The Beginning of The Last Month Of The Year

It has not been an easy last few days of November so I decided to skip the day by day picture for that.


I will remain in His love no matter how hurt I am by people I love. Whatever it takes I will love Him with all that I am.

I love Him for who He is and what He has done.

He has redeemed me this year and I’m more than grateful for that. I know that only good things are coming. I don’t want to go back to where I used to be. I want to be in a better place.

There’s no going back. Only moving forward.

Words escape, but these are the words to define it the week that was.

Here I was again tonight forcing laughter, faking smiles
Same old tired, lonely place
Walls of insincerity
Shifiting eyes and vancancy vanished when I saw your face
All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you

Your eyes whispered “have we met?”

Across the room your silhouette starts to make it’s way to me

The playful conversation starts

Counter all your quick remarks like passing notes in secrecy

And it was enchanting to meet you

All I can say is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling, don’t you let it go

I’m wonderstruck, blushing all the way home

I’ll spend forever wondering if you knew

I was enchanted to meet you

The lingering question kept me up

2am, who do you love?

I wonder till I’m wide awake

Now I’m pacing back and forth, wishing you were at my door

I’d open up and you would say,

It was enchanted to meet you

All I know is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling, don’t you let it go

I’m wonderstruck, blushing all the way home

I’ll spend forever wondering if you knew

This night is flawless, don’t you let it go

I’m wonderstruck, dancing around all alone

I’ll spend forever wondering if you knew

I was enchanted to meet you

This is me praying that this was the very first page

Not where the story line ends

My thoughts will echo your name until I see you again

These are the words I held back as I was leaving too soon

I was enchanted to meet you

Please don’t be in love with someone else

Please don’t have somebody waiting on you

Please don’t be in love with someone else

Please don’t have somebody waiting on you

This night is sparkling, don’t you let it go

I’m wonderstruck, blushing all the way home

I’ll spend forever wondering if you knew

This night is flawless, don’t you let it go

I’m wonderstruck, dancing around all alone

I’ll spend forever wondering if you knew

I was enchanted to meet you

Please don’t be in love with someone else

Please don’t have somebody waiting on you

i don’t know where I am right now. something incredibly huge is happening and i can no longer react the way i used to. it’s as if i went through the motions of tears, of blaming myself but instead of wallowing in self-pity like I used to, I just simply accepted things for what they are and placed my heart in an absolutely ridiculous place of belief that things will get better no matter how bad they are now.

the control freak in me wants to fix things, but I can no longer fix this so i don’t want to be depressed all the time. i just want to keep moving forward and sometimes it takes being in a bad place to get to somewhere better. i don’t know where i stand and i don’t know what will happen next but i’m sure of one thing, God will be with me and those I love and that’s all that I can do.
at this moment that is all that i can do.

November 23, 2010: When Was The Last Time You Did Something For The First Time?

Something incredible happened today.

One of those special things i’d rather tuck away in the deepest part of my brain just so I could hold on to it for as long as I could.
Amazing how I didn’t get overly excited nor did I shout or faint, which was entirely possible.
It happened and I’m not dwelling on the possibilities, although the Lord offers nothing but the best possibilities there is in the world.
It was a wonderful moment but life doesn’t stop there, there are so many more stops and I thank God for this single moment.
He is good, all the time!