.:. Joan and Adam .:.
The whole Joan and Adam lovestory has got me captivated. Its not as unrealistic as Lana and Clark, as mushy as Nathan and Haley (I still think haley’s stupid and selfish) or as complicated as Marissa and Ryan (arrggg…would they ever get over themsevles?). The whole show doesn’t focus on it-but its still there. You see Joan and Adam were friends at the start of the show when she first moved to Arcadia. Then God intervened. He asked her to do something that would hurt Adam (she wrecked his greatest piece of art). After a few episodes they were back to being friends and even kissed at some point. But God intervened again. Adam ended up dating someone else (Iris) since Joan didn’t seem to know what she wants (hmm..sounds familiar). Obviously, they still liked each other but both are just confused. Every Joan of Arcadia episode makes me cry but the one last Friday is definetly one for the books.
SCENES FROM LAST FRIDAY’S EPISODE
(This scene is when Joan comments on Adam’s new way of dressing. He was wearing a colored shirt as opposed to his old “gray” way of dressing. His new look was inspired by his new girlfriend.)

ADAM: “What are we Jane?” (btw, he calls her Jane). We’re not together but sometimes I feel that we are.
Joan tries to say something but obviously doesn’t have enough courage. You should have seen their expression, it was a totally “haaay” moment.

(This scene is in the hallway after school. The night before Joan was with Adam. She was upset over some family stuff and asked for Adam’s advice. They were about to kiss when Iris caught them.)
Joan: I’m sorry for being such a flake, Adam. Its just that our first kiss was just supposed to go away. But after last night…

Adam: (his eyes are obviously tearing up) I’m with Iris, Jane.

Joan: I know its just…

(They are not interruptted by Iris, who kisses Adam infront of Joan. Gurrr. Joan walks away and Adam’s eyes are still welling up.)

(This scene happens in Joan’s porch. She’s crying due to family problems and she just spoke with God when Adam arrives.)

ADAM:Why are you crying Jane?

Joan: Well,its not entirely because of you. Just some of it. (tries to giggle)

Adam: I spoke to Iris.

Joan: What did you tell her?

Adam: I told her how I felt… I feel the same way you feel, Jane. I’ve been hurt before Jane and im afraid. But I thought of you and suddenly being afraid doesn’t matter anymore.

(Joan doesn’t say anything but cries again.)

Adam: You’re crying again.

Joan: (with a smile) I know..

Okay, okay accuse me of being mushy but yeah it made me cry. I couldn’t explain it. I was just really really touched by the scene. Finally, they’re together. And you know what adds more to “kilig factor”?
The fact that behind all of this is God. . .;) Despite all the “intervening” He did at the beginging, adam and joan still ended up together (at least as of the last episode).
Hope for all of us who believe that there really is someone out there.. somewhere…at the right time.

.:. MIDTERMS NEXT WEEK .:.
I am staying in this weekend. I have to review for 4 subjects. We’re allowed to open our notes and books for two subjects but still its better to come prepared. So there I may not be able to blog for awhile. Hmmm.. Pray for me. I can do this. Business Math succcckkkkss! hahaha.
Ohwell, God Bless to everyone who’s having thier midterms next week. 🙂

Artist: Fastball
Album: All The Pain Money Can Buy
Title: Out Of My Head

Sometimes I feel
Like I am drunk behind the wheel
The wheel of prosperity
However it may roll
Give it a spin
See if you can somehow factor in
You know there’s always more than one way
To say exactly what you mean to say
Chorus:
Was I out of my head?
Was I out of my mind?
How could I have ever been so blind?
I was waiting for an indication
It was hard to find
Don’t matter what I say only what I do
I never mean to do bad things to you
So quiet but I finally woke up
If you’re sad then it’s time you spoke up too

Boy meets Girl.
Boy pursues Girl.
Girl falls in love.
Boy stops calling.
Girl asks why.
Boy never replies.

Its a never ending cycle…

And maybe this cycle is the reason why I’m so damn afraid

.:. I miss my angels .:.

.:. My wonderful Hyenas.:.
Finding people as whacked and loka loka as me is a rare find. But what can I say? I’ve been blessed. 🙂

.:. The New Me .:.

Over the weekend, I’d like to think that I had a major personality overhaul. Okay, I think i haven’t changed completely. It tooke me seventeen years to get where I am, or at least where I used to be. But I got tired of who I was. I mean, don’t get me wrong I like myself but there are pieces of me that i don’t like. My dad told me that I should let go of the past, be nicer to people and return meaness with kindness. This time I listened to what he said and tried to do it for myself. Its been new to me, but I think I’m doing okay. Its not the easiest thing to do but I prayed and asked for “kindness” so thats what I did. The Lord gives and provides… all we have to do is ask. I think I am going to start posting more personal entries. I think that goes with being authentic-one that I’m striving to be.

.:. How Superficial I was .:.
I was going through my whacked duo, Kae’s blog (iloveskyflakes.blogspot.com) and I got into her entry about superficiality. Well, it really wasn’t about superficiality but it said something about that so that got me thinking. For the first time i realized how superficial I was for the past six weeks of college. I have forgotten that what matters is how the person is on the inside. I’m old enough to know that. But let’s say that i’m only human and got carried away. But my superficiality streak is over now. There’s more to life than plain good looks and its plain better to get to know a person and each time you see that person,that person becomes more beautiful because they have substance.

they love the camera as much as i do <3