throw in a bit of nostalgia


My life at the moment isn’t perfect. There are still frustrations and dissapointments and the list continues. But you know what?
I actually enjoy my life now.
I was reading my blog from last year and you know what?
It totally made me sad. I cannot believe I’ve ever been that sad in my life.

That I felt that alone and unwanted.
Right now, the Lord has blessed me with so much.
Or maybe that I’ve always been blessed but it was my attitude.
The answer to that intriguing question is something I would never know.
I’m just really happy now.
And yes I do have my days…but I never allow it to ruin me,
or what the Lord has blessed me with.
I continue praying that the Lord would continue to bless me and everyone I love.
Life is finally shedding colors.
Anyway, Pao dropped by the house last night and he reminded me of something…rather someone I’d rather forget. But finally, I’ve found closure…

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hardI’ve learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of youI learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraidI lose my way
And it’s not too long before you point it outI cannot cry

-Because of you,
Kelly Clarkson