“sitting, waiting, wishing”
Jack Johnson

Well I was sitting, waiting, wishing
You believed in superstitions
Then maybe you’d see the signs
The Lord knows that this world is cruel
I ain’t the Lord,
I’m just a fool
and in love with somebody don’t make them love you
Must I always be waiting, waiting on you
Must I always be playing, playing your fool
I sang your songs,
I danced your dance
I gave your friends all a chance
Putting up with them wasn’t worth never having you
Maybe you’ve been through this before
But it’s my first time so please ignore
These next few lines because they’re directed at you
I can’t always be waiting, waiting on you
I can’t always be playing, playing your fool
I keep playing your part
But it’s not my scene
Want this plot to twistI’ve had enough mystery
Keep building it up
Then shooting me down
But I’m already down
Just wait a minute
Just sitting, waiting
Just wait a minute
Just sitting, waiting
Well if I was in your position
I’d put down all my amuntintion
I’d wonder why it had taken me so long
But the lord knows that I’m not you
and if I was I wouldn’t be so cruel
cause waitin’ on love ain’t so easy to do
Must I always be waiting, waiting on you
Must I always be playing, playing your fool

The title has nothing to do with what im going to write about but that’s how I feel, but don’t worry I wouldn’t elaborate on that. Too much drama for a week. haha.=p
I’m too lazy to write down about what’s happening in my life (its not rocket science, college is college.) Anyway, I was a bit upset last night. I don’t know I guess the old insecurites loomed its way to me again. I know I have gotten over it, but there are times when it comes back.
Instead of gloating over it and crying (like I used to). I just prayed, there’s nothing I could do about it anyway. I felt better. So much better.
But as i’ve said…the pain’s still there.

Different people, different personalities. Its kindda hard dealing with them but I want to give them a chance. Ohwell, its kindda hard when they dont give me that chance though…

life… haha

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Spurs won awhile ago! Yipee!!
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Go SMB, game three! sayang they lost last wed.boohoo.=p

My mind’s caught in a faze,
I haven’t felt this way in awhile.
Its scary,
unrealistic,
most of all…
unexpected.
I want something,
I can’t have it.
The way of life,
I could have gotten myself out of this situation,
but I chose not to.
Its not love,
or anything way too cheesy like that.
Intense attraction,
numbing my brain,
opening my heart.
Its absurd,
yes I know.
Its freakinly absurd…
cause barely two weeks ago
I made a promise
not to find myself
in this same situation
im ranting about..
so much for promises

1)DESCRIBE YOUR LIFE RIGHT NOW
-Blessed. The Lord has been gracious=))
2)IN YOUR PAST LIFE YOU’D LIKE TO THINK YOU WERE…
– An irish princess….hahaha! *wink*
3)WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX YOU PREFERENCE IS…
-Hmmm…I used to like chinitos. For as long as I can remember I always liked chinitos. But now, im not sure I guesss its all boils down to how he carries himself. Confident not arrogant.
4)WHAT TURNS YOU ON?
– Respect, if he has respect for my family and me thats major major points.=))
5)WHAT TURNS YOU OFF?
-Guys who are just plain arrogant. Those who don’t know what they want in thier lives. Its okay to party and all that just know when to stop and start living your life.
6) YOU! IN ONE WORD
-Unpredictable. Im not difficult to get along with naman eh. I just have a lot of mood swings, but hey im never plastic or conceited so i guess its easy to get along with me. its just the mood swings…hehe….
7)MOST EMBARASSING MOMENT
– A whole lot but lately my stammering in mr. Milevoi’s class, I get so intimidated and forget what im supposed to say…sheesh…
8)WHAT’S THE STATE OF YOUR ROOM RIGHT NOW?
-Why do you want to know, huh? Haha=p Its in total disarray, my books are everywhere but dont worry im fixin it later.
9)WHAT DO YOU HAVE TO SAY TO THOSE PEOPLE WHO HATE YOU?
– I love you. *mwah*
10)ARE YOU STILL IN SCHOOL?
– Yeah
11) WHERE?
-SFC
12)HAVING FUN?
-It has its ups and downs, but its not that bad. *smile*
13)ARE THERE PEOPLE YOU LIKE?
-Of course!! Actually, almost everyone’s nice naman eh.
14)ARE YOU CRUSHING ON ANYONE FROM YOUR SCHOOL?
-Nah, loyal ‘to noh. *wink*
15)WHAT DID YOU WATCH LAST NIGHT?
– American Dreams and Desperate Housewives.
16)WHATS THE SWEETEST THING ANYONE HAS EVER DONE TO YOU?
-It wasn’t for the books but since it was so genuine it was sweet enough for me.=)
17) SADDEST?
-KC=’c =’c miss you kace
18)ARE YOU IN A RELATIONSHIP?
-No, never been.
19)IF NOT, ARE YOU LOOKING?
– No, ang dami dami ng ginagawa. Problema lang yan. Ha, cynic!
20)ARE YOU HAPPY?
– Yes, why shouldn’t I be?
21) WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU WERE WITH?
– Chorong! And sina dawn, kae and pinky
22) WHAT DID YOU DO?
-Ice monster! Haha
23) WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO TOM?
– English for business class haha!=p
24)MESSAGE TO THAT SPECIAL PERSON.
-Hi!!=)) haha.. *wink*

Everyone else has…

so maybe its time for me to do so too….


we’re so not talking about college here

Back when I was in ICA, I always complained about how people were alike and nobody stood out. I wanted to meet new people and people who were different.
I finally got what I wished for.
College is like that and yes, I am enjoying myself.=)