The Romanticizing of Christian Bautista

To ordinary people, celebrities are perceived as characters instead of real life human beings. Certain labels concocted by how the public sees them usually define these artists and while it’s entertaining to believe that they lead perfect lives, this is often not the case.
Christian Bautista is a name that needs no introduction. Being in the business for eleven years, he has earned success through concerts, albums, TV shows, movies, and even theater. Just like any celebrity, it is easy to dismiss him as just another crooner, however sitting down with him proved otherwise.

For one thing, it is interesting to note that Christian was once an insecure high school student. His rise to fame has been chronicled several times over the years but I couldn’t quite place this information about him.
It was through this unexpected confession the layers of image embedded through the years peeled away slowly. Suddenly, he wasn’t just a performer that headlined sold out concerts but felt just like any regular guy with who went to the same high school as I did. 
I couldn’t help but ask what the biggest misconception is about him and he instantly replied with a candid, “That I’m antiseptic, too light, too formal, too serious. You have to know me ng matagal and sit down with me to know who I really am and not just judge me with 140 characters.” 
Christian went on to share how he had difficulty transitioning into the business after completing his Landscape Architecture degree from the University of the Philippines, Diliman especially since he was naturally an introvert. 
But he said that over time, he learned to crawl out of his shell slowly, “It was more of a smoothening around the edges kind of change. Naging positive siya because I learned to open up more, mas naging relaxed ako.” 
Through the years, Christian has proven his staying power in the business switching from singing to acting and even hosting while appearing to retain what has endeared him to his audience from the beginning of his career, his good nature that seems to be a product of a healthy upbringing.
When asked what inspires him to staygrounded, he quickly credited his family who has been supportive of him from the star and relates it to how he was able to survive the business with his values intact, “Keeping the value for me means going back to my roots in doing the best to be a good example. My family including my friends and family honestly talk to me when I cross the line.” 
It is his family, who has also adjusted to his career that has been the pillar for Christian, especially when it came to making major life and career decisions, “When given options, I will make choices based on my values, kung ano core ko. To some my choices may be impractical or boring but it’s the root of who I am and it is what works for me.”
And in a field where turnover is high, he says it’s his loyal fans that got him through the trying times of his career, “Ang hirap, I wanted to quit, I wanted to stop kasi wala na palang may gusto sa akin but I overcame that when I saw (during my shows) na ang dami pa palang naiinsipre, na kahit hindi 2 million meron parin palang naiinspire na 100,000 or 500,000 and that was what kept me going.”
It is his love for his craft that fueled his determination to stay despite the difficult years coupled with the fact that it is in performing that he finds his purpose, “Ang sarap na nahanap ko agad yung purpose ko so I have to do good so whether it’s a good year or not, at least I know my purpose.” 
In a moment of candid honesty, he was also quick to share that he views success differently these days, “Before when I was younger, it was more of number one album, number one concert, now it’s more of staying power and longevity. Steadiness and resilience.”

And when asked what he would say to hisyounger self who he says would be surprised at how his life turned out to be, Christian broke into a boyish grin and with a sigh replied, “You’ll be fine.”

Happy Anniversary, Bloggy!!!

It has been ten years since I have been introduced to the world of “blogging”. As a sullen, Hilary Duff wanna be, the internet served as an escape. This was way before the domination of Friendster, Facebook, and Multiply and blogging was more of having a sacred space online where you can freely share your thoughts without being judged. For a time, nobody understood the concept of blogging and simply defined it as an online diary. I’ve spent way too many hours in my school’s library, hunched over in a corner, typing up entries I never thought anyone would read.

This blog of mine has been with me through it all: the crazy bouts of adolescence, surviving college, entering the real world, and yes, even heartbreak. It has chronicled my life’s highest highs and lowest lows and in a blink of an eye, it has now accumulated ten years worth of cheers and tears.

When I started this blog, I never really thought that I would be a “legit” writer (and yes, everyday I still get that pinching myself because I can’t believe it moment) and yet, God has been gracious enough to allow me to share my love for words in different portals.

In a way, this blog would forever be a reminder of where I was, who I was, and what God has done in my life. In a way, looking at it, in all its simplicity would always remind me of what got me started in the first place. I simply wanted to be able to freely express my thoughts without the fear of them not being enough.

Today my blog has transitioned into a legit adult blog (and no, not in that sense) now that it is a legit .com! My sixteen year old self is probably snickering in delight because what started out as a project has turned into something worthwhile over the years. I’m glad that my younger self took the risk and just wrote, despite the typical fears that came along with adolescence. I’m glad she was brave enough to write the first sentence that eventually turned into a thousand words. It was her idealistic courage that led me to where I am now.

It has been an awesome and exciting ten years but I do believe that there’s more in store and I cannot wait to share it with my blog and all you kind ones who actually take the time to visit.

Cheers to new adventures!

Of Broken Hearts and ‘Tadhana’

It’s the weekend before the Valentine’s Day season officially starts in the country.
Once again, our social media timelines will be bombarded with a million and one images of #surprises, #gifts, and #truelove posts enough to make any sane single person go crazy.
But even before that so-called “love craze” takes place, one film went ahead in presenting love to Filipino moviegoers. Starring Angelica Panganiban and JM de Guzman, That Thing Called Tadhana was and the brainchild of writer and director Antoinette Jadaone.
Working with only P2 million budget granted by Cinema One Originals, the film was shown in select cinemas in November 2014 but gained traction on social media after movie theaters were booked with people clamoring for tickets online.
And that was when I personally experienced the Tadhana craze after seeing my friends and officemates search high and low for tickets during its first run (a commercial run is set this February). The craze continued when the same friends (Hi Jap, Juliet,Yla, and Roz!) quoted lines from the movie long after they watched it. Soon after, more and more posts appeared on my timeline causing a curiosity about the little movie that could.
The film revolved around a broken hearted girl named Mace (Panganiban) and Anthony (de Guzman) the guy she meets unexpectedly (ah, don’t we all love that meet cute story) on the way to healing her broken heart.
Sitting down with director Antoinette Jadone, I instantly asked her what sparked the inspiration for the film, “Pinaghalo-halo ko ang personal love stories, heartaches, and heartbreaks ko, ng mga friends ng friends ko, sa internet, sa mga coffee shop na malakas ang boses. I’ve wanted to direct a love story, and That Thing Called Tadhana has become that dream.“
She also admitted that finishing the script was quite easy because in sense, it was already pre-researched with 10 years of experiencing and hearing heartbreaks herself.
These stories of heartbreaks, which the movie was built upon, made connection to the audiences, no matter what walk of life they’re from.
“Tayo si Mace at si Anthony. Pwedeng buong buhay natin, o kahit isang araw lang, naging Mace o Anthony tayo. Maybe that’s why Tadhana is so relatable. I’m sure at one point or another in the movie, when you hear Mace or Anthony talk, you might probably say, ‘Sinabi ko ‘youn ah!’, only this time, it’s Angelica or JM saying it.”
She continued, “It’s nice to go back to that time when you were so stupid in love.
When that was happening, it was so painful—gusto mo nang mamatay—but years after, it’s just becomes a story na masarap pagtawanan. And I hope That Thing Called Tadhana can remind us of that.”
Suddenly, heartbreak didn’t feel like an isolation rather something that everyone could relate to thus making the film succesful i nthe big screen.
However, the director commented that that success was unexpected. She shared, “May hope naman lagi na sana maraming manood, sana maraming magka-gusto but I wasn’t prepared for the kind of reception that we got during its limited release.”
And the greatest lesson of Tadhana is that we should not run away from heartbreaks because in the long run, it would make us better. Just look at Direk Antoinette. Not only did she discovered her capability to write, she also produced a film that would help broken hearted people recover, or at the very least, laugh.
So what for her is the true healer of a broken heart? “Panahon,” she declared without batting an eyelash.
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That Thing Called Tadhana hits theaters on February 4.

Beauty as Told by Laura Lehmann

Society, they say, is slowly changing its definition of beauty. Gone were the days when women were simply good to look at. Instead women these days are more than just what they look like. Many now are fully committed to create substantive lives that inspire other women to do the same.
For decades, beauty queens have inspired women to a certain standard of beauty. Fortunately, the essence of beauty queens (including our very own) has evolved over the years. One of those beauties is Bb. Pilipinas 2014, Laura Lehmann, who is also Ateneo De Manila University’s UAAP courtside reporter.
From the get go, one would instantly recognize Laura’s statuesque beauty but what truly sets her apart is the fact that aside from her looks, Laura is also extremely smart. The perfect epitome of beauty and brains, the 20-year-old took up Psychology, Neuro Science, and Spanish Studies in the Occidental College in California before joining the Bb. Pilipinas pageant. She subsequently pursed a modeling and hosting career in the Philippines.
A product of Assumption and International School Manila, Laura recalled being an extremely dedicated student athlete. She was part of the Philippine Team for Softball, representing the country in US and Europe while at the same time also dabbling in rugby.
Despite her love for sports, Laura grew up determined to do well in school in order to pursue her ultimate dream of becoming a doctor.
However, her life took a turn when she began entering the world of beauty pageant. Laura recalled, “I was in one of those Christmas family dinners and there were a lot of people and someone mentioned about Bb. Pilipinas. Initially, I said no because I felt it wasn’t for me. But then my mom and I realized why not, I’ve been studying my whole life, it would be nice to try something different.”
So Laura, with the support of her mom, joined the pageant “on a whim” in the hopes of gaining experience from the country’s most esteemed pageant. “That was in December and the pageant was in March, so I took a leave from school and thought, oh it would be fun learning how to be like a girl. I played so many sports in high school and this was my chance to be a girl for awhile. I was really in it for the experience,” she continued.
And it was experience that she had, “It was really different from what I expected it to be. Going in there were so many stereotypes and I was a victim of that. I thought there would be a lot of mean, catty girls who only care about what they look. But it’s more than that, it’s really a career and a skill. So many hours are put into training, like how to walk, talk, and the like.” At the beginning, she felt overwhelmed but it was through the help of her fellow candidates that she was able to not just adapt, but thrive as well.
She was also quick to debunk the myth that beauty queens just relied on their looks to succeed, “What made me adapt to it was the realization that it’s really a career and you have to be smart. It’s more than just looks because when you’re standing in front of 16,000 people on stage in Araneta and thousands more on TV and someone asks you a question, it requires grace under pressure. And I’m impressed at how quickly they think on their feet.”
For Laura, the pageant has taught her the perfect balance between beauty and brains and the understanding that you need to have both in order to succeed in life. When asked what beauty is to her especially in the age of social media, she was quick to say, “I think the most beautiful people are the ones who are happiest with themselves and the things that they are doing. We all have insecurities but once we as long you’re happy, that’s what makes you shine.”
Laura also says that kindness goes along way and it’s something that she learned from her fellow candidates, “Kindess instantly adds to your appeal.”
When asked what her advice is to young girls struggling to value their own beauty, she’s quick to say, “Don’t compare yourself to others because you’re always going to see someone prettier on you, you can’t avoid that so just focus on yourself. Also, find something that makes you happy and something that you love because when you’re happy with what you’re doing, it just radiates and that’s truly what makes you beautiful.”

Peaches.

For the longest time, I’ve always wanted to look like two women: my sister and my mom. 
You see, I used to be an overly tall and overly dark chubster and their mestiza beauty was always what I aimed for in life. 
To cut an extremely long and extremely tired story short, I have always thought that if I look like my mom or my sister, life would be easier. This is especially true in the lovelife department. Whenever I would get friend zoned or worse, seen zoned, I would constantly think it was my fault. If only I was skinnier, whiter, or whatever -er, I would be deemed worthy. 
This has been such a long playing tune of my life that my friends have stopped listening even before I started speaking. For the longest time, I have asked God to heal me from insecurities that I have long had inside of me. 
And today, following the victory of last night, I finally understood the absurdity of my thinking. 
Tonight, I realized that it has nothing to do with me or how I look. That sometimes life doesn’t give you what you want but it doesn’t make you less of who you are. That even if you were the ripest peach in the world, there would still be someone who detests peaches. 
So I guess I’m just letting you know that sometimes it really has nothing to do with you. It’s not that you’re lacking, it’s just that it wasn’t meant to be. 

This is another victory and I’m thanking God for it. 
Simply let people have their own happiness and pray that one day, it will finally be your time. 
Until then, we celebrate victories and believe God for more.

Decoding the Artista Factor

WITHOUT a doubt, the Philippines is an artista-loving nation. Whatever walk of life you are from, you are not exempted to get that little jolt of kilig whenever you see celebrities in real life. And while others play it cool, most Filipinos squeal in delight, whip out their phones, and Instagram their artista experience immediately.

This phenomenon makes one wonder what it feels like to be in the limelight. Fortunately, young and promising actress Joyce Ching helped me understand what it’s like to live the dream.

Twenty-year-old Joyce started her career in GMA 7’s Bubble Gang Jr. in 2005, and soon the projects, particularly teleseryes, started flooding in. Known to produce some of the best teleseryes for TV, GMA gave Joyce lead roles in primetime shows like Anna Karenina, Paraiso Ko’y Ikaw, and most recently Strawberry Lane. These shows has catapulted her to be a household name.

When asked how she feels to be an artista, the sweet and unassuming Joyce replied, “It’s fun to be an artista in the Philippines because people get really happy when they see you in person. Whether you’re a big star already or just starting, they’re just really excited to see you. I love that I am able to make people happy effortlessly, seeing smiles on their faces is enough to make me happy.”

She also noted that just like any other jobs, hers also comes with challenges. She explained, “There are a lot of challenges. You don’t get enough rest or sleep, you always have to look good, people judge you easily, you have to play with your emotions during taping. It’s not as glamorous as it sounds. At the end of the day, we’re all just human beings just like everyone else.”

And with her typical humor, she added, “With all the sleepless nights, it’s hard to be glamorous!”

Joyce also shared that being an artista is prone to misconceptions and judgments. For example, people sometimes take her as mean or rude when she doesn’t take a photo with a fan. In defense, she explained, “That’s not true at all. There are really a lot of reasons: sometimes we’re in a hurry, or the venue doesn’t permit picture taking, or we’re really extremely tired that we didn’t hear you call our name.”

Having known Joyce personally for awhile, I can attest that snubbing is definitely not in her nature. In fact, she is actually “really shy” when away from the camera. She even wants to be a campus missionary one day.

When it comes to the temptations that are attached with her job, Joyce credits her faith in God to keep her grounded. “At the end of the day, I always go back to God. I always make sure that away from all of it, I live a simple and normal life,” she shared.

With family as her priority, Joyce often spends her days away from the camera pursuing her college degree, spending time with her family, catching up on social media like any teenager, and developing her other talents such as writing.

The sit down with Joyce made me understand that no matter how we see things from the outside, we could never truly know what a celebrity’s life is from the inside. After all, all we have our images based on our own perceptions that are hardly ever accurate.

The only best way to know is to ask and in asking, we realize that indeed, artistas are just like everyone else—human beings with strengths, weaknesses, and dreams of their own—despite our tendency to put them on pedestals.

Little Victories

About a year ago, I came across this quote:


I don’t recall why I posted it on my Instagram account then, but tonight, I do know the reason why I’m posting it.


You see, it’s so easy to post quotes and pretend that we truly understand what the words mean. Personally, there are times when I post it just so I can be reminded of the right way to feel and the right way to do things. However, it’s never quite that simple.


As an example, I have been feeling off for the past week. Admittedly, there has been nights of crying to my best friends and nights of intense prayer. You know, those Job like prayers where you feel like all the doors are shutting firmly and you just can’t see the light.


It felt that way and once again, I felt like giving up. But of course, there came the BUT God. 


You see, walking with Jesus means that life never quite turns out the way that we want it to. And it is quite true that when we pray, more than just changing our circumstances, God changes our hearts. Once again, this is a quote I’ve read so many times over the years but never quite understood until I’ve experienced it myself. 


Tonight, I experienced the encompassing power of kindness. And not just fake kindness that you do to win a new friend over, but kindness that comes from a place of darkness. You see, it’s so incredibly easy to be kind to a kind person or someone we need something from. It’s ridiculously easy to be kind to someone who just gets us or to people who are on the same wavelength as us.


All of these things are easy. What’s difficult is to be kind to people who want nothing but to see you unhappy, particularly someone who sees you as a threat and a competition of some sort.  While I do hope that one day we live in a world where girls are kind to each other, instead of constantly competing with each other for the affection of men (as inspired by Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie), I learned to empathize with her instead of creating a checklist where I showed up to be better. 


For the first time in my life, I didn’t play the victim card, instead, by God’s grace, I looked at her as I would myself. And I finally understood that the reason she felt the need to do what she did. 


Life, I’ve learned, is not a competition.  


And in understanding, I finally had the courage to be free. Free from wanting to prove myself, free from wanting to be the better one, and free from wanting to win.


It made me recall the times that I too felt that way towards other women and made a vow to break the cycle. It made me realise that being kind to those who are not deserving is one of life’s greatest victories. 


And now, as I write this, I thank God for changing my heart. He is the reason why I’m no longer the angry and insecure girl I used to be. And while I’m still a work in progress, I have learned that it’s important to celebrate the little victories. 


For someone like me who used to be extremely insecure (I still have those days), wanting to see someone else win what I would want for myself is a victory in itself.


So tonight, I thank God for this victory.

Exactly a year ago, I thought that the biggest prayer of my life was answered. And my prayers did get answered, however, not in the way that I had hoped. However, I wouldn’t have it any other way. 
Thank you Jesus for a smile that comes from YOU. ❤️

Social scorecard

A few days ago, my dad said something about how people project their lives on social media, “Of course everyone is smiling on Facebook and Instgram, but we don’t know what’s happening behind closed doors.” 

My dad, who’s updated on all social media sites although he doesn’t have accounts of his own, knows all about this alternate universe we have created for ourselves. 
While it’s all good fun to upload, edit, and filter our lives away, I sometimes wonder if we do so to prove a point. God knows I have been doing that for so long. 
However, I have come to realize one important point, why does it even matter? 

In a world where we are all desperately trying to prove that we have better lives, what satisfaction do we get if we do end up with the better life? Does that make us a winner or does it drive us to even prove our worth even more? 
Wouldn’t life be better if we simply let the competition go and simply relish in what we do have? To be grateful and wish everyone else well? 
I constantly tell myself that someone having something doesn’t take anything away from me. There’s more than enough for everyone. 
And this is one lesson i really hope to take to heart and learn this 2015.