Today’s a new day and yesterday was pretty wicked, so I should be happy. But happiness is pretty relative. Emotions can be pretty tricky, ya know? Some thing goes for desire. You can piine and want something for a long time but once you have it, you realize that it wasn’t that charming at all.

That’s what’s wrong with me and realizing it is the first step. (Okay, you got me I’ve been reading way too much boundaries in dating, it’s a pretty good book. READ IT)

Also, sometimes, in as much as you want to stay POSITIVE, there are just some days you can’t put up a happy facade any longer. You want to stop for awhile, breathe and be happy but at the same time, you’re sad because you want something that’s not yours to begin with.

There goes the desire thing again. A quote once said, “There are two tragedies in life, one is not getting your heart’s desire and one is to get it”

So, at this point, I don’t have my heart’s desires and putting it bluntly, it sucks.

In the same way, it’s also liberating. Liberating because it gives you hope when you wake up in the morning and it gives you hope that today might be the day that you finally get what you heart desires. No matter what the quote says I think not getting what your heart desires is worse. It perpetuates through your soul and its just emptiness.

I’m just seeing it on the other end of the spectrum. I haven’t really gone out and gotten my heart’s desire yet or maybe it’s because it keeps changing. So, you know, I’m going around the same cycle.

Which again— sucks.