It’s been awhile since I wrote about a cheesy blog entry because aside from my Ted Mosby/Nathan Scott/Mike Chang moments I haven’t really had anything exciting happen to me in that area and I’m not complaining really.

However there are days when I realize that I’m not a robot although I try do try my very best to be one.

It must be good to be with the person you want to be with. The one who makes you want to sing silly songs and the one whose face you want to see in the morning. The person who would be proud enough to walk up to me in a crowd and hold my hand.

Sometimes I think I’ve written so many standards and find too many insignificant faults in order to erect walls tall enough to keep everyone away.

I make excuses, run away at the first exit and although I am not proud of this– find a lame excuse riddled in self-pity (ie: not pretty enough or not cool enough) in order to avoid commitment or further pain.

But on days like this one I simply take away the blinders and wonder if the moments that take your breath away are also worth some of the tears along the way.

That maybe it isn’t about lists or perfection but how you feel when you see that person or how spending an entire day doing absolutely nothing becomes magical.

I’m too cynical to understand it now but maybe one day it will all make sense and I’ll meet my own Ted Mosby who will love me enough to convince me to throw the sometimes stupid list away.

Maybe the butterflies will come alive, the songs will finally be suitable and maybe Adele will finally be played less and the goofy grin be difficult to erase.

Maybe I’m not going end up alone after all and maybe just maybe like Summer “I’m going to know what I never knew with everyone else.”

It has been said that triple dates are unique therefore it has become a date of weddings and much more.

Aside from wanting to see the lanterns tonight, I really didn’t wish for anything magnificent to happen because I have come to realize that special dates like this one is best shared with people who love you and people you love.

It doesn’t have to be about fireworks (although it would be really cool but not as cool as flying lanterns) or wishes.

Tonight as i write this, i simply take the time to thank God for all the wonderful blessings that He has given me and my family. I thank Him for everything that is in my life and although i still have wishes, I don’t want to dwell on them to the point that i don’t enjoy what I have now.

God has a perfect time for everything and i am exactly where i’m supposed to be at this moment so i thank you Lord that on this historical day i am blessed with the promise of a bright future not just for me but for my entire family and everyone else that i love.

Thank you Jesus for the gift of life and for the gift of a very bright future ahead simply because I am trusting in Your name.

Hope everyone gets what they have prayed for today.

God has great things for you.

as human beings, we are wired to worry.

every day we face news that are horrifically terrifying we wonder how we can even leave the confinements of our homes.

we double check the locks of our homes and throw salts everywhere to make sure that we’ve got it covered.

however, the thing about worry is, it doesn’t really do anything. it basically makes you focus on something that is quite impossible to happen and yet in our over analytical minds (or probably just mine) we think of all the options and probably how we’d feel when these things happen (if they actually would, but so far none of my worries have come true).

while reading the book, the good and beautiful life by James Bryan Smith, he challenged our society’s obsession with worry. while there is nothing wrong with being cautious, James Bryan Smith insists on the fact that in the Bible, it has been stated so many times that we shouldn’t worry.

In the book of Matthew, a verse in the sixth chapter  encourages to simply focus on what’s happening at this very moment in our lives is a favorite and yet we spend countless nights wide awake and restless.


James Bryan Smith proceeds to explain why we hold on to worry so much. In our minds we’re subconsciously wired to think that the more we worry, the more we can control the situation.

Most of us think that because we worried constantly about something, that something did not happen. It may seem a bit far fetched but think about it, is this the reason why you are worrying yourself crazy all the time?  To superstitiously protect yourself from something?


in truth, all the days of our lives are already made known by the Creator of the Universe and as long as we obey Him and stay in tune with His truth then there is nothing to worry about, and i mean it, absolutely nothing, we must always remember that although there are horrendous things happening in the world today, we are protected not because we are perfect but because God is. 


it is safe to say that God is not only good but He also loves us– which means that no harm could ever come our way simply because God loves us so much and He has all the power in the Universe to protect us from whatever evil is in this world.


I do understand that we have been a product of a culture of worry and it is quite difficult to get out of it, especially if we have spent countless hours nursing it.

But today, maybe you should start small. Worry a little less, any time you are caught in frantic worry, take a moment of silence and pray to God about whatever it is that you are worried about and from there, feel His peace that is above all understanding, a peace that only God can give.

Rest easy. He’s got it covered.

Last night my high school friends dragged me out of the house and over a few drinks we reminisced over years past.

It felt good to laugh with people you used to bicker with, people you used to fight with and a person you used to be deeply infatuated with.

It felt good to look back and just laugh over what used to be such difficult dramas.

It felt good to be sixteen again and get kilig simply because you were sitting beside your high school crush.

Life was suddenly easy and light– the way it should be but often we forget because of life’s daily troubles.

It was exactly what God knew I needed simply because I have been praying for the longest time for my heart to be revived again and God in His own way has shown me that life doesn’t have to be difficult and all you need is Him and a few good friends.

It felt good because admit it a part of you would always be sixteen and that’s not a bad thing because in it lies the dreamer that always believes in the good side of life and the eternal optimist that believes that God has great plans for us.

Have you revisited your 16 year old self lately?

When I was 15, a new student arrived in the halls of our high school.

He was the most beautiful boy I have ever seen and although it was impossible, this beautiful boy took the time to talk to me, probably the biggest dork in school.

We never had the chance to become good friends beyond Chemistry tutorial but I will never forget his kindness and thought of him often.

Times and seasons nay change but the kindness of a person would never falter.

It’s sad for you to leave this world this way, beautiful boy but I pray that you find your way to Our Father’s arms.

You have been kind to me and that act of kindness, I will never forget.

worry.

it is an insatiable part of who i am. i like knowing how things are done and i enjoy knowing where things would go. i highly dislike not knowing.

but lately, i have come to realize that walking with Jesus has always been about 1% knowing where things are going and then 99% leaving it all up to faith.

which, as human beings is kind of difficult. now i don’t mean simply sitting inside your house and not doing anything but doing what you can do and letting God take it from there.

whatever part of my life i’m specifically referring to i’d rather not say, but trusting God and the adage, “if it’s meant to happen it will happen” has been  quite difficult for me in this area, however, i have come to understand that it has been a whole lot easier to do so.

that whatever it is i’m worried about– whether repeated sin (an entirely different story but i stand forgiven the same way you are) or a prayer that has not been answered, i trust that God hears me even when I don’t hear His voice, especially when I don’t hear His voice.

and even though i  may never know why, i know that His goodness is enough for me to stand on. 


God is not only great, He is good and for me to trust a God like that is just outstanding because it means that my life is always in good hands and guess what, yours is too.


Stand strong!

As I begin this entry, I honestly don’t know what to write– there is so much to say and yet I could not find the words to express them so if this entry seems unfocused- forgive me.

1) God is faithful

– I know I have said this so many times but it is worth saying again. I have come to know through God’s grace that loving Him for who He is and not what He gives is quite exhilarating. There is freedom in knowing that whatever happens, God’s plan is always in action.

— I guess that’s really all I wanted to say for now. But I know someone needed to read that so just in case that’s you today — hold on tight, God is on your side. 🙂

Admit it.

There is that one dream in your life that you cannot seem to let go of no matter how silly or how childish or how impossible it may be.

There is that one dream that you couldn’ help but think about before you close your eyes at night and there might be days where you tuck away the dream at the farthest corner of your mind simply because the chaos of everyday living has clouded over the possibility of it actually happening.

But on days wherein you have all the time in the world you are reminded that whatever that dream is, it is quite possible to achieve.

So whatever it is that you are holding on to at this very moment, I hope you are reassured of the fact that yes it is possible so don’t lose hope.

Each day brings you closer to that “one day”.

Ever since I was a little girl, my mamang and I would often spend afternoons watching the original version so imagine my excitement when I heard about the US version making waves a few years ago.

She has also become a huge part of this blog.

It has been a year since Betty waved goodbye (sadly) but I still can’t help but write about her every now and then. Betty’s disposition and ability to climb the crazy, corporate ladder while being comfortable in who she is is simply astounding to me.

It also amazes me that she ended up with Daniel Meade.

This is all great to me because I’ve always believed that being a nice person is better than simply being beautiful. I may not know how to put on make up but i do know how to treat people right and for me that should be more than enough.

in a word filled with super models and women with tight abs, it is quite impossible for someone like me to stand out simply because i couldn’t care less about make-up, clothes or partying. i really don’t enjoy dressing up because i’d rather spend it in a bookstore.

i have also never placed much emphasis in how i look simply because i knew that at the end of the day, focusing too much on the outside would force me to spend less time focusing on what’s important like my relationship with God, my interests and other things. There was simply no time left to spend dolling up in front of the mirror simply because i had a life to live.

and i know that this is not an excuse because there are super girls out there who are really good at juggling both, but that simply wasn’t me. i am the girl with her nose forever buried in books and i always cringe when receiving compliments about my looks or anything else aesthetic.

i’ve always believed that my inner self was more than enough and looking decent was enough, however, welcome to the real world of barbies and i find myself a little lost, just like betty.

i have long accepted the fact that i would never be a supermodel but in reality, it took me awhile to accept the fact that guys in general may not find that very comforting. it used to bother me when i was younger, but today, i have come to realize that it no longer does.

because i know that there will always be someone prettier, richer, smarter and cuter than me and my future guy might find her very beautiful but still choose to be with me. i know it may seem impossible but God has already set aside that perfect person for me and that person would accept me for who i am– big glasses, quirks, obsession with looks and all.

it’s okay to be who i am because God created me to be this way.


it may seem like such a cliche but i know that if you’re a girl, you might feel insecure at least once in your life, i hope you know that you don’t have to be because you’re beautiful and God doesn’t make anything less than that. live your life and don’t try to pattern it after someone you see in the magazines because the guy who God has meant for you will definitely appreciate everything that the wrong one never did.

you are beautiful. don’t you dare forget it.