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Love in the land of 20s
“Love is not the answer. Get your twenties out of your system. Travel. Take risks. Move around. Quit school. Go back to school. Change careers. Change religions. Change your name if you want to. Do everything you need or want to do that requires absolute freedom to act quickly and often. Travel often. Travel light. Let your dreams and aspirations be your destination, but let curiosity be your guide. Follow every side road that intrigues you. Explore. Exclaim. Don’t worry about finding your way back. The only constant is change. The only threat is baggage. The twenties are carry-on baggage days. Preferably tote bag and a toothbrush days. Love is checked baggage. Love is freight. If you fall in love too soon, and allow yourself to get in too deep, you have just tied yourself to a freight train track. This doesn’t mean love isn’t the best thing that will ever happen to you. Eventually it might be. But probably not in your twenties. Twenties love is what divorces and mid-life crises are made of. Here’s what this particular train wreck looks like: a spouse you once loved more than life, sucking the life out of you. Kids, if they’re unlucky enough to be born to this relationship, that you’ll never be able to love more than you love yourself. Kids deserve better. Spouses deserve better. You deserve better. So follow this next simple rule.”
~John Howell, 5 Things I Wish I’d Known In My 20s
On the past, moving on and that 500 Days Movie…
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The Past.
We love throwing that word around, don’t we?
We can be very cocky about “the past” simply because we’ve been there, done that, been hurt by that, cried over that and fortunately, laughed over that as well.
We know how the story goes. Often, on our loneliest days we find ourselves uttering the words “I wish I could back to the past to change this and that”, it somehow gives us power simply because we know how a particular story ends.
Going back to the past really doesn’t speak of courage but rather of cowardice. Going back to the past simply because you can retrace the steps with your eyes closed is not an act of bravery but the last resort of a scared man.
We don’t know what’s in store for us in the future, which makes “the past” highly comfortable: we are familiar with certain people & places and refuse to move forward even if the doors of our past have all shut down refusing to be opened no matter how many times we have tried to knock it down.
The past is in the past for the reason. I used to be such a lover of analysing what has happened before and what I did wrong. Most of my daydreams consisted of different outcomes of “what if”, I got lost in a parallel universe where I stayed instead of saying goodbye. I have been a victim of staying too long on a chapter simply because it wasn’t scary and was eerily familiar.
Familiarity is a scary thing. Often we confuse our real happiness with people, places and events that are familiar simply because we are afraid to step into uncharted territories. While “the past” may hurt, we often say “at least the pain is something I already know.”
We often go back to relationships that have long passed its expiration date in the hopes of resurrecting something that once felt alive. Instead of allowing God to lead us to new definitions of “being alive” we stay constantly stuck in the euphoria of our past.
Most people spend their entire lives stuck on chapter one when they were meant to soar to greater heights in the next chapters, they keep forgetting that God always wishes to outdo Himself, therefore creating better chapters than before.
It is so convenient to go back to the past. It is so convenient to convince ourselves that our happiness is associated with the past, we never, not even once take the time to consider that maybe greater joys are ahead — greater than what we have experienced and asked to let go of.
I have been tempted way too many times to go back people simply because they have made so much sense in the past, but today, as I type out the words onto this blog entry, I begin to question myself as to why I would want to go back to something that has caused me so much grief and pain. Yes, there were joyous moments I wouldn’t trade for anything in the world, but the dark days that followed sometimes made me question the worth of those moments.
Should I go back to something familiar just because at one point in my life it has defined me? Should I go back to the person who has caused me so much pain just because at that time it made me feel secured and worthy (did i really?)?
Shouldn’t I just let go of what has been, and most importantly, the elusive what could have been and instead be grateful for the person that I am today? I should just realize that without the pain caused by the dark and mysterious “past”, I wouldn’t even be thinking of writing this blog entry.
The only way to enjoy life and to keep moving forward is by discarding what needs to be discarded and by accepting life for what it is today and what it was yesterday.
There are many questions we will never find the answers to and there are many “what ifs” that will never happen but it’s okay, because at the end of the day, it’s nice to see myself still standing despite the many different “rights” my life went to when all I wanted to do was to make it go “left”.
It is also safe to say that maybe the person that I am at 24 will no longer enjoy the person I was and the choices I made when I was 21. We are radically quite different from each other which means that I will probably no longer enjoy the things she enjoyed or love the things she loved.
Life is all about progress. If we are not moving forward, then what are we doing?
As I end this entry, I refuse to spend anymore time in the past or the people in it, not because I dislike them or carry around a negative energy towards them but only because spending way too much time in the past robs me of the present. It robs me of enjoying what I have right now and robs me of the joy that this moment could bring.
Also, I would like to just put it out there that when relationships end (whatever kind of relationship it may be because in all honesty, there are several facets of relationships that need to be tended to), we always have the embittered view that “we” have to be the better one. I have been enslaved by that thinking for so long but by the grace of God, I snapped out of it.
When relationships end, we no longer have to play the “who won” game. We no longer have to prove through our social networking sites (a popular avenue these days!) that we ended up with the better partner or the better body (eek!) but instead we should look at the people from our past and be glad that they have moved on and found happiness that would be impossible to find with each other.
Summer in 500 Days of Summer said (paraphrase), “we were right about a lot of things, but maybe we weren’t right about the person we were sharing it with”. Admit it, if you ended up with the person in your past, you would still be miserable today.
Let bygones be bygones and let your bygone be happy. There is no use to constantly look over your shoulder and say “ay, mas maganda ako!” or “mas gwapo ang boyfriend ko sayo!”, it just means that you are not truly over it and you are still trying to be just like that chick on Revenge. Revenge is exhausting and doesn’t do anyone any good.
By letting go of the games, you are allowing yourself to be happy. Look at that person and the person he (or she) is now sharing his life with with joy that at least he (or she!) found what he (or she!) never found in you.
It’s now time to be better.
Remember the broken road? God will only bless it if you allow Him to!
So get on the road girl (or guy!) and begin again!
How Artsy Are You?
I have a secret: I am a frustrated artist.
In my younger years, I have always attempted to express my overly active imagination through drawing. Sadly, the best I could do are stick people (even my clouds are not so nice L) which is why it always amazes me when people can actually take a pen and a paper and just create something spectacular out of nothing!
Sheryll Lugar – Peralta (who I fondly call Miss She) is one of those gifted people. Before I discovered her talent, I knew her as an ESL teacher when I worked in SISC. She is one of the nicest people I know and I have always admired her honesty and loyalty for the people she loves. I have also admired her being a super mom taking care of her two beautiful kids (Sam and Kyle) and her husband! Even before, she has successfully balanced the two worlds.
Recently, Miss She decided to leave Manila (and teaching) move to Aklan (two hours away from Boracay!!!) to spend more time with her family.
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| Miss She with her beautiful family |
The big move also allowed Miss She to transition from being a teacher to being a business owner. Fueled by her passion for drawing and doodling, Miss She opened “ARTinPRINT” which is entirely different from teaching but still as fulfilling.
What started as a small online business (for friends and family until a big break where she designed a company’s flyer) blossomed into a store that offers everything personalized: from lamps, car stickers, t-shirts and so much more.
Miss She also continues to use her skills as a teacher in her business by offering Art Classes for the summer.
For Ms. She the greatest thing about ArtinPrint she is able to enjoy and share what she loves with her family. Just like any other mom, being able to watch her kids grow up and flourish in something that she loves to do is certainly a dream come true!
And honestly, I am really happy for her!
For all her cute doodles and amazing “they can do that?” personalize stuff click on here! Trust me you would want to start giving gifts to every single person you know (I’ve already thought of a few)! If you are looking for personalized notepads, mugs and what not, you’ve found the right place! She ships to those living outside of Aklan and so go ahead and click, click, click!
Check out her other cute stuff:
The Baggage Lady
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| (C): www.transforminglifeinstitute.com |
Ted Mosby once said, “Everyone’s got some baggage; it’s part of life. But like anything else, it’s easier when someone gives you a hand with it.”
In life, everyone over five years old has some sort of baggage: everyone has been through something and everyone has been hurt and has hurt someone at one point.
We can’t deny it that as we go through our everyday lives, we are bound to encounter people whose views don’t reflect our own and though they may not intentionally want to hurt us – they end up doing so.
It’s a fact of life that even Disney movies have villains.
Michelle McKinney Hammond’s Get Over & On With It was a book I read in college and I remember distinctly that a mentor of mine told me, “What is it in your life that you need to get over?”
Six years later, I finally get her point. The things I needed to “get over” six years ago are quite different from the things that I experience now. There are days when I wish I enjoyed my youth instead constantly focusing on the sad parts but then again, that was teen angst at its finest.
Whatever your baggage maybe and whatever you have to get over, I do understand that pain is not easy to forget.
It’s funny how life works that we easily forget the good times but cling to the things in the past that have hurt us tremendously. We rehash moments where we were hurt and betrayed and suddenly what was supposedly only supposed to last for a season has turned into a lifetime.
In the book, which is insanely good and definitely a must read if you have been hurt or have recently ended a chapter of your life, Mckinney-Hammond shares with us the joy of moving forward (yes, joy can be found in it!) and when I finally closed the book after reading it for the third time, I felt the need to share the points that hit home.
1) Accept Reality.
Most of the time when people hurt us or when things fall apart, we don’t accept things for what it is. We rationalize what has been done to us and we constantly analyze what we did wrong without realizing that we’ve been stuck in one place for so long simply because we have failed to accept the reality of the situation. This has happened to me countless times, I refused to take off my rose colored glasses (maybe the only downside of being optimistic) and see the picture for what it is. I believe in optimism, but I also believe in surrendering. By accepting and seeing the picture for what it is, we can hand it over to God and say, “I’ve been hurt & betrayed. I may have also done something that has caused another pain, I tried my best to remedy the situation but this is where I am now and I just surrender everything to you.”
It has been said that when we have done all we can, we simply stand and wait for His mighty hand to move. But the only way we can do that is by accepting our current situation for what it is. The faster we accept what is, the faster we can move into the bright things God has for us.
2) Reevaluate.
While it is easy to place blame on another for our current situation, we must also take the time to take a step back and see what we’ve done wrong. Accepting the reality that we may have also done something wrong doesn’t diminish what another has done towards us but it makes the pain worth it. It has been pinned, tweeted and tumblr-d countless times “make your pain worth it!” and you can do this by becoming better because of it and not bitter.
The truth may sting (of course, we are all prideful and refuse to admit that we were wrong) but it is beneficial. A broken relationship can be of great worth if we use it to better ourselves for the next season of our lives. By reevaluating our lives and our relationship with others, we can leave room for improvement.
As we reevaluate the steps we’ve taken that has led us to where we are, we can for Jesus to reveal the areas we need to improve on and as we do, we see a better version of ourselves that wasn’t ultimately possible if we didn’t go through the things we did.
3) Don’t let the season define you.
It’s so easy to get lost in a season, especially in sad ones. Often when we are faced with heartbreak we think this is it, this is the end of a happy life. We often confuse our season with a lifetime. While I understand that life has different seasons and each season has a purpose, I also believe that no matter what the season, we can still be joyful.
While happiness is dependent on our circumstances, joy is dependent on the beauty of who Jesus is and what He has done for us. While we refocus on Jesus and the bigger picture, we understand that we may be hurting right now and we may not know where to go tomorrow if any of our prayers will ever be answered, we can rest in knowing that God is the same yesterday, today and forever and if He doesn’t change ever then it means that His promises will forever remain as well. Which is the best kind of security around, isn’t it?
I understand the toughness of a sad season, I have been there, but don’t let that make you believe that there are no more happy days ahead. You have the choice to pick yourself up and pray (and even wrestle) for greater days! Your best days are ahead of you.
This season maybe tough but you can be tougher and God can use this time to make you even better equipped for the great days that He has ahead for you.
So toughen it out and wake up each morning expectant of the season where your sun will shine again—ever so brightly.
4) Rest.
Dealing with heartache is exhausting so the best way to combat it is simple: rest! By resting, you can gather up energy again and you can reevaluate your life. You can replenish what has been lost by your crying and fighting and as you physically rest, you can spiritually stock up as well!
Matthew 11:28 is one of my most favorite verses in the Bible where Jesus promises that if any of us who are “burdened and heavy ladened” will find rest in Him. Resting in Jesus means trusting Him and His nature. It is very important to know who Jesus is, we can only trust someone we know, as we trust Him, we can eventually let it all go and rest in His name. In resting in Him, we find ourselves feeling lighter because we know that finally, someone is taking the burden for us and He is fighting on our behalf!
Such a refreshing promise!
5) Release the future.
You can look at the future in two ways: scary or exciting.
I have always been the type of person who saw the glass as half-full which maybe the reason why it has always been easy for me to think that my future is brighter than my today.
However, when we are hurt or dealing with a loss, we often see our future days as bleak and dark and it makes us lose hope.
Truth is, we don’t really know what the future doors, but God said that if we wait patiently for him (Psalm 27:13-14), we will see His goodness in the land of the living.
This is the reason why we can be assured that our future is very bright and we can be assured of the fact that whatever it is that we are going through, we will emerge victorious because Jesus won the victory for us. Instead of constantly wondering what the future holds, let us simply pray and declare that it will be good because we serve a good God! Turn your anxiousness (Philippians 4:6-7) into hope by looking towards the One who has made hope possible.
Pray for your situation. Pray for your heart. Pray that God will strengthen it and pray that God will deposit a different kind of joy each day. Soon enough you will see yourself celebrating each day (all you have to do is take it one day at a time) and you will see the beauty and fulfillment of all He has promised.
6) Step out of your comfort zone.
We all have a plan for our lives. We have blueprint of the perfect career, the man (or woman) we would marry, where we would live and so on. God has blessed us all with amazing & creative minds that can daydream in a second and while that is a good thing, we must understand that we are not the storyteller of our lives.
We cannot dictate to our Creator on how life is going to go or how it will turn out. We can pray to Him but we cannot be upset when things don’t go our way. I have been there and I have done that so many times, but the only way I truly enjoyed my life was when I let go of the stories I made up with my head and trusted Him with the outcome.
It’s not pretty. Just when we think we’ve got life figured out, something happens and bam! we’re left wondering if we would ever live the life of our dreams.
The good news is: the dreams God breathed in your heart will come true one day and in His time, but we have to understand that the journey God has for us maybe different from what we have envisioned but that shouldn’t be a cause of panic. When life turns out extremely different from what we have expected it to be, we must not give up, but instead cling harder to the Vine. Ask Him to renew your hope and ask Him to open your heart to the many possibilities He has prepared for us.
Be open! Life may not be turning out the way you have written but God does not disappoint. Just think of how your parents are with you (or any mentor you look up to or love with all your heart), there were times when they said “no” to something you wanted so badly simply because they saw the bigger picture and knew that you were meant for more.
Our God’s love for us is perfect and He will never lead us to a road that we will not enjoy. Once we put our hands up and say, “God, take the wheel!” that is when we open our lives to many beautiful possibilities God has for us and I assure you it is far greater than anything we have asked, hoped, prayed for and imagined (Ephesians 3:23)!
Bank on that!
7) Forgive.
In reality, the pain of our lives is often linked to someone.
Often, there is big, bad culprit lurking behind the reason why we feel so bad. And while it is so easy to inflict the same kind of pain towards the one who has caused us tremendous grief, what would be the point? We would be perpetuating a cycle instead of ending it.
At the end of the day, we can choose to constantly rehash the pain caused by another while that person moves on or we can simply give it to Jesus (you can cry, oh yes you can cry!) and simply believe that He can use your pain, turn it around and use it for your advantage.
The longer we hold on to pain, the longer we stay in a dark pit. Get yourself out of that hole and believe that God will take care of His children. Pray for God to heal you so you won’t even thinking of getting that person back.
There is a different kind of satisfaction in knowing that while you may have had the opportunity to fight back, you didn’t. God will give you joy and happiness double what you’ve lost.
They have already taken your joy once, don’t give them the power of taking it away from you every single day.
It’s time to start living for you.
You are you no matter what has been done to you.
8) Trust the Process.
The process maybe tedious and you might feel like you have been there forever, but believe that God has you where He has you right now and when you are ready, He will take your promised land, in due time.
Your circumstances may stretch you to the point of you screaming, “I don’t want to be here anymore!” but believe that every tear, everytime you do something kind instead of acting you how you really feel, God is rewarding you and moving you slowly to where He promised He will take you.
Everytime you feel like giving up, remember Romans 8:28, “All things work together for the good”. Every step, no matter how small, is getting you there – just keep walking and you will find the journey quite enjoyable.
Yes, everyone’s got baggage, but you don’t have to be the person who is carry thousands of them at the end of the road. Be the person who discards what isn’t needed and only takes the valuables.
Let go of the baggage and the journey will definitely be lighter.
“If you really believe that God loves you and wants the best for you, you must believe that everything is working toward the greater good in your situation. Because it all does, pure & simple.” – Michelle McKinney Hammond
The Beauty Project
I’ve been waiting a long time to find an avenue to write to girls all over the world and finally I have one.
If there’s one thing I wish to say to women everywhere, it’s this: YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL AS YOU ARE.
It is something that women are bombarded with on a daily basis but then its truth is drowned out by the battles we have with men, other women and mostly with ourselves.
You do not need to be a Victoria’s Secret Angel in order to become beautiful. You don’t need to have perfect grades either.
Beauty comes from the kindness of your heart, the depth of your soul and the intricacies that make you who you are.
And most importantly, we need to learn that we don’t become beautiful by belittling other women.
As women, I wish we would stop thinking that other women are the enemy. We are in this battle together, so why not stop unclenching the claws and start helping a sister out?
If anything, we become more beautiful when we radiate and bask in other women’s success.
Enough of this culture wherein we feel threatened by one another and we must jumpstart a culture wherein girls encourage each other and celebrate each other’s uniqueness.
We must learn to understand that celebrating another’s beauty doesn’t take away our own.
It’s time to take our eyes off each other and instead hold hands and look towards the same cause: empowered women!
Enough of women who are weak and afraid of their own reflection on the mirror. It’s time to encourage other women instead of tearing them down.
It’s time to stand up for a new generation of girls who no longer fear their waistlines.
It’s time to raise a generation of women who no longer constantly wonder if they are beautiful but believe it wholeheartedly and infect others with it. It’s time for women to step up and stand up for what they believe in.
And this dream starts by believing that YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL, no matter how much you have been scarred or how much you have been damaged.
By loving yourself, you are able to create a strong sense of self that is key to ultimately changing the world.
Messy Me
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| Inspiration for the night: Abi Portillo |
“We should stop being the kind of woman who keeps apologizing for her choices and who she is,” says my good, funky and beautiful friend, Abi Portillo during our usual conversation about … well, life.
If you do encounter my ridiculously beautiful friend, Abi, you will see her living out this advice in her day-to-day life.
She is a beautiful woman inside and out, but most importantly, she is a woman who just loves life. She’s not the kind of woman who would sit down and whine about what she doesn’t have in life but someone who gets out there and grabs what she wants. She has always been one of the most inspiring women I know and she is definitely worth emulating.
Her persona is refreshing.
In the day and age where women change who they are every single day to fit into a friendship, job or relationship, it is women like Abi who shows us to truly become who we are without being ashamed of it.
If there is anything I have learned in the past month, it is this: if you are not doing anything wrong and not intentionally hurting anyone, stop apologizing.
Stop apologizing for the things you like and don’t like. Stop apologizing for the choices you’ve made and instead celebrate who you are – quirks and all.
I have been some sort of shrinking violet lately and thought that being humble meant seeing myself as a small person. I was going through blog entries yesterday and cried over how small I allowed myself to feel. If it weren’t for an unfortunate incident I have experienced recently, I wouldn’t have realized how small I was allowing myself to be simply because I wanted people to like me.
Without realizing it, I was becoming the woman I disliked most: the woman who meekly sat in the corner just to keep others happy. While I won’t be starting any fights anytime soon, I have learned to understand that loving people doesn’t mean I shrink so they can become big.
It is about finding the perfect balance and most importantly, it is about loving people and respecting them without allowing them to treat you with anything else. I am not promoting negativity, I am actually promoting the opposite: be who you are and allow others to be who they are.
Being who you are includes standing for what you believe in and not saying yes all the time just because it makes others comfortable.
I have also learned that I cannot constantly put up walls around me. The walls are destructive. The walls force me to retreat to the past & use my past as an excuse to fire bullets when it comes to protecting myself.
I have ruined a few friendships out of the fear of the past repeating itself.
However, in as much as I have learned this, I have also learned that no matter how hard you try, some people just won’t love you or stick around even if you have shown them the best parts of you.
It doesn’t matter if you believe in the same things or feel strongly about specific causes, if the person doesn’t exert the same kind of effort into building a relationship (and not just the romantic kind but also the professional or platonic kind) with you then it just won’t work. You may have tried your hardest to extend a hand towards someone, but if the person won’t reach out for your hand—it’s best to walk away.
I used to cry (yup, a huge crier here!) whenever someone would just refuse to become my friend. I guess some things have not changed since I was pre-school, I would wallow myself in embarrassment (man, I put myself out there like that and the person didn’t respond?!) but the I remembered Abi’s advice and I realize that there is nothing to be embarrassed about.
Most importantly, time shouldn’t even be spent rehashing over the negatives and once again, I should stop apologizing for who I am.
And while, I am still a work in progress and I still have a lot to work on, I have been blessed with people who love me despite seeing the messiest part of me and the least I can do is accept their love and stop pushing them away.
Friends like Abi & Dea (my ever favorite who always deserves a mention in my blog ;)) remind me of the power of loving ourselves completely. That when we stop beating ourselves up for not being perfect, we allow the real people to shine in our lives and that is where we find ourselves loved the way we should be.
Nobody is perfect, we’ve heard that before, but eventually God sends people who love us despite all the messiness & the imperfection and in this kind of crazy world we live in, that is all we could hope and aspire for.
Lies & Goodbyes
I have been trying to write this blog entry since Tuesday but couldn’t seem to find the perfect words to do so.
I am a creature of habit & often have difficulty letting go or say goodbye simply because I have been used to it. I often confuse familiarity with purpose or loyalty.
Saying goodbye is never easy, especially to something that you have invested so much time and energy in.
But dwelling on the sadness of goodbye often robs us of the joy of a new beginning.
So many people wake up each day praying for a clean break & here I am saddened by an unexpected goodbye when I should see it as God’s way of moving me towards a new chapter of my life.
While pondering on what to write, I have also dealt with other numerous thoughts that could also be filed under “to let go of”.
I am quick to declutter my physical things but often find it difficult to declutter my thoughts, I have often struggled with going back to what has hurt me in the past while trying to live a completely free life.
While watching a distraught family drama of a powerful show business clan, I found myself wondering how long this specific clan has harbored on to past pain in order to justify today’s actions.
I was suddenly struck with a chilling thought, how many of my past hurts & pain are still holding me crippled today? How many of what has been done to me still affect me today? Do I still use it to justify my irresponsible actions? Am I using what has been done to me to hurt other people? What cycle am I perpetuating?
I have come to realize that life is both controllable and uncontrollable.
I can choose to dwell on how unfairly I have been treated or I can choose to let it go, thank God for the lessons & move on.
I must admit, I haven’t made the best choices in this area. I often justified my pain & I take the bullets out when I need to justify my not so responsible behavior.
I’m turning 25 soon & Iron Man may have released its last movie so I believe it’s time for me to grow up and man up, so to speak.
I no longer want to be a victim of what’s been done to me because God knows I have also done foolish things, but now I choose to look forward in faith and forgive myself for what I’ve done wrong and forgive others for whatever wrong they have caused me.
The only person who can change the course of my life is me.
I can choose to trust in God’s plan for me and discern His purpose or I can choose to remain the sullen girl who cries every night over something that has been over a long time ago.
It’s time to get a grip & be the strong woman I only once wished I could be.
4 letter word
Love.
The word that makes the world go round. May it be love from a significant other, a parent, a friend, a family member or someone we highly admire.
From the time the word was introduced to us by our parents, the definition of love has changed so much we got confused as to what it truly means.
Some of us have had bad experiences with those who said they love us which left us associating love with something bad.
Others have tried to control us under the preface of love & we have always felt the need to try harder to make people love us.
Some of us unfortunately have never experienced love which is why we don’t know when we’re being taken advantage of or when we are being mistreated.
Love has been diluted to fit our standards and has been downgraded to something selfish and reserved only for a selected few.
However, if love is anything, it most definitely isn’t selfish.
Love, above all, isn’t self-seeking.
Love also doesn’t demand us to change into something we are not. It doesn’t demand that we become smarter, skinnier or even prettier than we are.
Love isn’t controlling, love has no rules to speak of. We don’t have to have a to do list of what we should or shouldn’t be in order to be loved.
In the purest of love, we are loved for who we are– even our messy parts.
And while the lovelorn sigh over the almost impossible love that I have just described, let us not forget the one who defined love for all of us made this kind of love possible.
While no human being can love us perfectly we can choose to give our hearts to those who, at the very least, respect us for who we are and won’t try to use love to control us or manipulate us.
We must stop torturing ourselves to constantly try harder to be loved, love needs no reason to love, it simply does.
We must accept the fact that we are loved as we are and anyone who tells us otherwise doesn’t need to be in our tight circle of friends.
Never let anyone define whether or not you are meant to be loved because that is not even a question you should ponder on.
You are loved.
End of story.
Journey Smasher
I have always prided myself in being a tough, optimistic little lady (okay, I’m 5’8 so I don’t think I’m anything but little), however, today, I just want to CRY and BREAK THINGS.
I have never quite said it before but I must admit, life is unfair. I have unselfishly clung on to the belief that there is some fairness in this life for so long, but my hands burn from the pain of holding on to that belief for so long.
I have been quite the Little Miss Sunshine for awhile now but today, I am just fed up.
I have always believed that good people win in the end and if you work hard enough, dreams come true & prayers are answered.
Now with constant disappointments slamming from all sides, I just want to unleash the woman in me that rarely gets out.
I want to be MAD, but more than anything, I also want to crawl in the corner & CRY until I couldn’t anymore.
Life isn’t fair. When it comes to me, I don’t really care but when it comes to the people I love being disappointed, I just want to go out there and smash things.
It is entirely okay for me to be disappointed about certain things in my life- I have long given up on areas that obviously aren’t meant to be mine but when it comes to those I love, I wish I could turn things around and make it right for them.
Today, I want to take a break from all the “it’s-going-to-be-okay” and just cry for a moment.
I know that tomorrow is another day and the reason God closed certain doors is because He has other, better ones opening.
But that doesn’t take the mighty pain away.
I guess feeling this way makes me human and it also leaves me empty of what I have previously believed in.
Maybe this is the time to reevaluate the way I view life & the way I see things.
It is yet another opportunity to open my heart to the One who created me and allow him to change me through yet again, another tough blow.
It is in moments like this one that I am drawn closer to Him and the only way I am thoroughly cleansed.
The journey begins again & while we cannot stop it from moving forward, we do have the right to take a deep breath, let it all out and strengthen up so we can have the courage to pray for better days.
