The kids love it.

This was my surprise of the day. Everyone at the center was able to enjoy such delicious cake from Cafe de Lipa.

YUM 🙂

i used to hide that girl. i used to hide the girl who couldn’t talk to people and rather write about them on her six year old blog. i used to be ashamed of her because society dictates that in order to be a cool girl, you have to be sipping a drink, puffing a cigarette and breaking guys’ hearts just by walking in the room.

i thought that was the only girl that deserved the spotlight. it also made me think that guys and people would be bored with me because i could never stay up past 12.

secretly, i liked who i am but i wasn’t strong enough to show people who i was. i was too busy trying to be stick thin, trying to be chinita and hated everyone who was. i was busy being bitter, that i forgot to step aside and see me as the person God made me to be.

if God wanted me to be chinita, or if he wanted me to be with a guy who only appreciated chinitas and the korean invasion or taiwanese or japanese, whatever, then he would have made my eyes smaller and a few inches shorter.

but He didn’t.

He made me five eight tall and gave me eyes that would give Bambi a run for her money. there’s nothing oriental-ish about me. i actually don’t know what lineage i show, but it’s definitely not some chinita chick from ateneo (or la salle).

i’ve spent all my life trying to run from who i was and the things that i enjoyed, i insisted on becoming someone i clearly wasn’t just to be rejected by someone who wants San Chai, not Hailey (i’m watching One Tree Hill again so sue me!).

i like writing. i like reading. i like googling random stuff, stuff that no one cares about. i love joking around with my students, i feel alive when i’m with them. i’ll probably not be a clingy girlfriend and i’ll probably not want him telling me how to dress and most importantly, i have no time or room to flirt and make a guy feel good about himself because he can’t do it himself.

i love learning and i’d love to learn from my partner. most importantly, i’d love to have someone beside me because He feels that’s where God wants Him to be and not just because i’m chinita or whatever.

i want a relationship that doesn’t rely on dates or cheap flirting techniques. that means that’s a relationship with someone who appreciates the little quirks i have without comparing me to everyone else.

and if it takes longer for that guy to arrive because i am, admittedly one weird chick, then it’s okay.

because for the first time in a really really long time, i don’t need it.

i don’t need it to feel good about myself. i don’t need it to validate how worthy i am and i don’t need it to validate what my standing in life is.

because for one thing, i am loved by the One who created me and therefore, He is filling my life with people that I need at this particular time of my life.

and because He loves me and He accepts me for who He made me to be, it’s not too difficult for me to love and accept myself the way He made me.

God is a lot of things. He’s a lot of things to me, but the one thing that He isn’t it’s this: He doesn’t make mistakes.

He created me this way and it’s my job to love the life He sent His son for and be thankful that everyday, there’s a blessing that manifests itself that allows me to love His creation more.

God is truly good and no, i don’t think i need to be chinita to appreciate that.

*disclaimer: nothing against chinitas, i think you are the most beautiful girls on earth, i was merely stating a point. it’s the same as saying supermodel but for me the chinitas have it good! 🙂

There are some things in life that are too good to be true. Some things that are way too wonderful to have no damage that goes along with this perfect gift.

Sometimes, we think that we’ve got it so good that if this perfect thing goes bad, we end up being broken, or at the very least, bruised.

I keep trying to search for the reason why something like this happened when in truth, only good intentions were brought forth. But i don’t want to react simply because I know that God is trying to teach me a lesson here.

So i’m letting it go, including the ill feelings and simply focus on why i love doing what i’m doing.

I’m so blessed, the little things shouldn’t get to me as the enemy intended.

I’m changing my mindset. Things will turn out really well soon.

Have a good Tuesday, everyone.

This is why I love Mondays. God is good. He blessed me with work that I truly love and care about.

Spent the day in Paseo de Sta. Rosa. Ate in Cafe Breton after a long long time.

God is good. Looking forward to a wonderful week ahead!

What a great way to end the week, God is good 🙂

There’s always something nice about a crappy day and for me, it’s this view that greets me everyday 🙂 And believe me when i say that once you think that way, God truly turns it around 🙂

One day, i’ll be able to tell Franzea that we watched the inauguration of our 15th president together.

It was a good day. A day of new beginnings. Who knows? Maybe President Aquino would bring changes into this country. 🙂

Happy that I shared it with everyone’s favorite little girl 🙂