.
It’s always been a struggle for me because i’ve always done things wrong. I ate too little which led me to eating way too much.
I was a yo-yo dieter and a highly inconsistent excercise person.
I was highly neurotic, constantly counting my calories, basically not living my life. Then i lived my life too much.
So i just stopped.
I realized that it has nothing to do with being a size zero, i just want to be fit. i want to eat right and eat healthy.
I want to take care of myself because God wants me to take care of the temple of the Holy Spirit.
I also no longer want my body to be a constant foothold of my insecurities, i want to be free from that.
My 22nd year would be the perfect time for me to excellently and holistically become the person God created me to be.