the things that are too difficult to say


I haven’t written anything meaningful in a long time. Well, there have been a lot of short lived and cynical thoughts but none of those that lead to what’s really going on in my life. So, how is my life right now?

The answer to that?

I have no idea.

There has just been a lot of twists and turns that even my faithful blog cannot keep up. I am glad that even in just a small way, I am not as emotional as I used to be. I no longer let the little things get to me or maybe I just don’t have the time the energy or the brain space to worry about it anymore. I’ve grown up but sometimes I wonder if that’s a good thing or not.

Thing is I’ve been working on this thing for the past month of my life. You see, I’ve been struggling so much with my past and the last entry I wrote about it ( have you ever?) was really a bitter entry but at least it was honest. I’ve been struggling to let go of it, but I did so in a bitter way and that made me think of everything that has happened before. I know life is so much better now but still at times, I’m back to being thirteen.

But that’s part of the past now. I heard somewhere that getting your life together may mean having to cut out the ugly parts and that can be messy. SO I guess my life is messy right now. Real messy. But I know once i get over it…

Well….then it would be much better:)