1) Where is the person you want most?
— hmmm… is there anyone I want RIGHT NOW?

2) Where will you be 2 hours from now?
— Classrooms of the college freshmen handing out surveys :))

3) Did your last kiss mean anything?
— Hmmm 🙂

4) Does your ex miss you?
— haha 🙂

5) Does anyone love you?
— i HOPE 😀

6) Can you make yourself sneeze?
— haha….

8) What are you doing tomorrow?
— work! work and more work! oh and MDP. happy happy joy joy! 😛

9) Are you easily confused?
— not really.

10) Do you think you would make a good boyfriend/girlfriend?
— I’d like to say yes to that question 🙂

11) Where were you at 9am this morning?
— It’s not 9 am yet. haha. me and this incriminating habit!

12) Do you fall for people easily?
— no! I can say honestly say it takes a lot for me to fall in love. hehe 🙂

13) Everything happens for a reason?
— YES. YES. YES

16) What does your last text message read?
— It’s about work. So don’t bother. Anyway, i have a sun number now so if you have sun numbers send it to me! 😀

18) What are you listening to right now?
— Love in this club part 2, love it!

19) How has the week been?
— VERY VERY GOOD 🙂

20) Is there something you wish you could tell someone but can’t?
— “I can’t do whatever this is anymore. Sorry”

21) Would you kiss the last person you kissed again ?
— haha. rose knows the answer to this!! 😛

22) Does the last person you shared a bed with mean anything to you?
— wtf.

23) Do you sleep with the TV on?
— Sometimes, when I can’t sleep 🙂

24) Are you too forgiving?
— yes :(( God knows I gave him so many chances! 😛

23) Have you ever wanted to be a fire fighter?
— no! hang on after reading the rescue, I wanted to be one for awhile 😀 haha. dork.

29) Who do you miss?
— troy 🙁

30) What was the last thing you put in your mouth?
— my medication 😛

31) Are you signed onto AIM?
— nope

32) If you could have any car what would it be?
— an audi suv!!!

33) What are you stressed out about?
— nothing. i’m actually enjoying work so i’m not stressed about it!

34) Do you have anything in your pockets right now?
— don’t have pockets!

35) How many windows are open on your computer?
– three 🙂

36) In the past week have you gotten sick?
— nope

37) in the past week have you gotten a hair cut ?
— Nope

38) How many profile views do you have?
— don’t check. haha 🙂

39) Who was ur last call from?
— i forgot. haha 😀

40) What can’t you wait for?
— friday just to see if I can resist temptation! haha 🙂

41) What do you do with most of your time?
— work. work. work. ninteen minutes. gossip girl. work. laugh with my officemates and work. wait did i say work? 🙂

42) How many clothes do you have in your closet?
— don’t count

43) On a scale of 1-10 How good is life?
— 20! 😀

44) Will you and your ex ever get back together?
— haha:)

48) Do you think you’ll be a good Mother/Father?
— YES. I will be the best mom. That’s a promise.

49) Are you high-maintainence?
— haha. *shrug* no comment.

50) Are you happy with the way life is going?
— YES:)

*****
Why are you not going for the person you want?
— ask rose. haha 😛 because it’s not RIGHT.

Wheres the last place you went?
— OFFICE. Damned workaholic 😛

When will you kiss the last person you kissed?
— 😀

What color eyeshadow do you wear?
— I don’t use eyeshadow. I hardly use makeup.

Do you find piercings attractive?
— no!

When was the last time you saw snow?
— never did 🙁

Who are your favorite people to talk to when you’re down?
— NOLAN,KARLA, KAE My mom, the girls at the office. they make sense and RUTH of course, just because she makes me laugh without trying.

Who was the last person to insult you to your face?
— troy.

Has anyone ever tried to shove their religion in your face?
— nope

Who was the last person you sat next to?
— melai

Who can you tell anything to?
— Len, My Mom. The girls. KARLA:)

What are you thinking about right now?
— RESIST EVIL. hahahaha 😛

Do you smile often?
— YES:)

Do you prefer an ocean or pool?
— ocean 🙂

When was the last time you cried?
— july 11 2008:(

How long is your hair?
— long. 🙂

Who told you they loved you last?
— wena 😉

What color are your eyes?
— purple…haha 🙂

Last person you hugged?
— hahahahahahahahahaha

Who do you dislike currently?
— troy. it’s a love and hate thing. more of hate actually but i don’t think i can hate him without having feeling so strongly about him. 🙂

If you could have something right now, what would it be?
— GUTS :))

Do you miss something?
— ang kulit… yes nga 🙂

When will you turn 18?
— NEXT YEAR 🙂

If you were being chased by an alligator, what would you do?
— RUN LIKE HELL 😀

How many pillows are on your bed?
— four

What song are you currently listening to?
— I’m yours :))

If you caught a significant other cheating on you what would happen?
— I WILL SLAP HIM AND NEVER TALK TO HIM AGAIN:)

What time did you wake up this morning?
— 5:20

Do you have any cousins?
— YES;)

Can you imagine yourself living in a cardboard box?
— no. martian boy 🙁

Who was the last person you talked to?
— talking to my dad right now. 🙂

What is the WORST subject they teach at school?
— MATH. MATH. MATH 🙂

Where do you plan on living when you grow up?
— EUROPE:)

What was your dream about this morning?
— i couldn’t remember. I think i was thinking of something that happened yesterday 🙂

Have you ever made out with someone you weren’t dating?:
— why do you want to know?

Is there a difference between the word ‘best friend’ and ‘friend’?:
— OF COURSE

If your ex came up to you and apologized for something they did wrong, what would you say?
— enough chances. I’ve given him enough chances.

Do you miss anyone?:
–:P

When is the last time someone of the opposite sex gave you a hug?
— yesterday

What was the highlight of your week?
— a lot! 😀 my officemates would know:))

Who was the last person who looked at you and smiled?:
— hehe. I don’t know his name.

Is silence really golden?
— yes :))

Do you have any interesting tattoos/piercings?:
–nope.

Are you afraid to grow up?:
— not really. Everyone should give growing up more credit.

Any upcoming vacations?
— no leave yet:((

Is anything wrong?:
— nope

Do you have a good relationship with your parent(s)?:
–yes. We’ve learned the art of a mature relationship. Haha!

Name something you CANNOT wait for?:
— nothing in particular

Who’s making you feel the way you are right now?
— no one in particular. I’ve learned that the only way to live is to stop depending on other people to make me feel good or bad about myself

Looking forward to something this weekend?:
— yes because I want to REST. But knowing me, I know I’d still be working

Did you speak to your mother today?
— yeah, of course

Do you want someone back in your life?
— at this point, not really

Have you ever collapsed on the bathroom floor?
— yes:((

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
— my dad

Are you a jealous person?
— Yes!

SINCE SUMMER STARTED, HAVE YOU:

Seen an ex?
— haha

Told someone I love you?
— yes

Cried?
— yes:((

Been to the beach?
— no. dork!

Stayed up all night?
— not really. I couldn’t!! J

Went shopping?
— YES

Been out of state?
— no

Went swimming?
— nope

Been asked out?
— yess:))

Asked someone out?
— hmmmm :))

Gotten in a car with a stranger?
— NAH

Lost someone close?
— NAH

Slept in someone else’s bed?
— NAH

Regret something?
— YES. I DO REGRET THAT :))

Lied?
— “sorry I have a boyfriend na”

Flirted with someone?
— haha. Do you call that flirting? :p

Who have you texted in the last 48 hours?
— Rose, Melai, Len, Kristina, Ces, GIO, my dad, my mom. And everyone who has sun numbers so if you have sun cell. MESSAGE ME. :))

Are you in a good mood right now?
— YES:))

The phone rings; What do you say?
— Heyy you! :))

Ever had a sleepover with the opposite sex?
— no!! 😛

What are you drinking?
— coffee:))

Latest you stayed up in the past week?
— 2 am:))

Have you been in a car accident?
— no

Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
— yes, I’ve been blessed :))

Ever crawl through a window?
–nope and have no intention of doing so J

Morning or night person?
— morning 😀

Have you ever kissed a tree?
— no!

How would you say i love you to someone the first time?
— I’ll surprise himJ

What is the last sneaky thing you did?
— you wouldn’t want to know 😀

What does your last text say?
— “ces, you have no idea what I’ve been doing lately!”

What is your background on your phone?
— nada

Add me up on facebook because my profile looks so sad: royal_dramaqueen@yahoo.com

I made that account when I was fifteen, so don’t ask!

1) You forgot my birthday, had the nerve to criticize my work, didn’t attend my shindig and you purposely left me at the office yesterday. It goes to show how insensitive you are and how much I need to cut you out of my life. It’s a damned cycle that I just want to stop. You’re a jerk, you don’t deserve me!

2) I should have said YES. You have no place in my life and I really have no intention of doing whatever it is that you want to do but you’ve added that little zest in my life that’s been missing for quite awhile now. If this little thing no longer continues it’s okay because you’ve pushed me well over the edge and it’s like I’m a whole new person so THANK YOU.

3) You’re sweet and you make me laugh. She should take care of you, you deserve the best. I never met someone as sweet and as straight up as you are. A little rough around the edges but at least around you, I always know what to expect.

4) Thanks for listening me babble all day about whatever’s on my mind. So thank you. Appreciate it.

5) You inspire me to do better. You encourage and challenge me to work harder. Your work ethic pushes me to produce better output.

6) I know what’s on your mind. You like him, don’t you?

7) HOY! I miss you! We should go out soon!!!!!!!! 😀 You still owe me roses!!! 😀

8) Dilly Dally. You make me smile honey.

9) You’ll always be the person that everyone else gets compared to.Thanks for putting up the bar higher for me.

10) I really don’t like you!

Just because I’d never have the guts to tell you this in person (it’s not like you actually visit my account. That’s how “sensitive” you are)

Two weeks ago, a week before my 20th birthday, I made a decision to let go of you primarily because I knew that you weren’t treating me right and there were other ‘people’ who treated me better and I never gave them the time of day because of what you represent in my life.

But just like what my dad often says, I’m never consistent with you the same way that you’re never consistent with me.

It’s probably nostalgia and the fact that what we had before really made me smile. I don’t want to go back to that just because i’m bored or just because I’m not distracted by something or someone else. (Which is really insenitive of me right? I have my moments din pala :D)

The thing is… as much as I would love to go back to where we used to be (That was a good place) I’d rather not at the moment because in as much as I was happy, I was also hurt.

And I’m at that point where I don’t know if the happy place is worth the hurt.

I’m relatively confused because you hurt me all the time with those crude comments of yours (damn boy, you have some refinement to do) but I’ve learned to look past that because I know you don’t mean them, or you do because you don’t know how to express yourself well.

I know you better now which is why I understand you more.

I’ve tried, really tried to let go of you, you know?

But something keeps pulling me back.

I have no idea if anyone would ever come close, but as I am writing this, I know that no one else would ever come close… at least at this point.

Whenever I think of you, there’s a lot of guilt and regret attached to whatever it is that I feel when you pop into my mind. What started out to be an innocent crush turned out to be one hell of a complicated mess.

And at this point, complicated is not good.

Complicated makes me lose my concentration and complicated makes me want to run away and scream whenever you come near me.

Don’t you notice that I hardly look at you anymore? That’s probably because I’m too scared of what I would or wouldn’t see.

With the way things are going between us, I know tomorrow’s not a guarantee if we’ll be okay or if we’ll stop talking to each other again. I hope we stop this whole obsession with not speaking to each other without a concrete reason thing.

I guess this whole run-on paragraph has one point:

I like us. I like how we argue all the time and how we pretend not to care. I like how we laugh together and I like the way my eyes twinkle when you’re around and how I feel like dancing when you’re around.

I liked the idea of us, Troy. Where did we go wrong?

(Part two of my birthday entry)

This year I could describe how I felt on my birthday: harassed.

My officemates were kind enough to celebrate my birthday with me on the night itself:

The next day, I had to go to the IB Open House Event which was a lot of fun and the main reason why I neglected celebrating my birthday this year:

And after the event, my lovely officemates once again decided to give me one of the greatest gifts ever, allowing me to sing for four hours straight. They know how much of a frustrated singer I am:

Yes, I was Leona Lewis even for just one night.

There were a few drinks involved:

And a lot more singing:

It truly wasn’t a bad way to welcome my 20th year, it was simple, unconventional but it was a lot of fun, which is really how I ought to describe my life: it’s never quite people expect it to be, but it’s more fun when you surprise people.

“Jersey” should know a thing or two about surprising people, he was the one who encouraged me to take more risks.

But that’s another tale to tell 😀

I’ve had this syndrome eversince I was a little girl and I don’t really know what it’s called.

I get overly excited about my birthday the few days before my actual birthday but when the day finally comes, it turns out to be not such a big deal.

Let me tell you one thing, having to go to work on your birthday may not be the best idea in the world but it’s not like you have a choice, so you make the most of it.

I wasn’t able to fully enjoy my 20th birthday until dinner time last night which I spent with my officemates who are probably my closest friends at this point.

There wasn’t anything special that happened yesterday but I’ve reached the point where you stop expecting for surprises on your birthday, you’re just grateful for the people who are there, the family you’re blessed with, the job you have, the friends who listen to your sob stories and the people who believe in you no matter how down you seem to be.

As cheesy as it may sound, I do believe that birthdays give you this tremendous amount of hope in the year ahead, it’s that feeling you get as you blow out your candles. You hope against hope that the next year will even be better than the last and that even though the surprises didn’t come on the day itself, you know along the way, before you celebrate your next birthday, THAT SURPRISE IS GOING TO COME.

Besides, if it all happened on one day, what would be next? What else would you hope for?

Thanks to everyone who greeted me. The greetings made my day special, it’s a nice feeling to be remembered:)

LOVE LOVE LOVE 😀

I’m learning another thing from Shine and Kae, which has always been the case since we’ve been friends three years ago, this one was quite interesting because I actually thought that this was a survey (silly me!) haha:D So, I’m sharing this to the world, with my comments of course 😀

There will always be:

the one who got away:
Has he gotten away already? Who knows he might return one day? 😀

the one who you regret ever being in a relationship with:
I don’t have a “relationship” to speak of but I can relate… I never regret the “people” who have graced my life, I’ve always learned something from them and in as much as it hurt at that time, I must admit the joy I felt when I was with them made the pain worth it. WOW Ang drama! It’s my birthday, hayaan na! 😀

the one who is so good to you but you’ll never like in that sense:
Sorry walang spark eh 😀 hehe 😛 friends? 😛

the one you’ll always like but will never like you back:
SHIA LABEOUF AND ONLY BECAUSE FATE HAS BEEN CRUEL AND HASN’T GIVEN US THE CHANCE TO MEET 😀

the one who is for “gamitan” [flings] lang:
I don’t do flings… AHAHA.:D

and then there’s….

THE ONE:
he’s coming. 😛

–THREE NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU:
Carla

Bianca

Bianx

–THREE MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE:
July 11
August 8
March 13

–THREE THINGS YOU’VE DONE IN THE LAST 33 MINUTES:
Eat Dinner
Hand out invites
Climb five flights of stairs!! :p

–THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
Fall in love with God 🙂
Surround yourself with positive people.

Take each day as it comes.

–THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AS OF NOW
Forever

Don’t you forget about me (I just heard five minutes ago and fell in love with it!)

Bittersweet

–THREE PERSONS(group) YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST:
Donna
Carlo
Nathan

–THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE(ahem birthday na!):
John Maxwell’s Failing Forward
Joel Osteen’s Become a Better You Journal
A new kikay kit because mine needs to be replaced! haha 😛

–THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
Photoshop (Work related :D)
Ugly Betty Marathons
Reading Paolo Coelho Novels! 😀

–THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR VACATION:
Ireland
Paris
Australia

–THREE FAVORITE CARTOON CHARACTERS:
Franklin
Arthur
Strawberry Shortcake!

–THREE MALLS YOU USUALLY GO TO:
Town
Festival
Gateway

–THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE RESTAURANTS:
Conti’s
Pancake House
Southern Flavor (that is LOVE!)

–THREE FAVORITE DRINKS:
Pepsi Max
Coffee
Zerocal Water from Summit!

–THREE THINGS FOUND IN YOUR BAG:
Wallet
Cellphone
Ipod

–THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
Black
Red
White

–TOP THREE HANGOUTS:
My large “cubicle” in the office
The breakfast nook at home

The lobby between my office and the president’s office

Don’t you dare call me a workaholic! 😀 haha 🙂

–TOP THREE FOOD U LOVE SO MUCH:
Penny Brown Smackers
Carbonara
Chocolates! 🙂

–TOP THREE THINGS SPECIAL TO YOU:
My cellphone
My ipod
The purity ring from my parents:)

–TOP THREE THINGS YOU CANT LEAVE W/O:
Cellphone

Ipod

My computer at work! haha 😀

–TOP THREE ATTITUDES YOU LIKE:
Funny
Receptive
Smart Conversationalist 🙂

–TOP THREE ATTITUDES YOU HATE:
Ego-trippers
Job-takers: In tagalog ung mga nakikiagaw ng trabaho na hindi naman sakanila naka assign!
Rude (people who don’t reply after you waste a peso on them, people who interrupt while you’re talking in a meeting, people… well you get the point)

–TOP THREE REASONS YOU ANSWER THIS SURVEY:
Because I have five mintues to spare
That’s really all the reason you’d need

–TOP THREE REASONS WHY YOU ARE BUSY AT THIS TIME:
Why i’m busy? work’s done in five minutes and I did everything on my to-do list so i’m given five minutes to spare! haha 😛

I’m known as the friend who gives blunt advice when you need to hear it. I’ve never been one to sugarcoat my advices to make a friend feel better about “reckless and stupid” decisions that they’ve made in their young lives.

Some friends appreciate it, some don’t. I really don’t care because I do this out of love.

I should have known better. I should have been more sensitive because I too is not exempted from a certain kind of stupidity.

Why do good girls always fall for the guys who criticize them to gain some sort of power? Why do guys like that exist? And why do girls allow guys do that?

I was a victim of that for awhile and then I snapped out of it and humility aside, I realized my worth.

Which is the point of this entry, I know out there, there’s a girl, or a bunch of girls who are going through the same thing, here’s what I have to say to you, “Get out of that relationship immediately. This guy doesn’t deserve you no matter how perfect he seems to be.”

And here’s what I have to say to the jerk: For every hurt that you’ve caused me, for every embarassment and for every time you’ve made me feel inadequate about myself by putting me down to feel good about yourself, it will come back to me ten times. There would be ten times more opportunities coming my way, ten times more people who love me and ten reasons for me to be happy.

I really hope you find what you want in life and I’m so happy to get that poison out of my life.

For the girls who are going through the same thing, do yourself a favor and dump the dude. We all deserve better.

Twent-een in six days!!! 🙂

1. Have you ever thought that you were once a hero?

Yes. During my moments of insanity, I did think I was someone’s hero 😀

2. What’s your take on same-sex marriages?
Hmm.. I’m not for it. But people should be able to live thier lives. 😀

3.Are you liking someone?
YES 😀 YES 😀

4. What’s your ideal lover like?

Someone consistent. 😀

5. loving someone or being loved by someone else?

Being loved by someone for a change!!! 😀

6. If the person you like does not accept you, would you continue to wait for them to change their feelings?
OF COURSE NOT!! Life’s too short to spend wasting on some idiot who doesn’t know my worth.

7. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Hmm… Do you want the honest answer to that? HAHA 😀

8. Is there anything that has made you unhappy recently?

Yesterday was a shitty day period!


9. what do you want most in life?

Stability!

10. Is being tagged fun?
I wasn’t tagged, I just grabbed this off Tini’s site! 😀 haha

11. If you found out that your dog liked a cat, what would you do?

I don’t have a dog 🙁

12. Who is currently the most important person to you?

no one in particular. sorry 😀

14. If the person you secretly like cannot recognize you, what would you do?
Hmm… he must have gotten amnesia because no one forgets about me! haha 😀

15. Would you give your all in a relationship?
NOT REALLY:D

16. If you fall in love with two persons simultaneously, who would you pick?

Who falls in love with two people at the same time? Just in case something as stupid as this happens… I’d pick the one who loves me more… haha selfish eh noh!

17. What type of friends do you like?

REAL PEOPLE. Those who laugh over the littlest things!

18. If you played a prank on someone, and he/she fell for the trick, what would you do?
Laugh… Isn’t that the point of playing a prank? HEHE 😀

19. If you were a kid, would you give me a part of your candy?
NO!!!