WHERE ARE YOU?
-natalie and justin romano

[Natalie]I’m staring out at the sky (I see you baby)
Praying that he will walk in my life
Where is the man of my dreams (right here)
yea-yeahI’ll wait forever, how silly it seems
How does he laugh? How does he cry? What’s the color of his eyes?Does he even realize I’m here?Where is he? Where is he? Where is he? Where is this beautiful guy?Who is he? Who is he? Who is gonna take me so high?Where is he? Where is he? Where is this beautiful guy?Who is he? Who is he? Who is gonna take me so high?
[Justin]There is someone out there for me (there is someone out there for me)I know she is waiting so patiently (so patient)Can you tell me her name (can you tell me his name)This life-long search is gonna drive me insane (that’s right)
[Natalie]How does he laugh? How does he cry? What is the color of his eyes?Does he even realize I’m here?
[Justin]Where is she? Where is she? Where is she? Where is this beautiful girl?Who is she? Who is she? Who is gonna complete my world?[Natalie]Where is he? Where is he? Where is he? Where is this beautiful guy?Who is he? Who is he? Who is gonna take me so high?

I was taking a bath this morning when it started raining. I love the rain, don’t get me wrong, its just really annoying when you’re taking a shower and its as if the water you’re using is the one from the heavens because the raindrops are thundering on your roof.
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I finally caught Harry Potter last Friday. It was the best Harry Potter so far. The director was really a good one. I totally loved it!:) Cedric was hot and so was Harry:) Haha. I was crying buckets towards the end of it (during the time where Cedric asked Harry to bring his body back). Tears, Tears and more Tears.
I really want to see a bunch of movies, but just my luck, finals is coming up in two weeks. I don’t think I need to retaliate the point that I AM FREAKIN’ OUT! Hahaha.
I heard Prime is good. Just for the record. I liked Bryan Greenberg for more than a year now. Yes, even when he was chubby Jake on Tree Hill. I loved him loads already:) haha. Some annoying people in my class yesterday was talking about it… Okay, okay I’ve resolved not to waste blog space on annoying people so I’d rather not talk about it. Hahaha.:)
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I know the SEA games is major deal for people but come on, couldn’t they have shown it somewhere else or had it during the June-September season. I’m totally a donkhead when it comes to these things but I wished they had it last September. Back when there no basketball games to interrupt. I really miss the basketball games. *sigh*. I haven’t even watched one Sea Games event without dozing off. Sorry just trying to be honest here. Hehe.
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Its only 9:30 am and I am so tired already.

*snore*

(From “Saving My First Kiss” by Lisa Velthouse. It’s this amazing book, that made me realize that my patience and sacrifice isn’t going to waste.)

“I must be able to believe that God’s timing of events is what’s best for me. I have to trust that He’ll work out the events of my life in the right sequence and on a perfect schedule.”

“Choosing to be modest is a very empowering thing. It is a sign that a person is confident and secure. While some women rely on low necklines to catch the attention of others, a modest woman depends on her inner, lasting qualities to set herself apart from the rest. While immodest womne showcase the cheapest versions of themselves first, a modest woman forces the world to see her internal value too.”

“A girl will attract a certain kind of young man by the way she dresses. If a woman’s desire is to have a godly mate, it only makes sense that the kind of man would value modestly, not only in a dress but also in speech and presence”

I am soooo busy. I can’t even visit other people’s blogs (sorry jen and sasha and thanks for dropping by from time to time, I will leave comments as soon as finals are over:)). And I haven’t watched a live game in awhile too! B00-hoo. Haha:) I miss araneta. :’c

Kings’ next game is on december 10, it’s so far away. NOOO!!! hehe;)

Go kings!:)

I used to describe myself as complicated, maybe because during those time I really haven’t figured it out… until college happened. Almost six months into it and I’ve seen myself become better. I know some of my old friends are probably saying that i’ve changed, I may have, but that doesn’t mean I deal with people in a negative manner. In fact, I think I deal with them better. I no longer find the need to please poeple or do everything to make them like me. Thanks if you, damn if you don’t. I am no longer a pushover, I already feel comfortable to say what I feel and be completley honest with people.
I have my own twisted idealisms about life and everything in it but I don’t impose them on people. Despite my evident cynicism, I still believe in fairy tales and happy endings, my story is simply begining. Karma is real, which is why I try my best to treat people right. I am still moody, but I do try to lessen my moody days. I am still as silly as ever and I still believe that barney’s hot.
Mess with me all you want, but never my family or the people I love. I can be your bestest friend, but once you break that code of trust…well, I don’t think we’d ever be friends again. When I create friendships, I give my heart and the best of me and the least I expect from people is to be honest and frank. Be up and front, I appreciate it more.
I allow life to surprise me. I don’t expect anything fromt it. I live each day as it comes. If it’s meant for me, it will happen, no matter how impossible or difficult it may seem.
The Lord is my strength, my refuge and the reason for all this change. He allowed me to get hurt for the sole reason that He wants me to be better.
My life is beautiful. Despite the failures, it’s a radical life. I wouldn’t have it any other way.

Disclaimer:
I know that I’ve hurt a few people on my journey of change and I’m sorry. I don’t live to spit on people’s weaknesses, I just grew up and I guess, we all grow apart. Harsh realities of life, but please don’t judge me because I decided to live my own life. Allow me for once to be happy. Cause finally, I am.:)

I was supposed to write about this incident about two weeks ago, but somehow, I always forgot about it once I was in front of the computer. Okay, before I start let me state the point, that I will not be saying who this person is or even describe the person. I will just be talking about the stupid incident and that’s it.

You see about two weeks ago we had dinner with some “people” and that was where my fam and I met the biggest beeyotch ever. She’s way older than I am, prolly in her early thirties and thinks that the world didn’t begin until she was born. Yes, a thirty year old with that kind of ego problem. Okay, okay, being the polite girl that I was I ignored her all throughout dinner while she went on and on about how wonderful her job is and how wonderful her family is and so on. You know the deal with these people. Anyway, again, I don’t really care if people think that they’re God’s gift on earth, if that makes them happy, go ahead. What makes me mad is the fact that she puts people down to feed her inate need to be secured. Another thing with me? Mess with me all you want, but never my family or the people I love. Somehow, this thirty year old thought that being a homemaker is a lame job and this makes her better than my mom. Please, my mom worked before and its her choice to stay at home and she’s done an EXCELLENT job in raising us.

My mom didn’t care, but I did. She kept on yammering and yammering, feeling like she knew everything until the quiet seventeen year old opened her mouth and shut that beyotch up. Who was the seventeen year old?

Me.

You see, the know it all she was said that if given the chance she would be taking up nursing cause she gets to leave right away. Well, thanks to mrs. velarde, I know for a fact, that nursing students cannot leave right away and that they had to serve the country first before leaving.

I said it to her and boy! was she pissed. A seventeen year old raining on her parade. Ha! Its a good think i listen in class.

I swear some people never get over thier little insecurites, even at thirty.

Damn lady! You have some growing up to do. Seriously.

I want to write a million and one things but I can’t seem to sit down and get into detail. I’m just really praying and hoping for the best. Fingers Crossed that things go my way this time.

Please. Haha:)

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You’re barely waking
And I’m tangled up in you
YeahI’m open, you’re closed
Where I follow,
you’ll go
I worry I won’t see your face
Light up again
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide
I’m quiet you know
You make a frist impression
I’ve found I’m scared to know
I’m always on your mind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow findYou and I collide
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

I haven’t written anything meaningful in a long time. Well, there have been a lot of short lived and cynical thoughts but none of those that lead to what’s really going on in my life. So, how is my life right now?

The answer to that?

I have no idea.

There has just been a lot of twists and turns that even my faithful blog cannot keep up. I am glad that even in just a small way, I am not as emotional as I used to be. I no longer let the little things get to me or maybe I just don’t have the time the energy or the brain space to worry about it anymore. I’ve grown up but sometimes I wonder if that’s a good thing or not.

Thing is I’ve been working on this thing for the past month of my life. You see, I’ve been struggling so much with my past and the last entry I wrote about it ( have you ever?) was really a bitter entry but at least it was honest. I’ve been struggling to let go of it, but I did so in a bitter way and that made me think of everything that has happened before. I know life is so much better now but still at times, I’m back to being thirteen.

But that’s part of the past now. I heard somewhere that getting your life together may mean having to cut out the ugly parts and that can be messy. SO I guess my life is messy right now. Real messy. But I know once i get over it…

Well….then it would be much better:)

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it was a rockin’ and retro night.
i had fun!;)