I realized something when I was in church earlier.

Everyone, in one way or another, is hiding beneath a mask. Thier lives could seem SO perfect on the outside but in reality, one would never know what is really going on behind the mask. I know i know, I so don’t want to sound like oprah but its the truth.

Which is why its kindda unfair to look at one person and say,
“Oh gad, she has the BEST life, I wish I had her life”
because in one way or another, thier life is messed up too. They may have a good way of concealing it but there’s no escaping it.

It made me realized that everyone has thier own little things to deal with and no one’s life is better than anyone else’s. As I always say, people are different from each other, not BETTER.
Thier problems may seem trival to other people but to them, it’s tough.

So, I guess it all boils down to minding our own business and not judging people. I have stuff to deal with, they have stuff to deal with so we should just let them be. We are in no position to say, “What the hell is she yanking about?” (guilty as charged) because we really don’t know the REAL SCORE.

I also realized another thing, real kindness can be tested when dealing with difficult people. Its so easy to be nice to someone who is pleasant and blessed with an endearing personality but its more difficult to be nice to someone who isn’t … nice. SO i guess its better to repay meaness with kindness. Difficult but i hope I get there in time.:)

Okay, I think i’ve had enough drama for the day.

GO KINGS:)

COMMON FILIPINO ANTICS

“Miss, pabili ng colgate..ung close up”

Ano raw? Colgate na close up pa.

“Day, patayin ang ilaw”

translation: KILL the lgihts. Aba, aba street slang

ENGLISH VERSION

“Yaya, close the lights”

Ahemm… di naman door un.

“Ang traffic!”

Lagi naman may traffic eh, better to just say, “the traffic was heavy”

Another funny trait Filipinos have these days is the fact that 80% of today’s population wishes that thier children, especially little girls would be a part of the sexbomb dancers.

Tsk tsk. NO thanks to the shortage of teachers and good schools in the Philippines. I just read in the paper today that we are lacking almost 5, 000 elementary teachers alone! We really can’t blame those leaving the country to search for greener pastures but the lack of a good education system is way too depressing.

Especially if the taxpayers’ money all go to the kids of the senators, congressmen and whatnot who choose to study in the states.

GO FIGURE.

I seriously didn’t intend to hurt anyone. I just want to say THANK YOU. Uh-oh, bad move. People look into stuff more than I give them credit for. Durn, that little action may actually mean A LOT to other people. Huwat? Can’t I be nice? UH-OH. Major bu-bu.
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I think I just hurt someone I really like. Uh-oh again. NO thanks to the fact that I continually analyze the smallest things that it drives people insane. Crap. Well, if that person would just talk to me then maybe I could set the record straight. That person is TOO arrogant for that person’s own good.
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I wish people would stop ASSUMING. (ha, im one to talk but seriously!).
Just because i’m nice to someone doesn’t really mean I LIKE THAT PERSON. Just because I cheer for that person it doesn’t mean that I LIKE THAT SOMEONE too.

All you have to do is come up to me and ASK.
That would make everyone’s lives EASIER:)
Trust me.
Boo.

“Your heart is not living until it has experienced pain. The pain of love breaks open the heart even if it is as hard as a rock” -Hazel Inayat Kuan

Interesting quote huh? Interesting bloggering as well. Haha.

Well, I’ve got about a week left until school starts again and I just decided to pull my life together and just MOVE on. Forget about the things with which I cannot change and just enjoy the things that are actually present in my life
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You know what saddens me? The amount of kids who go to sleep hungry every single day. Its kindda upsetting because most of us worry about what we’re going to wear tomorrow while there are others who go to sleep at night thinking if they would still live to see the next day. Its kind of dramatic BUT that doesn’t take away the reality of it. Its sad and I pray everyday that I could do more than just pray.
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In line with that its also disheartening to know that there are about a million kids in Ethopia who are not studying. Sad fact because those fortunate ones go and waste the chance they’ve got to study. All they do is party and immerse themselves in superficial things. Sad and kind of pathetic if you ask me.
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I guess the reason why most people are lonely these days its because they tend to look inward instead of outward. They tend to find things to satisfy them without thinking that maybe making others happy would be the ultimate bliss for everyone. I don’t know just a thought… Think about it okay?

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boo for those people who don’t do anything else but brag about their clothes and oh so busy social lives. As if your parties actually help people in need. It just satisfies you for what? Thirty minutes until you get too wasted to remember? I’m all for a good time but seriously no one has to hear about it EVERY SINGLE TIME. I hate people who constantly begin thier sentences with, “There’s this party..”, “I know this person she/he was on the cover of”… well you know the deal.

please. a little more sensible things to talk about:)

My feet are seriously blistered right now.

I constanly bump into things and I constantly wear flipflops that totally hurt at the end of the day. I swear right now I could hardly move. Ohwell. That’s what I get for being a klutz.

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Kings vs. TNT tom. I SO hope we win:)

Want to know what’s totally crazy about me? Everytime I get hurt and/or rejected, it takes awhile for me to recover. What’s crazy about the whole thing is the fact that people around me hardly know it. Only the three people who live with me know how much I cry and how much time I spend in my room pretending to read. I said pretending because most of the time I’ve gone as far as two paragraphs before breaking down. It would take awhile for me to get out of it but people really don’t have to know that.

Thing is, when I’m really upset about something I tend to be MEAN. And you know what? That kills me. It kills me when I vent out my frustrations on unknowing people who simply made the mistake of talking to me on that day. This is so wrong since I should find other ways to vent, you know? Like boxing or karate. Something violent of that sort.

Well, let’s just say that I know how to vent my frustrations and obviously that is what I’m doing now. BUT, I don’t think its enough since I don’t really write down everything in graphic detail (I really don’t think I should haha). Tell me exactly, when did I ever write down how I’m really feeling?

So, there might be a problem there. I should learn how to let it all. Keyword being learn. I don’t think its enough that I spend the ENTIRE afternoon writing it down on my journal and crying all by myself. I hardly tell people how I feel because I know that they’d either get bored of me or think that my rantings aren’t worth anything so I shut up and just keep it all in.

Cause maybe..just maybe, I’m simply being my old plain dramaqueen self. So much for early retirement.

i LOVE the new american idol!!:)

“The culture we have does not make people feel good about themselves. I say, if the culture doesn’t work- don’t buy it!” – Morrie Schwartz, Tuesdays with Morrie.

It’s funny that whenever I meet up with:

a) old friends
b) new aquaintances
c) family

The protocol question is this:

“So, are you dating anyone?!”

Of course I answer with a NO. Some are polite enough to let me be while others tend to ask me more questions when my parents’ back are turned. Haha, as if my parents don’t know anything about me. Tough Luck.

I guess some people just don’t want to believe that a soon to be 18 year old such as myself has never been in a relationship and is really not in the market for one.

For the past four years its been getting harder to explain to people about my dating status and my purity ring. Well, for one thing, this culture does not accept the fact that a girl my age enjoys being single. They always expect some drama or some story when it comes to that. As if that’s the only significant part of any teenager’s life. Please, I have other things to worry about and sometimes when I give people that explanation, they simply think I’m cynical.

Duh. Thing is, I have this belief that these things are not things that one should look for, instead it would come.

This belief is the reason why I get irritated whenever people try to set me up with “nice guys” etc.

It would come. I don’t have to rush it.

Gad, why don’t people just get that?

I have a million and one things to do and dating isn’t really a priority…YET.

thanks jade ed girl for your comment.:) it really made me smile so THANKS:)

I think I’ve mentioned this before that the little things that don’t annoy most people annoy me. I’m unique in that sense I guess-haha. BUT for these past few days, these little annoyances has become more than just “little”.

For one thing, there’s this “friend” of mine who makes it her mission in life to make sure that she’s better than me and make me aware of it. Now that is something I just don’t understand since I have this belief that no one is better than anyone. People are different from each other, not better. It’s rather annoying cause this “friend” makes sure that she knows what Im doing at all times and makes sure that I don’t do anything that would make me “better” than her. Whatever missy, I am in no competition. I only compete with myself and so far, that has been really fun. BOO YOU!

Ginebra’s losing streak. *tear* I don’t want the season to end just yet. Gur.

This other “friend” who was constantly there when he needed something from me but quickly disappeared once I’ve done the little favor that he was asking for. Hmph. Some best friend.

People who judge me based on a few measley conversations.

Nice guys who date trashy girls. Don’t they know that they deserve more? It’s kindda sad and pathetic if you ask me. You can do SO MUCH BETTER!!

The meger supply of nice guys. And I’m not talking about nice guys to date since im not in to dating yet, i mean nice guys period. Don’t they ever realize that the “ignoring-the-girl-so-she’d-be-into-me” is so Dawson’s Creek. We’re in the One Tree Hill era already. Get over it.

Guys who play games. If you want to be friends with someone, be friends with someone. if you want to be something else with someone, tell that someone. It wouldn’t kill you. And that might work instead of constantly making the other person think without even asking how they feel. Come on, what if that “someone” just wants to be friends and you go on playing games with that someone? I better stop this is just tad confusing.