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Yesterday. Today. Tomorrow.

“Young Men, in the same way be submissive to those who are older. All of you, clothe yourselves toward one another because, ‘God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble.’ Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that He may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety in on Him because He cares for you”
— 1 Peter 5:5-7

-Yesterday-

Yes, I was a little late for work for the first time ever but I had a good day.

Yesterday actually was good too.

Yesterday, I realized the importance of closely knit relationships with officemates and foregoing office politics.

If you allow God to work, He will.

Yesterday, I realized that a heartfelt prayer is the answer to everything.
-Today-
Today, I realized that blood is truly thicker than water.
Today, I realized that humility is God’s grace working through me and it truly feels great. Nothing I did today was because of me and the desires of human flesh, but instead it was God’s spirit working in me.
That is truly an amazing place to be and I wish that everyone I love would get to experience that divine power working in you.
Today, I also realized that God gave me a good life and sometimes I’m just too much of a brat to realize it, but everyday, I’m grateful.
Everyday, I’m grateful because I know He’s working in my life and even though it hurts, frustrating and disappointing at times, I know I’m being prepared for something great, not just for me but for my life as well.
God’s working. I just have to be refined.
Humility is a good first step.
Today, I also realized that God gives you good people in your life and all you have to do is appreciate them.
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Today, I realized that maybe our love story truly ended and I’m sometimes too delusional to admit it. It’s time to let go of the ashes, it’s time for us to move on.
Today, I also realized that I’m happy with the body, the face and everything else that the Lord gave me. I’m not being lazy, but I’m happy because beauty is from the inside.
-Tomorrow-
Will be filled with blessings and surprises.
God is always, always good.
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Just So You Know

A year’s worth of things I never got to say to you so if you’re smart enough to read this then maybe I got through to you after all:

1) “How do you get better once you’ve had the best?”

2) I really wish that this whole egomaniac persona of yours would die soon because to me you’re that kid who stays in front of the computer playing some silly computer game. You don’t do drugs, you don’t do friends with benefits and you don’t do partying all weekend. You are a mama’s boy through and through, I’ve always loved you for it.

3) If I could freeze the moment when you walked in the room when I first met you, I would because that moment could make up for all the times that we’ve lost and the times that I’ve cried.
4) I used to hate you for making me cry, but now I’m thankful for it because you’ve made me better without even knowing it.

5) You know that thump thump thump? I still feel it when I see you. My knees still go weak, my heart lurches into overdrive and butterflies that have been hiding for over a year manifest themselves and I feel alive again. You still make me feel alive.

6) Nobody ever came close, so don’t believe what you hear. No one and I dare say no one ever came close.

7) Every guy I meet is now measured against you and demnit! You’re rare so guess how the others feel?! Guess how I feel?!

8) I haven’t felt anything for anyone in a long time and yes, it’s your fault.
9) SAYANG NOH?
10) So you want to change everything that has happened before? Don’t even try because it happened for a reason, let’s just move forward this time with lessons learned and greater understanding, darling, I never loved you any less anyway.
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So He’s Just Not That Into Me?

“Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up: if a boy punches you he likes you, never try to trim your own bangs, and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. every movie we see, every story we’re told implores us to wait for it: the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we’re so focused on finding our happy ending we don’t learn how to read the signs. How to tell the ones who want us from the ones who don’t, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave and maybe a happy ending doesn’t include a guy, maybe it’s you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. maybe the happy ending is just moving on. or maybe the happy ending is this: knowing after all the unreturned phone calls and broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment… You never gave up hope. “

I was probably the last person who saw He’s Just Not That Into You and I enjoyed it in a bittersweet and probably because I can relate to Gigi’s character the most (I know, I know, it’s kindda embarassing!) but I think the movie was cute and I haven’t seen cute movies in awhile (I saw The Uninvited over the weekend as well, now that is a good movie! ha ha).
It’s funny how all girls act idiotic around the men that they like, we always think that guys want to play games when in reality they’re just not that into you.
It’s kindda sad and upsetting but in reality, we’re just too prideful (is that a word?) to admit that he doesn’t like me. I think girls should understand that it really has nothing to do with them, some guys just don’t like you (ouch, i know).
But, there’s a big BUT, it doesn’t mean that you’re never going to get that happy ending, because just like all the girls in the movie, you will!
It just takes time, patience, numerous heartbreaks, rejections and nights drowning in ice cream, but you know it’s all good, because I’ve been told that it’s pretty worth it.
I think our lives would be simpler if we realize the nuggets taught in the book and the movie. 🙂
Another realization: Justin Long is cute! ha ha.

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Dear Carlo

When I was in high school, I did “fall in love” like the rest of the people here on our lovely planet called Earth (I wonder if aliens get to experience the same thing, if not then they’re missing out on a lot!).

And his name is Carlo Yabyabin. If my memory serves me right, his entire name was Juan Carlo Acuna Yabyabin and we’re still in touch, although we don’t really have text marathons like we used to (aha, feeling! haha. I was after all, the fat girl in high school)

So anyway, for awhile I felt something bitter towards him because he ignored me and broke my heart in high school (can you blame the dude?) but you know I just realized what purpose he served in my life.

Just like the famous quote, “you only understand life backwards” or something like it.

Tita Maritess, my parents and I were talking about the end times and without even studying the prophetic Bible, I understood the seven years of tribulation and what came after that.

And a huge reason why I knew this is because of Carlo, because in second year high school, during one of those free cut classes, he told me all about it.

And just like that, I knew that the next guys that came after him would be good ones as well because you know even at fourteen, I was “in love” with a good seed already.

So Carlo, wherever you are right now: Thank you and tell the girl you’re with to take care of you because you’re a good one.
As for me, God’s still preparing his best and I know that he’ll be similiar to the first guy I truly “loved”.