WARNING:
These odd facts are just a few of the many weird/quirky traits about me. Some of these facts may change over mood swings. These are a handful of things about me, but then again there’s still a lot to know. *wink*

I am a frustrated cheerleader.
– During my primary years I was always a “cheerleader” for my class but then again is that even considered? So, my cheerleading stint ended in fourth grade, maybe that was that time my “real” dancing skills have been revealed… Hmm, I wonder.

I actually enjoyed GEOM, CHEM, BUSINESS MATH and BIOLOGY.
– What can I say? I was simply challenged=)

I loved C.H.A.
– I pretended not to like it. But I loved it and I met the best people in my life there.=)

I am a huge sap who cries over every single romantic gesture.
-Whether or not the romantic gesture is for me, I always get teary eyed. Okay, I really don’t need to elaborate, right?!

I am not serious all the time.
– That’s true. I don’t worry about the economic status of the Philippines all the time or the fact that there are more than a thousand kids who go to sleep hungry ever day. Nope, I don’t go talking about that all the time. I love mimicking accents, dancing when no one’s looking and singing at the top of my lungs.

I love making fun of other people’s accents.
-Not to be mean or anything, I just can’t help it. One of the many reasons why I love Sir Ben.=)

I can be shy around new people
– Some people may take my silence as me being snobby or me thinking that im better than them but really its that simple. I am a shy person.

I can talk for two hours straight but stay silent for that same duration of time when upset and/or don’t like the person im talking to or where the conversation is going.
– ‘nuff said.

I’d rather hang out with kids rather than stuck up snobs.
-Again, ‘nuff said.

I love kiddie shows
– And I don’t mean “pacute” cartoons and TV shows (like Spongebob Squarepants, As told by Ginger or Hey Arnold) bur really babyish shows/cartoons like Dora, Franklin, Bananas in Pajamas, Sesame street…you get it.

I love peanut butter and banana sandwich.
– And other weird combinations like oreo dipped in peanut butter or Mang Tomas with fish fillet. Oh and I cannot eat peanut butter with just peanut butter. Haha.

When I’m mad, I hardly say anything.
-But the minute I’m alone in my room words come pouring in my journal. The words take up more than two pages. At the very least.

I always fall for the good, squeaky clean, lanky guys.
-Okay, maybe not that specifically. I just don’t fall for the “popular” guy. For example, would I chose Chad Michael Murray over James Lafferty? No. In a room full of guys, I would most likely end up with the one sitting in one corner rather than the one “working” the room.

I love watching local afternoon game shows.
– Just so I’d know if I am able to answer the questions. Haha.

I love videoke.
I am not as sweet as people assume me to be. I think its inhumane for someone to be smiling 24/7 without ever getting pissed.

I am hurt again, betrayed again,.
But this time, the hurt only stings.
I don’t break,
Not anymore.
Instead, I stand on both feet,
But my head still hung low.
I feel like a deflated balloon,
Deflated of its air, of its shape.
The string holds me down.
There’s no reason for me to slumber,
I still have a whole world to discover.

I have turned over a new leaf,
My new life begins now.
I am okay.Alone but strong,
Alone but not weeping.
Unloved but toughened by mistakes.
I am alone again… naturally,
But for the first time ever,
I am smiling.

About two summers ago, Meteor Garden went on air and I totally despised it. Really, I was thinking how baduy and corny it was. Even when my junior year started and everyone was into it, I chose to stay away from the whole pandemonium.
This summer’s different. They are now airing it again at a much convenient time (before it used to be shown the same time that Lizzie Mc Guire was on air. Come on, who doesn’t like Lizzie McGuire?) and I am hooked. I am loving the whole San Cai (did I spell that right? Or is with an “H”?), Dao and Wazu Lei love story. Okay, maybe I am a little bit outdated and people other than myself already know the story and who’s going to end up with who, but I couldn’t help it. It’s so addicting.
It has that super kilig factor and there are some scenes that would make your eyes water. Aaahhh!!! Dao is so sweet! In a super possessive way, that is. But you know what? I don’t find any of the members of F4 cute at all. I like Xing Ha (okay, is that another misspelling?), San Cai’s bestfriend. Yup, that’s him.
Now, I know why everyone was so into it. It’s so cute. Oh and there’s another show that’s got me hooked – Veronica Mars.
I know what you guys are thinking, “she seriously needs a life”
Ha! I second that!=)

I am so sorry I missed last Saturday’s bash.=’c Something came up (in short, I wasn’t allowed-again. Nothing new) I heard you guys had a lot of fun. (Fun, without me. Ha, impossible. Haha. I bet namiss niyo ko *wink*)
Ohwell, belated happy birthday IJ! Advance happy birthday to Miko and Mia!=) Bon Voyage to Ashley (rising star!!). And to to those who are going to DLSU, school starts next week, enjoy the remaining days of your summer and have fun in DLSU (Pao, ADMU parin!)=)
I seriously miss all of you.. Raincheck!? =)

A local morning talk show had a very interesting topic last week. It was about love for family and of course love for that special significant other. (Filipinos always love sappy stories and believe in all that mushfest, so don’t blame me.)
Anyway, what got my attention was the fact that the people interviewed for that day all believed in DESTINY. So, that proves that I am not insane after all. *sigh*
There was one couple who were separated for seventeen years and then saw each other and got back together. Seventeen years!! Also, one actress said that even before you have met that person God had it all figured out. Very well said.=)

So, I am not insane. See, there are people who believe in what I believe in no matter how crappy it sounds. Its either that or there is really something wrong with this country.
*wink*

I caught Clueless on HBO a few days ago. I still love it. I cannot believe that in some ways I can relate to Cher. Okay, Cher minus the whole wardrobe, lack of involvement and popularity. To make things clearer maybe Cher mixed with Laney Boggs and Sam Baker. You probably get the picture.
Although, in some aspects I know I can be such a know it all, but most of the time I am just plain clueless. I try to stick my nose into other people’s business, fixing things for them to make them happy but when it comes to my own life, I hardly come up with any solutions. (I guess that’s what Abbie and Daisy’s there for. Lucky me.)
Helping other people (okay, maybe “helping” isn’t really the term here, more like “poking my nose in other people’s lives” fits better) is easier than having to sit down and sort out my own chaos.
I told you I am just plain clueless. This may sound totally whacked but solving a calculus problem is so much easier than having to go through brain surgery, trying to figure out where you went wrong, what you should be doing instead… blah… blah… blah…
So, that’s me whacked and totally clueless…
As-if.
Hahaha…=)

Text messages are keeping me happy. Very happy. Haha, especially the one Jen sent me yesterday. The whole 5-6 thing. It was so darn funny, I edited it and sent it to Pao, Zen and Carlo. It was so mean. Haha.=)
Anyway, so what have I been up to? Well, I’ve been watching a lot of basketball games lately and not just of the coke variety (by the way majorly upset with our standing and the fact that we lost against talk and text last night, even the fries couldn’t cheer me up.boo-hoo). I’ve been watching the NBA games ( I was actually rooting for Sacramento!) and other PBA games (I am now a major fan of SMB, haha). If coke’s not going to be the one to win this season, I hope SMB does. I really have no idea why people take this whole team thing seriously. Its hard to explain but then again its like a mortal sin if you cheer for a team other than yours. Its not, my dad knows I cheer for SMB. Oh and I know someone who dislikes Coke because she dislikes me. Weird noh?!
Okay, aside from basketball I’ve been doing a lot of writing lately. I finally got reinspired to write and write and write. So, there believe me that takes up most of my time and helping out at home and getting myself ready for the new phase in my life. Hehe…=)
So there… my life is dull it never fails to amaze me. Maybe that’s the reason why no one ever visits this site. haha=)

(Something isn’t right with the title, wahaha.)

My brother and my dad got into an arguement the other day. Over what? you may ask. Well, it was because my dad accidentally cracked my brother’s JoJo cd case. I have no idea how that happened, but let’s just say that it caused a little chaos at home. I sigh at the realization that my baby brother has found his first “perfect dream girl.”
This incident makes me smile, because five years ago the same thing happened, only that time it was me and it was an O-Town cd (im cringing as well.) I was 12 and my life evolved around pop stars, gossip about pop stars and wanting to be like pop stars.
When I look back its so funny how I was so obssesed with Nsync and Lance Bass. Up to this day, I couldn’t part with the Nsync memorabilia that I have gathered over the short time that I was “in love” with Nsync. (Maybe, I still am.Wahaha.)
Its funny because at that time I knew everything that was to know about this so called pop culture, I had every magazine and MTV was the main channel at home. Now, at 17 all I ever follow are the shows on ETC and I don’t even watch American Idol faithfully. I believe some kids would laugh at my ignorance. Its funny how my taste in music has evolved and how I have learned to keep myself busy with other things and its funny how things that use to matter a lot don’t even ring a bell to me these days.
But what’s amazing me is the fact that what I went through five years ago my brother an those of his age bracket are going through right now. And I know its not just about knowing what’s in and what’s not. I know that they are also feeling insecure, the way I did when I was that age ( I believe there are times when I still am) and the way I was confused about what I wanted and who I was.
I wish I could give them a book on how they should take on the next five years of thier life. I wish I could hand them a “first aid kit” to mend thier hurts that come from rejection, not fitting in and realizing your weaknesses. I wish I could. I wish I could shield them from everything that I’ve been through. I wish I could make them believe me that its okay to be a geek, to be different to not be a part of the popular group and that not buying from that “cool new” store wouldn’t matter. I wish I could but then again when I was that age and I met someone like who I am now, I wouldn’t like her very much.
I think its something each and everyone of us has to go through as difficult as it may seem. Now, I know why parents worry so much.
Okay, so this entry started out as the story of my love affair but ended as something that Dr. Phil Mc Graw would end up using. I swear these long summer days have affected my brain.

IF YOU WERE ON TRIAL AND SOMEONE YOU KNOW WHO ISN’T A LAWYER, HAD TO ACT AS YOUR LEGAL REPRESENTATIVE, WHO WOULD YOU WANT TO DEFEND YOU?

** Arvin, without a doubt.


IF YOU COULD THE DIARY OF ONE PERSON YOU DON’T KNOW PERSONALLY, WHO WOULD IT BE?

** “2.3”…=)

IF YOU COULD HAVE A REALTIONSHIP WITH ANY FICTIONAL CHARACTER, WHO WOULD IT BE?

** Michael Moscovitz from Princess Diaries or Marcus Flutie from Second Helpings. Wahaha.=)

IF YOU COULD LIVE THE LIFE OF ANY FICTIONAL CHARACTER, WHOSE LIFE WILL IT BE?

** Mia Thermopolis and that’s not just because of Michael. Hehe.=)

IF YOU COULD CHOOSE BOTH MAJOR CANDIDATES FOR THE NEXT UNITED STATES PRESIDENTIAL ELECTIONS WHO WOULD YOU PICK?

** Spongebob Squarepants (Patrick for V. Pres) and Buzz Lightyear (Woody for V. Pres)

IF YOU COULD SPEND ONE YEAR LOOKING FOR ONE THING IN THE WORLD, WHAT WOULD YOU SEARCH FOR?

** World Peace. (beauty contest?) seriously, 2.3. but I guess i’ve found it na…haaay naku so complicated. i really love complicating things.

IF YOU COULD PICK ONE FAMOUS PERSON TO BE YOUR NEIGHBOR, WHO WILL IT BE?

** Oprah or Mc Donalds.Haha.=)

IF YOU COULD MAKE ONE FAIRYTALE COME TRUE WITH YOURSELF IN IT, WHICH WOULD IT BE AND WHY?

** This sounds like a beauty contest question (don’t get me started on beauty contests). Beauty and the beast. Why? because belle fell in love with the “beast” even before she saw how he really looked like. now, if that isn’t a good enough reason then i don’t know what is..

do i bag the title?

give me a break.=p

Love love the title.Haha. Its been a long time since I’ve blogged not thanks to the fact that our computer at home still ignores internet or anything else that is as hi-tech as the internet such as DSL. I’m afraid to say that our computer is technically challenged, and its something that zena cannot fix. boo-hoo. Im glad that the whole thing that i’ve been ranting about in my past entries have been cleared already, thankfully=) (glad na, thankfully pa.hehe)
So, its May already and I just had myself enrolled today. It was such a long process and the whole drug test thing is still freaking me out. Haha. I’ll be in college soon. FYI, I have decided not to go to DLSU, AC or UAP. I have decided to go SISC and I would specialize in SPED (I can hear you going, “bagay sayo, bia”). College. Scary. Ho-Hum. Most of my college friends are saying that its just like highschool. I guess id find out for myself soon. Yikes.
I have been addicted to Joan of Arcadia, Veronica Mars and American Dreams. One Tree Hill’s just a teeny bit boring and the excitement’s all gone now that Paolo told me that Haley isn’t going to end up with Nathan. Boo-Hoo. Wrong move, haley.haha=) Smallville’s new season is sooooooo nice and exciting. I wonder whatever happened to Pete.hehe=)

X-CESS:
Buy Meg’s May issue if you want to see my rather good looking friend IJ or shall I say mr. yabang? (Joke, IJ. Love ya!). And I changed my friendster name to Carla, my first name. Wala lang something new diba?! for college…hehehe=)