Nobody’s gonna hold me back
It’s friday nightI feel alright
Nobody’s gonna bring me down
It’s my life
And I’m doing fine
Don’t you know I wanna play
So take me on a holiday
So here I am
Looking pretty for you
They come and they go
So many faces it’s no use
So I’m dancing alone
Dreaming solo
Cause your love’s the one worth waiting for
It’s just like heaven
Nobody’s gonna break my heart
And hurt me like they did before
No one can even get the part
Not until I know it’s deep
Can’t you come and take me away
Take me to another place
So here I amLooking pretty for you
They come and they go
So many faces it’s no use
So I’m dancing alone
Dreaming solo
Cause your love’s the one worth waiting for
It’s just like heaven

-Dancing Alone

So, the geek, otherwise known as yours truly, decided to not spend the “entire” weekend at home. Instead, I went out and decided to get myself my much needed life. For the record and I have no idea why, I really don’t like going out except when I need a new book, when there’s a game, when my parents drag me somewhere or school. Oh and of course when its someone’s birthday-and those have to be special people since I don’t like staying up late and “partying” because I can be such a grouch the next day. Haha. My kuya says this might change when I grow older but please, I’d rather have a conversation with someone in one of the many Starbucks scattered all over town than go to a bar and “try” to have a conversation over the loud music (with someone’s who’s not drunk, high or “bumping and grinding” with everyone-impossible). Excuse the cynicism and I know these things aren’t bad and can be considered fun once in awhile but when one is constantly doing it-please, what a lifestyle. Okay, why did I even get there? This entry is so not for that. Back to what I was saying, so I decided to not be ms. Boring last weekend and decided to go with my dad to go watch the practice. I missed basketball that much that I allowed myself to be dragged by the boys in my life (the other one left last week) and watch the practice. Fun. Wasn’t the same though but I’m glad I got my basketball overdose. I miss it oh so much. (As I am writing this I am actually watching the TNT and Air21 game) Speaking of basketball, right after practice, I just had a leeway to the parlor and we headed straight to Araneta because my dad had to watch the first game. I couldn’t be happier to be in Starbucks Araneta doing my Ecology homework- heaven. (Haha, I’m so weird noh? I didn’t watch the first game because I felt that I already spent quite a few hours away from schoolwork, which has already been piled up on the first week and I felt that I needed to get to work).
Day didn’t end there though, instead we had to head back south (home sweet home) to attend a reunion/despidida party for my tito. I was actually supposed to work on some school work but had too much fun talking about life, one tree hill and nasty highschool memories with a childhood friend, Jade. I had so much fun. I was kindda embarrassed cause I felt that I bored the hell out of her, but I hope I didn’t. She was really fun to talk to and she understood my certain views on life, love and ahem… the sensitive weight issue. Overall, the day was great. One that I needed before I fully immersed myself into my chaotic college life. Oh and you know what’s another thing that I learned? There are still good, nice and polite people on earth. I would no longer elaborate, but yeah, there are still nice people on earth and that got me thinking that maybe.. it isn’t such a bad world after all. *smiles*

LESSON 1:

Dealing with uncertainties:
2 sources of uncertainty:

-the real variability of nature
-every measurement has some error.

“measurement uncertainty can be reduced by improving the instruments and by requiring a standard procedure in making instruements”

HOW I RELATE IT TO MY CRAZED LIFE:
Nothing in this random life is every certain. Everywhere you turn there would be some random thing ready to smack you in the head and smash your heart. But by improving certain “instruements” (like strengthening yourself and your resolve) you can actually make things better. Be ready for it and face it. “Fear is the only thing that hurts”.

LESSON 2:
“When we confuse what we would like to believe with what we have the evidence to believe, we have a weak basis for making critical decisions-decisions that could have far reaching and serious consequences”

HOW I RELATE IT TO MY CRAZED LIFE:
Take life as it comes. Don’t expect, don’t assume and live life day by day. Don’t sweat the small stuff-ohman! even my eco book knows better than me! Haha.

This is what I get for being such a geek-learning my life lessons out of a science book. Oh yes, the geek, that’s me. It’s kindda embarassing really. No worries though because I do have a social life and I don’t go around with pen protectors or in plaid tablecloth like clothes, I just simply love learning- so bite me. Hahaha

I was really pissed earlier but I no longer want to elaborate why or because of who. I realized that me bitchin’ back won’t get me anywhre. That person may be insensitive and annoying but I should not deal with them but being insensitive and annoying as well. I deal with them by ignoring them-by letting them be and not sweating the small stuff. Whoot! I feel so much better. !!:))) hihi, ohwell TREE HILL tonight:)

Artist: Plumb
Album: Beautiful lumps of coal
Title: Taken

I can see you standing in the pouring rain
Waiting for changes to carry you away
I can see the light fall from your eyes
As we get lost in the tears of this goodbye
But you can’t go farther
Than my heart can go
Cause I’ll still be loving you
Through the sadness and the madness here
And I’ll always be with you
In the distance
That has taken you
From meI can hear you laugh
When I close my eyes
I can picture your face
And the strength inside your smile
I can see the words
Dance across your lips
I’ll remember forever
Something more than this
And you can’t go farther
Than my heart can will go
Cause I’ll still be loving you
Thought the sadness and the madness here
And I’ll always be with you
In the distance

* WATCH COACH CARTER
-Everyone has been telling me that its a good film, I should’ve listened to them earlier. It was WONDERFUL, AMAZING and REAL. I loved it and what it spoke of. If you haven’t seen it, YOU SHOULD, especially if you love basketball:) (that’s channing tatum btw!)
* WRAP YOUR SCHOOL BOOKS IN PLASTIC COVER
– I found it very very relaxing. It relased my stress and whatever I was thinking of last week flowed into my mind but I was able to tihnk of them in a “rational manner” and I was able to depicit my feelings, my thoughts and my priorities. Ohhkkay…moving along. Hehe. *wink*

*INDULGE IN CHOCOLATES AND COFFEE
– My forever lifesavers! Thanks duo for the merci chocolates!! Chocolate and coffee helps, no matter what situation you are in and what mood you are currently feeling.

*WATCH A TREE HILL EP.
– Enough said. No matter how many times I watch it, I always get lost in it. Its pure delight. I love NATHAN!… Allow me to gush for a moment… HiHi.

* SHARE THE LOVE
– Even if your life is a bit crappy, it doesn’t hurt to make someone feel special and loved, in fact it even helps in taking away the crappiness:)

*READ THE SUNDAY NEWSPAPER
– Most especially articles by Celine Lopez and Lucy Torres. Very very inspiring:)

Hmm…. So, how has my life been? How has my heart been? I wonder really why whenever people would ask about my life they’d soon end up askng about my love life as well, as if that’s the only thing that could define me. Not my academics or my family life or my wonderful friends. Its as if they constantly have to ask about my love life and how it is (in my case, it isn’t hehe). . .

Want to know the real deal?

It upsets me sometimes…really. I mean my life is okay now. Everything is okay and I feel mucho blessed and there’s no room for complaining anymore. I am more than happy with what I have but well, I found this interesting fact out… I am human after all. Meaning that I do get lonely and I do wish for something as wonderful as that too. I was reading this article yesterday in the Philppine Star about Lucy Torres (she is SO pretty) and she was asked what was the worst thing that someone could ever experience in their life time. You know what she answered?

“Not falling madly, deeply and crazily in love. And not being loved back in that sense as well.”

How sad is that. It sent shivers down my spine and made my blood run cold. It seriously scared me but don’t think that my cynical side didn’t reason because it did. First I started thinking, “You’re lucy torres-duh. Who wouldn’t fall crazily in love with you?” But I stopped because I know it wasn’t about that. It was about this fear in me that maybe… that would happen to me. Tears are at the corner of my eye just as I realized that recoiling thought

I:
– am a 17 year old girl who dreams of being 23 but wishes she stayed 11.
– am still a contradiction but no longer complicated.
– would rather spend a day with real people talking about stuff that are considered “boring” rather than spend it with a bunch of people who do nothing but talk about what clothes they’re wearing, where they partied last night, who they know… please show me people who actually make sense!
– am no saint. I treat people the way they treat me. If you’re nice to me, I’ll even be nicer but if you’re annoying and oh so full of yourself… I’ll just pretend you don’t exist!
– take pleasure in the little miracles of life. I am a mush and the cheesiest person you’d ever meet. Cheesy lines were invented because of people like me who find the need to cry over them. I laugh at the corniest jokes as well and I am not hard to please at all.
– am moody, affectionate, sensitive, frank, honest, odd and geeky.
– am still a dreamer trapped in this chaotic maze called “reality”
– am who I am. I am sorry but I don’t try to change who I am to fit into this world of paperdoll people. I live my own life at my own terms. I make my own decisions and take life as it comes. What you see is definitely what you get.
I STILL BELIEVE:
– believe that conformity is boring. Life’s unique, live your own. (By living your own, I do not mean imitating someone else’s “uniqueness” and passing it off as your own.. okay that’s not exactly living your own life. As Morrie Schwartz said, “Accept who you are and revel in that”)-believe that “perfection” is a term that people use to ignite other people’s insecurities. And I think it’s plain shallow to think that you live up to perfection and thus making other people feel inferior. Grow up.
– Believe that my mistakes make me better. I am no longer afraid of making mistakes. My mistakes allow me to improve myself. There is always always something to improve on. I am still under reconstruction (kaizen).
– Believe that the simple life is the good life.
– fairytales, happy endings, fate, serendipity and in the saying that “all good things come to those who wait”. *wink*
THE THINGS THAT ADD COLOR TO MY OTHERWISE BORING LIFE:
– my faith
– my family and the people I love 🙂
– nice people (what a wonderful world it would be if it was just filled with nice and real people. NO users, plastic people and the like. Yeah, what a perfect world!)
– basketball<33
– cute and adorable kids
– anything bright
– coffee
– chocolates
– good books
– pictures, pictures,pictures!
– Ireland (still fascinated by it, no idea why!)
– Ritz bitz and Brite Crawlers
– One Tree Hill (NATHAN! NATHAN! NATHAN!)
– anything that compliments my geekiness (papers, pens, post-its, quotes etc etc)
– a playlist that is as eclectic as I am;)
– laughtrips
– chocokaklandia and my chocokak daydreams *wink*
MY HEROES:
– Barney
– Willy Wonka (not Johnny Depp!)
– Morrie Schwartz
– Howard Schultz (thank you thank you for Starbucks!)
– David Pelzer
– Wonder Raine and Super Cy:):)
– And the two people who has been there for me since day one, as cheesy as it may sound: my dear parentsJ

Laugh often. Love Much. Live Well. Sometimes you only get to once 🙂 🙂
“Perfection is static, even boring. Imitations are redundant. YOUR true unvarnished self is what is wanted” –Anna Quindlen
“Be who you are say what you feel, cause those who matter don’t mind and those who don’t matter mind” –Dr. Suess.
“Though I cannot fly, I am not content to crawl” –9 Days
rants, raves and misadventures:
http://undecidedroyalty.blogspot.com
pictures, pictures,pictures!
http://unauthorized.multiply.com

So far I am having a SLAMMING 2006. A few bumps here in there (intertwined with my mood swings- ohwell, I guess nothing ever changes). Anyway, mega happy that the KINGS are in the semfinals!:) WHOOT! I super enjoyed the past two games, the one on Christmas Day and the one yesterday:) BASKETBALL is forever fun:)

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I finally got to see my friends yesterday. I super missed them:) Anyway, i will try to write a more in depth entry in a little while… I still have a lot of uploading and editing to do:)

ADVANCED HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE MOST PRECIOUS AND SPECIAL MAN IN MY LIFE:
DADDY!! Love you so much!:)

and happy birthday JUNAR!