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I AM
HILARY DUFF (hey, I actually like her second album.*wink*)
I’m an angel,
I’m a devil
I am sometimes in between
I’m as bad it can get
And good as it can be
Sometimes I’m a million colors
Sometimes I’m black and white
I am all extremes
Try figure me out you never can
There’s so many things
I am
I am special
I am beautiful
I am wonderful
I’m powerful
Unstoppable
Sometimes I’m miserable
Sometimes I’m pitiful
But that’s so typical of all the things
I am
I’m someone filled with self-belief
I’m haunted by self-doubt
I’ve got all the answers
I’ve got nothing figured out
I like to be by myself
I hate to be alone
I’m up and I am down
But that’s part of the thrill
Part of the plan
Part of all of the things
I am
I am specia
lI am beautiful
I am wonderful
I’m powerful
Unstoppable
Sometimes I’m miserable
Sometimes I’m pitiful
But that’s so typical of all the things
I am
I’m a million contradictions
Sometimes I make no sense
Sometimes I’m perfect
Sometimes I’m a mess
Sometimes I’m not sure who I am
I am special
I am beautiful
I am wonderful
And powerful
Unstoppable
Sometimes I’m miserable
Sometimes I’m pitiful
But that’s so typical of all the things
I am

I am still born in the wrong era. Only, I was wrong about the era its supposed to be the mid-60’s to the early 70’s. Close, but not specific.=) I super love those times. It makes me wonder, if I wear my hair the way they do, would it still look good? *wink*
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Some of you may have noticed that some of my entries lack letters in the words or there may be some grammatical errors I’ve overlooked. Sorry. I guess that’s what happens if you only paid for thirty minutes and you have to get everything done. And its kindda distracting if the guy beside you keep on repeating the words, “aww, come on” to no one in particular and laughing. That’s just plain creepy.
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You know what I figured out about myself last week? I babble when im nervous. I babble incoherently and it can be very embarassing. I noticed too that I tend to do that around new people, which doesn’t leave such a great first impression. Arggg.. Sometimes I just want to whack myself with a broom.
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Try reading David Baldacci books, he’s one hell of a writer. Hour Game is still giving me the willies.

I was supposed to watch a documentary on that last night but since I was dead tired, I wasn’t able to. But I caught bits and pieces of it on last night’s news. It brought tears to my eyes (no surprise there,haha) and despite my very sleepy state I still felt the rage for those corrupt politicians. Where do they use the millions they get? Where else but thier expensive cars, HUGE houses and oh yeah on those sexy actresses who swear they have nothing to do with it.
Yeah right, we’re not stupid.!!
Okay, okay so maybe my ranting does not help at all. Hehe. I guess what im trying to say is this, do someone a favor today, smile a little more and stop making negative comments about people (unless they’re directed at those crappy politicians, its not like they actually have hearts..wahaha). Think of others more and a little less yourself. Before we know it, everyone’s working hand in hand and smiling.
Some dream, I know…but its not impossible.=))

Last week, my mom and I opted to watch Guess Who over Star Wars. (I know, I know your probably thinking, “what the heck?” but to be honest, I really don’t get Star Wars so sue me.Hehe. I’d rather go for those Spiderman and Batman flicks, haha). Anyway, I never liked Ashton Kutcher so I wasn’t very keen on watching that movie (I like Ashton already after watching the film, he is now on my ever growing hottie list, hehe). But it turned out to be super nice and super sweet.
It wasn’t only the love story that made me love the movie, but also the story between the girl (oops, I already forgot her name,wahaha) and the dad. It reminded me of my own relationship with my dad. You see, when I was younger my dad and I were super close. I was closer to him than to my mom. But when my teenage years began, well let’s just say there are just somethings that my mom would understand better than my dad, thus us drifting away from each other during those akward years.
But now, at sixteen things are different. We now see each other in a different light. We have so many things in common that there are times we argue (FYI: we do argue alot) but at the end of the day I know he truly understands me. We love the same books, the same movies and the whole techie stuff. Haha.=)
Well, I guess I would always be a daddy’s girl at heart. I would always run to my dad whenever someone would hurt me and make sumbong. He has that way of calming my nerves and he always finds a way to fix things in a more rational way.
I love my dad, I am a daddy’s girl and now, I am not ashamed to admit that anymore. =)

These past few months, I’ve been ranting about how much I miss my girls and highschool. Finally, my parents allowed me to go out (yes, inasmuch as its embrassing to admit my parents still keep a tightguard on me) and my girls and I (with roy and beshi, miko was there but dissappeared with Jen to “talk”.hehe) saw each other today. I super missed them and highschool as well.=)
It was kindda embrassing to go around town taking pictures of each other anywhere we could. I remember Lily’s comment very well, “sabi siguro nung ibang tao first time natin mag-town” People probably thought we were from the province. Sheesh.=)
I actually had a few hesitations before reaching the mall. My friends and I only kept in touch through text the whole summer, I had this scary feeling that maybe we all just stare at each other, uncomfortable. Of course, I was so wrong. We picked up right where we left off. It was as if we didn’t graduate and we would all be going back to our dear alma mater this coming school year. *wink*
I super enjoyed today and bonding with my friends. Too bad, I didn’t have enough money to go catch a movie, no thanks to starbucks. Hehe. =)
Aww guys, I really had fun. I know it would take some time before we see each other again (drama na naman) but im so glad that there weren’t any uncomfortable silences among us. Keep in touch (as I always say). Oh and kax thanks a mill for the magazines, I am so happy it made my week, no my month! hehe=)
Btw, Jen where were you??!!! hehe..=)
aluvya guys….*mmmmmwaaahhhhh*

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Your crush suddenly asks you out?
>>> i doubt ryan merriman would fly all the way here just so he could ask me out. *wink*
You walk into an elevator and see a couple making out?
>>> not do anything, its none of my business.=)
Your parents had another baby?
>>> i’d probably be too shocked and grossed out to react..haha…=)
You’re trapped in a building about to explode?
>>> id look for the nearest window so the effect would be dramatic..hahaha=))
You were granted one wish?
> i’d get all whine-y and continue saying, “can i have more, can i have more?” in an annoying way till the genie or whoever grants me the wish gives in and gives me more..ha!
Aliens invaded earth?
>>> can i have a picture? …thanks… this would so go to my friendster account..haha
A guy (or girl if you’re a guy) suddenly kissed you?
>>> it wouldn’t be so bad if its ryan merriman, james lafferty or val kilmer. other than that …they better run…wahaha…. and cover thier ears while doing so…haha
You won a date with your celeb crush?
>> AAHHHHHHHHHHAAHHHH…. speechless for sure…haha
You were given a blue car?
>> why blue?!
Your girlfriend/boyfriend breaks up with you???
>>> there’s nothing you could do about that..accept it and move on..*sigh* *wink*
You win a million dollars?
>>> hmmm…go to ireland and then put it in the back until i finally know what to do it. oh and get myself a powerbook…haay, umasa pa…hehe
Someone gives you flowers?
>>> thank you and ask why …hehe..typical…
You receive a love letter in your locker?
>>> thank you… if i don’t know who the person is rack my brains out trying to figure out who that person is.
You fail your exam?
>>> its not like i haven’t failed before…hehe
You get first in class?
>>> first what?
You get fired?
>>> put on a smiley face and shout to my boss,” ILL BE RICHER THAN YOU,YOU SCUM” haha…nah, id probably just walk away say that quietly to myself…hehehe
Your best friend betrays you?
>>> nothing new…KIDDING!! *wink*
You had to choose between your boyfriend/girlfriend and your best friend?
>>> that’s unfair. why do i have to chose?!
You miss your ex?
>>> zzzzzz
You want to call her/him?
>>> zzzzzz
What can u say to those who are reading this rightnow?
>>> HIIII!!!!!=))))

STAND BY ME
When the night has come
And the land is dark
And the moon is the only light we’ll see
No I won’t be afraid
Oh I won’t be afraid
Just as long as you stand, stand by me
So darlin’ darlin’ stand by me
Oh stand by me
Oh stand, stand by me, stand by me
If the sky that we look upon
Should tumble and fall
Or the mountain should crumble to the sea
I won’t cry, I won’t cry
No I won’t shed a tear
Just as long as you stand, stand by me
And darlin’ darlin’ stand by me
Oh stand by me
Whoa stand now, stand by me, stand by me
Darlin’ darlin’ stand by me
Oh stand by me
Oh stand now, stand by me, stand by me
Whenever you’re in trouble just stand by me
Oh stand by me
Whoa stand now, oh stand, stand by me

“Don’t it always seem to go that you don’t know what you’ve got ’till its gone…”
Big Yellow Taxi -counting crows

May’s almost finished. School is about to start and I could kiss my lazy summer days goodbye.=) I haven’t had a good sleep in a week, I miss school and my friends.
I had a good conversation with an old friend last night. He already started school and without a doubt he told me that he missed highschool. I couldn’t agree more. Sometimes we get so wrapped around the new things, worried about what the future holds that we forget how wonderful it is to just sit down and talk with an old friend about the good old times.
It felt so good to talk to someone who knew you for quite sometime already. He knew me well enough to know that sometimes I babble and don’t make sense at all. he knew me well enough that we would keep quiet during the important scenes of Feng Shui and then get back to the conversation after another person gets killed.
I miss that. I miss not having to explain myself. Although, the thought of having new people in my life is exciting and at times scary, I don’t think im ready to go through that just yet.
Despite me changing my name, I am still the same old me.=) A little more mature…but still the same.=)
Haay, I never thought i’d actually miss my highschool friends until that conversation last night. I am looking forward to more conversations like the one I had last night. Two old friends talking about life and everything in between. A great feeling.

It is true, distance makes the heart grow fonder. That’s true even for those who are just friends…trust me on this=)