(I’m actually in my I.T. class, we have a twenty minute break. Yippee.)
First day of my college life (why whenever I say it, it always sounds dramatic?). I had my first class this morning (I have a super weird schedule on Tuesdays, I have a three hour break-argg), Principles of marketing. It was an interesting class. I actually enjoyed eventhough it was for three hours. I was a bit sleepy at first but after the break (yes the actually give out breaks on the second hour, wahaha! *snicker*) I was energetic again. (See im not always energetic=p)
Anyway, I really have to make this quick. Im having fun, meeting new people and just exploring new things. College is so different from highschool. Its more carefree and no one seems to care. Not everything’s restricted anymore. Although, I know I have to study more now and concentrate and focus and all that academic stuff.
I miss my friends though, I super super miss them=’c I miss sir ben too. haha=) Im actually enjoying college and everything in between. =)
I know its just the first day but im super optimistic…*wink*

We lost last friday. Fedex lost last night. Only one team left to cheer for. Go SMB!!!

“The Day You Said Goodnight”
HALE
Take me as you are
Push me off the road the sadness
I need this time to be with you I’m freezing in the sun;
I’m burning in the rain
The silence
I’m screaming, Calling out your name.
And i do reside in your light
Put out the fire with me and find
Yeah you’ll lose the side of your circles
That’s what i’ll do if we say goodbye.
To be is all i gotta be
And all that i see
And all that i need this time
To me the life you gave me
The day you said goodnight.
The calmness in your face
That i see through the night
The warmth of your light is pressing unto us
You didn’t ask me why I never would have known oblivion is falling down.
And i do reside in your hear
Put out the fire with me and find
Yeah you’ll lose the side of your circles
That’s what i’ll do if we say goodbye.
To be is all i gotta be
And all that i see
And all that i need this time
To me the life you gave me
The day you said goodnight.
If you could only know me like your prayers at night
Then everything between you and me will be all Right.
To be is all i gotta be
And all that i see
And all that i need this time
To me the life you gave me
The day you said goodnight.
She’s already taken,
She’s already taken
She’s already taken me
She’s already taken,
She’s already taken
She’s already taken me.
The day you said goodnight

On Monday, I’d actually have to leave the comfort of my bed and home. School starts. Im excited, the same time nervous. Anyway, what I’m trying to say that it may take some time before I could write up an entry again.
Just wish it would be sooner than later… That doesnt make sense, but I know you get my point…haha….=))

* Its okay to stay at home if you dont feel like going out. That doesn’t make you less human.

* Its okay to say how you feel.

* Its okay to turn someone down.

* Its okay to be different. Life is beautiful because of its intricacies.

* Its okay to be YOU.
By being you I mean the real you, not the crappy verison of yourself. If you like to be alone, fine. If you like the crowd, fine. Just learn to accept people for who they are and what they want. ITS OKAY.

You are beautiful, unique and most of all as cheesy as it may sound, God Loves You.=) and so do I. *wink*

Simple Kind of Life- No Doubt

For a long time I was in love
Not only in love
I was obsessed
With a friendship that no one else could touch
It didn’t work out, I’m covered in shells
And all I wanted was the simple things
A simple kind of life
And all I needed was a simple man
So I could be a wife
I’m so ashamed, I’ve been so mean
I don’t know how it got to this point
I always was the one with all the love
You came along, I’m hunting you down
Like a sick domestic abuser looking for a fight
And all I wanted was the simple things
A simple kind of life
If we met tomorrow for the very first time
Would it start all over again?
Would I try to make you mine?
I always thought I’d be a mom
Sometimes I wish for a mistake
The longer that I wait
The more selfish that I get
You seem like you’d be a good dad
Now all those simple things are simply too complicated for my life
How’d I get so faithful to my freedom?
A selfish kind of life
When all I ever wanted was the simple things
A simple kind of life

(Before I start, Jen I super agree with what you said. I think its time for me to let go of past regrets and hurts. I think its finally time for me to move on.=))

Most of the time, as i’ve said in my “stuck in sesame street” entry, I feel left out. As if the whole world’s growing up and I’m not. Most of the time I feel that way but there are also days wherein I think i’ve grown up in more ways than one.
I can now make decisions for myself, I have let go past issues and I have learned to trust in the Lord more. And also, I finally accept people for who they are. I no longer find the change them so they could fit to my liking. I learn to appreciate people more.

And you know what? Im ten times happier.=)

A conversation between Chi and Me a few months back.

Chi: “You know what we should do?
Me: “What?”
Chi: “We should take more risks”

I agreed but at the back of my mind, I was thinking, “Me? Take risks. Yeah, in another lifetime” You see when it comes to my life and my long range goals, everything is in black and white. There’s a plan A, a plan B and a plan C.
Which is why switching schools and courses at the very last minut is totally beyond me. Its so not like me. And I realize, with eyes closed that I am finally taking more risks. Its a mix of emotions, fear being the evident one. But I have my trust in the Lord and in my heart I know this is what He wants for me.

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I am now officially enrolled at SFC. Taking up Business Administration major Advertising and Public Relations Mangement. A giant leap, heart and brain surgery. But don’t worry I still have major plans. Plan A, Plan B and Plan C. Typical.=)
KC must be so proud. I am finally taking risks. I never knew it could be so fun.
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“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future,”
Jeremiah29:11

* The other night while watching One Tree Hill, I found myself crying and enraged at Haley (Pao agrees with me with this one) for leaving Nathan. It was as if these characters were real and I was a part of thier whole drama. (So glad Jake is back!)

*While the head of the school I was applying to explained to me how the school works etc etc, I ended up crying. Why? Maybe because I was overwhelmed by the information and the realization that I may be switiching courses and school. It was so embarassing, especially since everyone in the office asked what I was crying about. Seriously, the stopped working and asked what was wrong. It was as if im in kindergarten, not college.

*Vending machines don’t accept hundred peso bills no matter how many times you kick it. I should have known that.

*When taking entracne tests, its better to sit still. Don’t tap, don’t clack your tounge, look outside the windows (the blinds are kindda distracting, I realize) and don’t sigh heavily. Trust me ont his or else, the guy who’s also taking the test will give you dubious looks as if saying, “Ang ingay naman!” Oh, how I rememeber those Lance ssshhhing days!

* When your mom shows you a shirt (its what I have to wear every Friday, since Fridays are “casual” days) that seems to be a little too big for you. Don’t argue or whine like I did. Instead, try it on and you’ll realize that it only looks huge. Oh and don’t do it in a room filled with soon to be school mates. Not such a great impression. How I wish they didn’t notice. Hehe.

*I am an almost adult now so its not such a good idea to tug your dad’s arm while saying, “I want to wwaaaaaaaaaattttch!” Just because you thought you couldn’t tag along when he watches the basketball game (my brother and I did tag along and SMB won-yeehhey!!). Yup, not such a good idea.

* If your younger brother subsequently asks you who your new crush is, its better to just ignore him rather than saying in a rather annoying manner, “Guess Who! Guess Who” over and over. He finally gets annoyed and tackles you. This is so not cute since he is now taller than I am by two inches and thirty pounds heavier.

*I watch cheesy televenovelas while switiching to anything good on ETC, a basketball game and As Told by Ginger. (kapamilya ‘to! haha)


*I can watch a basketball game, an ETC show, cheesy televenovela all at the same time without ever having to miss out on anything significant. If that’s not considered a talent, I don’t know what is. *wink*

* I don’t like “normal” guys. This should be a problem for thirteen year olds and not a self actualized 16 soon to be 17 year old.

Wait a minute… am i even self actualized? =))

“You just have to surrender and deal with reality. Surrender, meaning accepting reality.The quicker you accept reality, the quicker you can deal with it. You can only dealwith reality if you accept and deal with it step by step. Deal with reality here and now.Do not regret too much of the past, and things that didn’t turn out well. Do not befretful of the future because in the end you can only do so much. Sometimes theoutcome is not always a triumph, sometimes you die. Sometimes you fail-manytimes you fail. But it’s the attitude towards the outcome that really defines you.And whatever happens,if you come out whole-in that you know yourself more,with a better relationship with God and other people, even in the most complex contentious,maybe acrimonious of circumstances,then i think you win”
-manuel dayrit, ME magazine