1. Full Name: Carla Bianca Velasquez Ravanes
2. Your Nick Names: Bia, Bianx, Bianca, Carla and so on …haha=p
3. Are you bi, gay, straight, a-sexual: straight…but wait, what’s asexual anyway?
4. Place of Birth: Ireland…haha i wish.=p
5. Zodiac Sign: cancer
6. Male or Female: Female
7. age: 16
8. School: SFC
9. Occupation: a student, a dramaqueen, closet geek, most of the time just plain clueless…haha
10. Residence: south of metro manila…hehe
__Your Appearance___
12. Hair Color: Dark brown
13. Hair Long or Short: longish…hehe
14. Eye Color: Dark brown
15. how do ur nails look: tortured… haha…
17. Do you have a crush on someone right NOW(truthfully): ano to autograph book? it makes me feel like a 6th grader but since truthfully sige na nga…yes hahaha=p
18. do u like yourself: Yup. Why shouldn’t I?
20. think your attractive: I don’t know ask the people around me..not that I care…hehe
21. Piercings: 2
22. Tattoo: i dont have one
23. Righty or Lefty: Righty
___Your ‘Firsts’___
24. First RollerCoaster: I think it was at star city. i was such a scaredy cat growing up ( haha, a part of me still is) that my sister had to drag me to take the ride with her and when we finally did, after the first round i was crying like crazy and asked them to stop the ride. haha, freak
25. First cell phone: nokia 5110
26. First best friend(s): nicola
27. First Award:loyalty award
28. First Sport You Joined: soccer
29. First pet: my mom doesnt like pets so we never had them…hehe
30. First vacation: hk
31. First Concert: south border
32. First True Love: my Lord, my Savior=)

___ Favorites___
33. Movie: Batman Begins…hahaha=p
34. TV Show: one tree hill and veronica mars
35. Color: red
36. Band: maroon 5, hale, no doubt etc etc
37. Song: here tonight-hale, simple kind of life-no doubt, she will be loved
38. Food: burgers pizza ..basta junk hehe…chocolates!!
39. Drink: Coffee. water..=))
40. Candy: mentos hahaha
41. Sport : whatever…haha…dont play much anymore
42. Fav sport To Watch: BASKETBALL!! haha
43. Brand Of Clothing: a&f, american eagle
44. Stores: national, powerbooks…geek talaga…haha
45. School Subject: geom…haha
46. Animal: fishies
48. Magazines: meg, candy and people. but i only open them in grocery stores when no one’s looking….haha…i am so not shedding 4oo bucks on a magazine….duuuhh…

___Currently___
49. Eating: none
50. Drinking: none
52. Online?: nope…duhhead
53. Listening to: my classmates’ voices
54. Thinking About: ha!
55. Wanting To: eat
56. Watching: …..

___Your Future___

58. Want Kids?: ask me in ten years
59. Want to Get Married?: see number 58
60. Careers in Mind: preschool teacher/something that has to do with my course hehe

__Which is Better With The Opposite/SameSex__

67. Cute or Sexy: cute
68. Eyes or Lips: eyes
69. Hugs or Kisses: Hugs
70. Short or Tall: tall
71. Easygoing or serious: Easygoing
72. Romantic or Spontaneous: romantic ( i love the mush…haha)
73. Fatty or Skinny: that is such a superficial question i am not answering that!
74. Sensitive or Loud: a little bit of both
75. Hook-up or Relationship: relationship
76. Sweet or Caring: sweet
77. What annoys you the most?: ARROGANT people…get a life.
___Have You Ever___
78. Kissed a Stranger: No!!!
79: Drank Alcohol: yes…haha but i never got wasted…and not planning to
0. Smoked: no
81. Ran Away From Home:nope and not planning to
82. Broken a Bone: nah
83. Got an X-ray: yes
84. Broken Someones Heart: ??? hopefully not…
85. L0VED SOMEONE: Haha… dont know
86. Turned Someone Down: Aba malay ko…hehe
87. Cried When Someone Died:im still crying over it…(miss you kace)
.88. Cried At School: yeah, ako pa! haha

___Do You Believe In___
89. God:OF COURSE
90. Miracles: why not?
91. Love At First Sight: nah…*wink*
92. Ghosts: haha, slight
93. Aliens: interesting but no
94. Soul Mates: *sigh*
95. Heaven: yes
96. Hell: Yes
98. Kissing on The First Date: no…who does that anyway?
99. Horoscopes: at times yeah

___Answer Truthfully___

100. Is There Someone You Want But You Know YouCan’t Have?
Been there. Now, im giving myself a chance….Go figure. hahaha=p

CRAZY FOR YOU

Swaying room as the music starts
Strangers making the most of the dark
Two by two their bodies become one
I see you through the smokey air
Can’t you feel the weight of my stare
You’re so close but still a world away
What i’m dying to say, is that

Chorus:
I’m crazy for you
Touch me once and you’ll know it’s true
I never wanted anyone like this
It’s all brand new, you’ll feel it in my kiss
I’m crazy for you, crazy for you
Trying hard to control my heart
I walk over to where you are
Eye to eye we need no words at all
Slowly now we begin to move
Every breath i’m deeper into you
Soon we two are standing still in time
If you read my mind, you’ll see
(chorus)
It’s all brand new, i’m crazy for you
And you know it’s trueI’m crazy,
crazy for you

Second week of school and i could say that things are getting better. Enjoying my classes and done with last week’s homework (I wonder what this week’s homework would be…*shiver*). Anyway, I’ve been meeting quite a lot of new and interesting people since I started school. I’m more adjusted this week.
Anyway, SMB won game one. Go SMB, game two is on wednesday! haha=)

“It is not who I am underneath, it is what I do that defines me,”
Bruce Wayne A.K.A Batman
“There is nothing to fear but fear itself”
Scarecrow (I think that was him, hehe)
“Why do we fall sir? We fall so we can learn to pick ourselves up,”
Alfred

I saw Batman Begins last night but I wasn’t feeling so well yesterday. I wasn’t very honest in my last entry, I was trying to cover up how I was feeling and it wasn’t me at all. I was frustrated at myself for how I was during our Campaign Planning Class last Thursday and Customer Care and Services yesterday. I felt so stupid because I felt that I cannot contribute to anything at all and if ever I did, I’d feel that what I said just didn’t make sense at all. I feel illiterate, I feel pressured. I felt angry at myself and confused on whether or not I have made the right decision. If it weren’t for my phone and messages from Daisy, I may have cried right there and then. I wasn’t happy. I felt as if I didn’t belong there. I felt like I was falling a step behind everyone else. Yup, feeling all that on the first three days of school.
What I failed to realize is that all that I was feeling was motivated by fear. I was afraid to fail, I was afraid to not make the grade. I’m scared as hell. All the pressure is because I am putting it on myself. There’s a lot to do- I’m afraid I wouldn’t be able to finish it all. I’m afraid the professors hate me, afraid that I would never like what I’m doing.
Watching Batman helped ease those fears.(It was such a great movie, I haven’t been in awe like that eversince Finding Neverland, I super loved it. *wink*) There’s nothing to be afraid of. I was reminded that this was the Lord’s plan for my life and all I had to do was trust Him. I forgot that I wasn’t alone in this. He would help me get through all of this.
I’m feeling better today, still a bit afraid but I’ve surrendered everything to Him. Its His Will for my life. I can do this. I just need time to adjust. Pray that things would get better along the way.

So much for my first day funk. *wink*

Don’t get me wrong, I feel blessed to be at that school. I’m enjoying my school, all I have to do is have confidence in myself and participate. I guess that’s one thing in the mix that’s missing. My confidence. I’ll work on that.

“ I can do all things through Christ who gives me Strength,”
Philippians 4:13

Just came from my customer care class. I may have been a bit too presumptious in my last entry. Yes, college is fun and different. Now, I think that’s where the problem for me starts. In highschool, I do speak up in class and all that. I voice out my opinions and even debated infront of a whole bunch of people. But there’s a difference, I’ve known this people for a long time already. In reality, around new people I’m quiet and rather shut up and observe. But college demands me to speak out and voice out my concerns- in front of people I’ve hardly known for a week. Now that scares me and this arises a problem. I’m scared to death, I know I have to voice out my opinions and I will… I just have to get used to it.
Today wasn’t as bad as yesterday though, I got to voice out and even voice out my concerns, it was just really scary. *sigh*. I miss highschool … =’c
But I guess its all part of the process I texted kax yesterday and she was going through the same things… Haay….=)
But then again, all these things are challenges ,right? =)

(I’m actually in my I.T. class, we have a twenty minute break. Yippee.)
First day of my college life (why whenever I say it, it always sounds dramatic?). I had my first class this morning (I have a super weird schedule on Tuesdays, I have a three hour break-argg), Principles of marketing. It was an interesting class. I actually enjoyed eventhough it was for three hours. I was a bit sleepy at first but after the break (yes the actually give out breaks on the second hour, wahaha! *snicker*) I was energetic again. (See im not always energetic=p)
Anyway, I really have to make this quick. Im having fun, meeting new people and just exploring new things. College is so different from highschool. Its more carefree and no one seems to care. Not everything’s restricted anymore. Although, I know I have to study more now and concentrate and focus and all that academic stuff.
I miss my friends though, I super super miss them=’c I miss sir ben too. haha=) Im actually enjoying college and everything in between. =)
I know its just the first day but im super optimistic…*wink*

We lost last friday. Fedex lost last night. Only one team left to cheer for. Go SMB!!!

“The Day You Said Goodnight”
HALE
Take me as you are
Push me off the road the sadness
I need this time to be with you I’m freezing in the sun;
I’m burning in the rain
The silence
I’m screaming, Calling out your name.
And i do reside in your light
Put out the fire with me and find
Yeah you’ll lose the side of your circles
That’s what i’ll do if we say goodbye.
To be is all i gotta be
And all that i see
And all that i need this time
To me the life you gave me
The day you said goodnight.
The calmness in your face
That i see through the night
The warmth of your light is pressing unto us
You didn’t ask me why I never would have known oblivion is falling down.
And i do reside in your hear
Put out the fire with me and find
Yeah you’ll lose the side of your circles
That’s what i’ll do if we say goodbye.
To be is all i gotta be
And all that i see
And all that i need this time
To me the life you gave me
The day you said goodnight.
If you could only know me like your prayers at night
Then everything between you and me will be all Right.
To be is all i gotta be
And all that i see
And all that i need this time
To me the life you gave me
The day you said goodnight.
She’s already taken,
She’s already taken
She’s already taken me
She’s already taken,
She’s already taken
She’s already taken me.
The day you said goodnight

On Monday, I’d actually have to leave the comfort of my bed and home. School starts. Im excited, the same time nervous. Anyway, what I’m trying to say that it may take some time before I could write up an entry again.
Just wish it would be sooner than later… That doesnt make sense, but I know you get my point…haha….=))

* Its okay to stay at home if you dont feel like going out. That doesn’t make you less human.

* Its okay to say how you feel.

* Its okay to turn someone down.

* Its okay to be different. Life is beautiful because of its intricacies.

* Its okay to be YOU.
By being you I mean the real you, not the crappy verison of yourself. If you like to be alone, fine. If you like the crowd, fine. Just learn to accept people for who they are and what they want. ITS OKAY.

You are beautiful, unique and most of all as cheesy as it may sound, God Loves You.=) and so do I. *wink*