It’s a word I came up with three days ago.
I just realized how deathly afraid I am of being too close to someone I may be attracted to.
Its the fear of rejection, thus the word I called it.

It’s plain crazy and its driving me totally bonkers. But its just the position that I am in now.

I’m scared all the time. Maybe, that’s the reason why whenever anyone would come tooclose, anyone who has the possibility of winning my heart, I STAY AWAY.

I hide under the, “i’m-not-ready” comment that I give people who don’t want to give up on bugging me about my lovelife, but its NOT the entire truth.

I’m just really scared of getting rejected and hurt again. THAT i’m not willing to go through again.