I finally got to finish memoirs of a geisha. It was an amazing book. Too bad the chairman was so stupid. sayuri-san likes YOU you know and not NOBU-SAN!!!

Since Sunday, I’ve been looking forward to the lunch date I had set with the ‘rents yesterday. Okay, I know its not like they don’t bring and fetch me from school everyday or its not like I spend all my weekends partying that I hardly see them, but really with my younger brother tagging along everywhere, I barely get the time to really sit down and have a decent conversation with them- not that there is a lot going on in my life, but still, there are simply times that I love to spend quality “alone time” with them. It was quite funny actually because my dad who’s been really busy for the past weeks finally got the low-down on my “circle” and let me tell you, my stories freaked him out.

HIS REACTION TO A STORY THAT I CAN’T DIVULGE HERE BECAUSE I’VE SWORN TO SECRECY. (Don’t worry I didn’t include names or anything, I do know how to keep a secret, I was just merely asking for advice, you know from a parent’s point of view, I so don’t tattle on my friends. Okay, that made me sound like a first grader, but I don’t tattle, okay?!)

DAD (HIS EYES HUGE, HIS LIPS TIGHT- ITS HIS “SHOCKED” LOOK):
“What?! How old is she?”
ME (WHILE TRYING TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO REFILL MY COFFEE WITHOUT ACTUALLY HAVING TO DO SO):
“17. My age”
(My dad’s eyes are now wider, you can see the creases in between his eyebrows, uh-oh not a good sign)
DAD: “WHAT?! WHERE ARE HER PARENTS?!”
ME (HAPPY BECAUSE FINALLY I FOUND A TECHNIQUE TO FILL MY CUP WITHOUT ASKING FOR A REFILL): *shrugs* “With her. Don’t freak out about it, its normal”
DAD (STILL CAN’T MOVE ON FROM THE TOPIC WHEN BOTH MY MOM AND I OBVIOUSLY HAVE):
“How is it normal?”
MOM (WHO LETS OUT A BIG SIGH):
“Duh” (I am not making up these things, they actually talk like that)
(My dad finally lets the topic go but still obviously shocked. The conversation suddenly turns into lighter subjects until…)

MOM: “We saw *toot* smoking when we came to pick you up”
(I give my mom “the look” before indulging myself in the much-awaited ham and cheese sandwich..Hmm… it was really good by the way)
ME: “Uh…yeah, I think I saw him too.”
(I was about to take another bite when my dad reacted. Uh-oh. Remind me to never tell Carl who I find cute again. This kind of information always finds a way back to my dad)
DAD (Creases between the eyebrows forming again): “You know I allow to have crushes…”
( I cut him off… politely)
ME: “Uh…duh, I’m about to be 18, besides, I don’t like that guy anymore. Haay, you can be so KJ sometimes.(giggle)”
Dad (with a little sneer. I can see that he enjoys torturing me when it comes to these things. My dad the joker): “Even when you’re forty, I’ll continue being one if I know that the guy isn’t right”

(At this point, my mom and I look at each other and smile- we’ve heard this speech before)

Dad(continuing, obviously oblivious of the exchanged “looks”): “I tell you, if a guy has many vices then he isn’t a good one. He’d be a drunkard too and would be out every night. Choose one who knows what he wants in life, one who has priorities. Wag yung kung sino sino lang na walang direksyon! And don’t believe everything they say… Alam mo na!”

(I give him a smile. Its crazy because I know what I want and my dad knew too. He seriously has nothing to worry about.)

ME: “Uh… I know dad and I’m not just saying this. I know what I want, I won’t be swayed easily. I am just being nice, I actually what’s sincere and what’s not”

(Creases between the eyebrows finally soften and this makes me happy, you know why- I actually meant what I said. I continue on with my ham and cheese and my mom opens up another topic and I give my dad a smile saying this, “Trust me dad, I know what I want when that time comes”. Mom agrees on me with this one.).

My dad is probably the coolest dad ever. He’s not rigid or strict at all, impossible as it may sound, my lifestyle is actually my choice. I am at home all the time not because I am not allowed to go to places (well, uh, technically, maybe…but I know you get my point) but because I chose this kind of lifestyle. Different people, different choices. My life may not be that exciting… yet, but I’m happy and blessed with and its kindda amazing that every once in awhile, through conversations like these, I am made to realize that I am actually making the right choices in life. I know some people may find my life boring, but heck… what do they really know anyway? *wink*

I am in my political science class and its quite interesting (seriously). We’re talking about this article written by Adrian E. Cristobal and its about the NSO and the ‘would be elections’ (it was an article dated before the 2004 elections). Its interesting but not interesting enough to make me stop surfing friends on friendster and blog. Haha. Amazingly enough, I came across this blog on friendster from someone I don’t even talk to in school. I just know who that person is but I never realized that that person had such deep words to say. Everyone sees that person’s arrogant side but what they fail to see is that underneath it all-that person has something that most of us are afraid of-individuality. Its so admirable. So brave. If only they would give that person a chance…Hehe.

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I cry like a baby when I don’t get my way
Do you want me?
I won’t apologize when I make a mistake
Do you want me?
I got scars on my heart and they won’t go away
Looking for someone to take them from me
Everybody knows I’m a little insane
Do you want me?
Oh I try to be normal
I try to put one foot in front of the other
And I fail
You don’t even know
I’m aliveI open my mouth cause
I’m waiting for your love to fall from the sky
And I fail
You think that I’m out of my mind
And maybe your scared to be right
But you’ll never know till you get me alone
Do you want me?
I tell it to you straight so we can’t get worse
Do you want me?
I want to show you me but first things first
Do you want me?
Looking for a saviour to save my soul
All the damage I have done has left a big hole
Everybody knows I just want someone to hold
Do you want me?
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OMG! I’ve been so caught up in the little annoyances in my life that I forgot to mention that
MANNY PACQUIAO WON!!! I actually watched the fight (partly because I found eric morales cute-haha!) but anyway he won!!:) Haay…Galing…I now appreciate boxing more:)

I have no idea what i’m bitchin’ about. Really, my mood swings kill. Haha. I can be so moody its crazy. And the thing with me is the things that really annoy me and get my moods swinging are the little things. My ate constantly reminds me to not sweat the small stuff and yet I do. I should let the little things go. I am so weird. The big problems, I can handle head on but those little ones, like getting pissed over little pet peeves, really really turn my mood sour. Its kindda psychotic when you think about it, the big problems I could face with a smile on my face but the little ones……well, you know my pouty face. Hehe.

I hate it when people disappoint me- intentional or not. I know I shouldn’t demand or expect from people a lot and really, I don’t. But sometimes when people take me for granted…well it hurts most of the time. I hate being taken for granted. I really hate it.

I also hate it when people become so nice to me when they need something or not with thier friends but become meanies when they no longer need anything or when in the presence of their “crowd”. I know once again that people have thier reasons for doing such but again, its a pet peeve.

I also hate the fact that people get judged based on what they look like. Its crazy. During my lunch break earlier, I was quietly observing people in the cafeteria and realized that yes, everyone looks different and unique, but that doesn’t take away thier right to be loved. Everyone has the right to be accepted for who they are and loved sincerly despite what they look like, what they wear, who they’re with or who they really are. There are times when im hopeful of the fact that there are still amazing people on earth who are genuine, sincere and honest. But on days like these, oh gad…where are they? Sometimes, I even think that I’m not up to that.

When would people start treating other people right? When will that certain kind of love finally arrive for those who actually deserve it? Sometimes the world is so full of deceit and conceit that you can hardly find anything real, simple or uncomplicated anymore. Everyone has to have thier drama and it sucks. I used to be pride myself in being the “dramaqueen” (okay, don’t laugh) but now I realized that I don’t need or deserve anymore drama in my life.

Okay, now that’s out of my system, I finally feel better. I hope its just one of those days caused by the stupid weather. Ohwell, at least the day’s over for me and I feel hopeful because tomorrow is definetley another day:)

Hey. If you’re planning to rip off some of my bloggerings please do me a favor and ask permission. I won’t hate you for it, but i would like to know if someone snatched some of my bloggerings. Thanks:)

* nickelodeon nights
– Since I hardly have anything to watch during weeknights (no thanks to the reruns of “veronica mars”, “joan of arcadia” and “american dreams”) except during Tuesdays (I don’t care if they rerun season 2 of Tree Hill again, I’ll still continue to watch it, even if I’ve memorized the lines already. Hihi.) , I am so grateful to know that nick nights are there to salvage me from my boredom. See, fairly odd parents is shown at 8, rugrats: all grown up is at 8:30 and as told by ginger is on at 9. Seriously, what more could a girl ask for?
* memoirs of a geisha
– If my memory serves me right, Chi has been asking me to read that book ever since my junior year in high school, I recall that Thea wanted to lend me her copy as well. The ignorant that I am, I refused because I thought it would be some boring book about some Japanese girl that I couldn’t care less about. I was so wrong. It’s so interesting and exotic, I am enjoying every minute of it. I haven’t seen the movie yet, I shall when I’m done with the book, haha:-) (it has inspired me to wear a “kimono inspired” top to the game today…haha)
* PCD
– I thought that the pussycat dolls would be the reincarnation of the spice girls. Again, I was wrong. You should go get a copy of their album, I am so loving their songs:-)
* James Blunt
– Do I really need to tell you WHY?
* Livin’ with Fran
– If you haven’t seen one episode, you are missing a lot.:-) It’s so damn funny and it doesn’t hurt to see Ryan Mc Partlin, who, I must say is a taller and blonder version of James Lafferty- need I say more?

IF YOU HAD TO CHOOSE ONE THING THAT GIVES YOU THE MOST COMFORT, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
– Only one? Now, that’s difficult. I’ll give three: chocolates, hugs and coffee.

IF YOU HAD TO NAME THE ONE THING THAT FRIGHTENS YOU ABOUT GROWING OLD, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
– Growing old alone, with no one to call, no grand children to visit and no one wondering if im still alive.

IF YOU HAD TO NAME THE ONE MOST IMPORTANT INGREDIENT OF HUMAN BEAUTY, WHAT WOULD YOU SAY IT IS?
– Confidence and Simplicity. (Sorry, I am really bad when it comes to “one things” haha)

IF YOU COULD BE THE CHARACTER IN AN SPY NOVEL, WHO WOULD YOU CHOOSE TO BE?
– Shelby Woo. I miss that TV show… oh and she had a book, so my answer is considered!

IF YOUR CHILDREN COULD READ ONLY FOUR BOOKS WHILE GROWING UP WHICH WOULD YOU HAVE THEM READ?
– The Bible. Purpose-Driven Life. Tuesdays with Morrie. Five People You Meet in Heaven.
IF YOU COULD ELIMINATE A SINGLE KIND OF DANGER (OTHER THAN DEATH) FOR YOUR CHILDREN, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
– The danger of getting hurt and being rejected that could actually ruin people and make them do things that they would otherwise not think about.

IF YOU HAD TO NAME THE ONE THING THAT REALLY MAKES YOUR DAY, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
– Laughter over an inside joke shared with people I <3. :-p IF YOU HAVE TO NAME THE SINGLE MOST CHARMING PERSON YOU’VE EVER MET, WHO WOULD IT BE?
– Here we go again with the “single” blahs, I told you I always have two answers to a question… anyway, RAINE AND CY:-)

IF YOU HAD TO ELIMINATE ONE EMOTION FROM YOUR LIFE, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
– Insecurity. I don’t know if that’s an emotion perse, but still.

IF YOU HAD TO THE NAME THE ONE PERSONALITY TRAIT THAT YOU HAVE TRIED THE HARDEST TO CHANGE IN YOURSELF, WHAT WOULD YOU SAY?
– my unnecessary mood swings. Haha.
IF YOU HAD TO NAME THE SADDEST THING YOU’VE EVER WITNESSED WHAT WOULD IT BE?
– When I turned on the TV at 4 in the morning on December 17, 2004 and saw that all these flash reports showing a house caught on fire and finding out that a good friend died because of it… KC, I still miss you :-c

Shine… thank you for the dvds, the fruitcake and the “sunshine” you add to my life:)

Duo…for everything, for you generosity, understanding my bitchy mood swings and everything else:)

Kax, Asian, Zen and Beshi…thanks for coming yesterday. Deeply appreciated:) we MUJST go out soon:)

Lear…for making me talk during our polisci report…hahaha!;p

Mia… for the testimonial;)

Carlos….for saving our seats during the assembly:)

Mark…for helping me with ecology, life…hehe;p

Junar….for your never-ending Junarisms:)

thanks for making me smile guys:) XOXOXO:)

Anyway, some of them you must have seen already. I got them from my previous entries. Hihi. Anyway…. yeah, you make me laugh…so thank you:)

sorry my entries have been really quick…ive just been really busy…hehe:)