The Long Road To Being A Marathoner
When Old Friends Meet
The Cute Pop Cola Bottle
Meet Achu
Happy First Month on Earth, Little Frankie
Saturday: She’s The Light of My Heart
Friday: I’m Carla and I’m an Addict
You must be fantastic.
You must be the culmination of all my deepest desires, wishes and dreams.
I’d love to say that you are my life now just to sound romantic but that would be wrong, you know why?
Because at this moment, I have surrendered you to the Lord and when I say surrender, I do mean surrender.
I don’t mean, “surrender but I still want it surrender”
I mean surrender, true surrender that i’ve accepted it eventhough you may never come into my life and that’s okay, because I’ve found my joy and acceptance in Christ.
That’s what I meant when I said you’re fantastic because at this moment, I don’t know if you’d still arrive in my life.
And you being in my life is fantastic because He gave you to me just because He can.
For awhile there, I did settle.
Because I believed the lies of the devil, thinking I’m not good enough to merit God’s best, and you know what?
I may not be good enough but I do have a God who loves me enough to give me the best just because He loves me and not because I worked hard for it.
But you know someday, if you do enter my life, I know it’s in God’s will and in His timing but if not, then I know I’m still receiving God’s best because it’s only Him who knows what His best means.
And I have nothing to fear now because God is the God of the impossible.
He is also the God of order.
So all in His perfect timing because at this moment, He wants me to spend all of my time with Him.
And I hope you are growing in Him too because you know, I don’t know if our someday would actually come but that’s okay because we’re in Him and that is the most important thing. 🙂
Love,
Carla
My four year old laptop has died and I cannot upload pictures through my iPod so I’m still taking pictures but I can’t upload them until I get it fixed.
But no worries, I’ll still be blabbing my head off 🙂
I was finally brave enough to watch Dear John on DVD today and it reminded me of silly bittersweet memories.
But there’s more to it than just bittersweet, it’s actually the feeling you get when you go over the foolish decisions you’ve made in the past.
Actually the bitter part is over, and as I tried to go over the things that happened since February, I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Because you know it was worth the tears, the heartbreak and the delusional mindset for awhile.
Because it gave me this amazing relationship with the one who created me.
Because John what I wanted with you was a cheap thrill, it was not love that was comparable to John and Savannah’s.
And you know when I do fall in love, I want the kind that exemplifies God’s best and God’s glory!
And because of that particular John, I’ve come to understand the importance of my relationship with Him. And why I should focus on Him.
