Life isn’t really being nice to me at this moment. There are a lot of little things that have been piling up and I swear its driving me crazy and testing my faith. To begin with, I lost the elections. The individualist that I am doesn’t really care and just credit whatever happened to my life’s many experiences. However, I have only been an individualist for the past five years and I’ve been HUMAN for almost 18 years. What I’m trying to say here is that I still have my human emotions and although I hate to admit it, not being liked still pushed the wrong buttons a bit. It just really made me sad and upset but I realized that doing so would not really get me anywhere? Being bitter and mad would just validate whatever rumors people may have spread about me. I really don’t know where this entry is going because for once, I’m allowing myself to just write, write and write. I am upset and hurt. Somehow, losing made me realize that people don’t like me. HOWEVER, my family and REAL friends got me out of the drama queen mode and made me realize the reality of life.
Reality is, life isn’t perfect. Neither is it fair or kind. In fact its HARSH. Bad things happen to good people. No matter how nice one person is, people are going to hate you and say nasty things about you. Even if you be REAL to people and treat them the way you want to be treated, doesn’t mean that they’ll treat you in the same way. In fact, most of the time, just because you’re nice, they think that gives them the right to walk all over you. Yes, its true: LIFE SUCKS. Life hurts, life kills, life is going to keep throwing you curveballs and the only thing you can do is STAND UP AND FIGHT. Show people that even if you’re defeated you can still stand up and tell people that you’re okay. Scratch tell, instead you should SHOW people that you’re okay.
Looking back, I guess I’m more thankful for the times that I got hurt or got disappointed. Doesn’t mean that I don’t want the happy times, in fact, I do. Its just that during those time when everything’s so messed up, that’s when one starts over. That’s when one starts to go back from the beginning and reevaluate one’s life and one’s relationship with the Lord. Sometimes, its so easy to just lose faith and get mad. Its harder to accept things as they are and its harder to be nice to those who have done you wrong. That’s the reason why people hardly take that path. With the Lord’s help, I hope I could be strong enough to take that path. I’m hurting now and the circumstances didn’t really turn around after this entry, but I feel better because I know that at the end of the day, the Lord knows what He’s doing and there’s something better out there for me. All I have to do is pray for those people who continue to bring me down and pray that I surpass them. I’ll pray that I conquer evil by doing good.
Okay, my sermon’s over. HAHA. Ain’t it good to let it all out? Hahaha. Tomorrow’s a new week, then a new month. I know everything will fall into place soon. And then my entries would definitely be better.
