1) If you married the last person you kissed what would your last name be?

– 😛

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2) What did you do this afternoon?

– it’s seven thirty in the morning and there’s something to be said about someone who answers these things at 7:30 in the morning!

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9) Why did you throw up last?

– Darn, I couldn’t remember, I think I was trying to lose a heavy lunch. KIDDING.

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10) Last time you were drunk?

– That’s my special talent, I don’t get drunk! 😀

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11) What’s for dinner?

– churittos, looking forward mi ladies! 😀

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12) Ever been to the Statue of Liberty?

– I want to 🙁

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13) Voting for Hillary?

– Sorry so in love with barack! he’s the man 😀

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14) How many e-mail addresses do you have?

– four, one’s for my pesky friendster account, one’s for my myspace account, one’s for work and one’s for… all those forwarded messages that people send!

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15) Do you HAVE to have brand name stuff?

– not really.. it depends 😀

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16) Last time you washed your hair?

– this morning

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17) Is the last person you kissed attractive?

– 😛

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18) Do you like Oreos?

– can’t live without them!

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19) Do you send out Thank-You cards?

– yes!

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20) Can you ice skate?

– NO:( loser! haha

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21) Do you have a brother?

– yes

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22) Do you know how to change a diaper?

– I don’t think so. haha 😀

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23) do you flip people off while driving?

– I don’t drive… yet! next month I will start!

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24) What color is your car?

– I don’t understand the color of the car that i’m gonna get, it’s lavander and it’s silver.. I know you can’t imagine it but whatever… haha 😀

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25) What are you listening to?

– joel osteen 🙂

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27) Who’s your favorite American Idol judge?

– simon!

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28) Do you like to grocery shop?

– it’s therapy for me 🙂

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29) What kind of mood are you in?

– very very good VIBRATION 🙂 haha!

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30) Last time you cleaned?

– I’ve been a very good employee, I’ve been doing 5 S for the past week 🙂 Yay!

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31) What is the last song you listened to?

– I’m yours

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32) What pills do you take daily, and what do they do?

– my vits and neomercazole-it’s for my thryroid problem

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33) Do you like anyone?

– YES WITH A HUGE SMILE

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34) Do you do your own laundry?

– yes… half of it. IN short the clothes that I adore, I’m OC that way 😀

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35) How many people have you kissed in 2008?

– haha

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36) Are you single/taken?

– single… i’d like to think i’m still single… haha 🙂

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37) Baths or showers?

– both

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38) Do you take out the trash?

– when i’m not lazy

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39) What are you doing this weekend?

– HANCOCK, WORK, CHURCH, WORK, CHURRITOS, WORK… DID I SAY WORK?

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40) Are you getting engaged anytime soon?

– haha. i’m too young darling, there’s too much to see 🙂

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41) Paper or Plastic?

– paper

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42) Do you watch “The Hills”?

– I only saw one episode that’s it.

43) Last CD you played?

– do people still use cds? haha

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44) What did you do last Saturday night?

– I saw WANTED

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45) What are you thinking about right now?

– my kra, deadline is TODAY :p

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46) Which one of your friends is going to have the cutest baby?

– me. i’ll have the cutest twins!

47) What was the last thing you drank?

– water

48) Wearing any bracelets?

– yes

49) Last thing someone bought for you?

– STARBUCKS… THAT IS LOVE! 😀

Ever since I was a little girl, I have been told how to act, how to react, how to respond to certain situations, what to do, and what is appropriate and how I should never ever call a guy under any circumstances.

Blame it on the culture or maybe you can just blame me because I refuse to get out of this box that society has placed me in and just step out to enjoy my life.

Two weeks ago, I received a very tempting offer that I’d rather not discuss in detail because its way too personal and private. The good girl in me refused at once but ever since I turned down the said offer, there’s this little voice has been nagging me inside my head and thus the beginning of a battle that has been torturing my head for fourteen days now.

Society tells me to stick to the paradigm that I’ve set up for myself ever since I was thirteen, but a bolder version that I didn’t even know I had in me started speaking to me and tricking me into this notion that I should be taking more risks.

I’ve always been the girl who would follow the rules (except for a moment of insanity in junior high where I refused to listen to my teachers, parents and any other adult), the girl who listens to her parents and refused to lie to them and tell them that you’re doing a project when you’re really in some boy’s car.

I’ve never been that girl and I refuse to be that girl. Simply because I know my worth, not that I have anything against girls who dare to be that way but it’s just not me, I just wasn’t raised that way.

But, I’m turning twenty soon and because I’ve always been cautious I’ve come to realize that I have no stories to tell. I have no adventures to tell my grandkids and no sweet whispers have been said in my ear.

Not that I have to have it. I’d like to think of myself as the modern independent woman who refused to be buckled down by a boy and his million and one rules!

It’s just that I haven’t lived my life lately. And according to a friend I met two weeks ago, I have to learn to step out of this box that I’ve lived in for the longest time and try something new.

To start taking risks and start breaking the rules.

I haven’t made a decision yet although I think I’d face another challenge tomorrow.

So wish the geek luck.

20 in eight days!

I saw WANTED over the weekend and I think I surprised myself because I was able to sit through the whole movie.

It was another movie that made me think and I adore movies like that the same way I adore guys who make me think.

Those who aren’t that predictable. But that’s not really the point of this entry.

Of course James McAvoy isn’t as hot as MY SHIA LABEOUF but he’s close enough.

What I’m really trying to say here is, how many of us are stuck in our little mediocre lives?

How many of us actually jump on the chance of having fun and taking risks? I must admit, i’m not much of a risk-taker, but I’ve had my good days in the past couple of months.

It’s just a sad thought that we spend our lives everyday getting worked up over meaningless things when in fact we can go out and enjoy life for what it is. I’m not sure I’m making sense but I guess it all boils down to fear and not being strong enough to face it.

I think fate has a funny way of showing how I should start taking control of my life. I’ve been reading the Devil and Miss Prym and it also spoke about controlling your destiny, Wanted obviously spoke about the same premise and even our Pastor in church urged me to do what I have to do and not what I think I should be doing.

Come to think of it, if I eliminate fear in my life, I’d be doing and enjoying a lot more things.

Things that a good girl wouldn’t normally do.

But that’s another whole blog entry to speak of. I just wanted to start the week with that thought in mind,

“What really have you done lately?”

Yes, I would soon leave my teen years behind and guess what?

I have zero plans.

The born obsessive compulsive that I am, I usually have everything planned two months before but not this year.

My officemates and I are coming up with extreme ideas but I really don’t have the time to plan every nook and cranny, plus I’m trying to save some money.

So what are the things that I’ve learned?

1) It’s okay to date.

Dating does not make you a slut.

2) Friends come in all shapes, ages and sizes.

My soulmates are the ones I thought I’d never have anything in common with.

3) You never end up with your dream boy

It’s not a myth, it’s a fact.

4) Growing up doesn’t mean that you have to act GROWN all the time

You can still laugh like a freakkeen hyena, dance when you think no one’s looking and giggle a little when boy suspect number three hundred whatever comes along.

5) Work isn’t easy, but it doesn’t have to be hard

The most important lesson I’ve understood so far is the fact that when you find something you love, it’s never quite the same thing you imagined when you graduated from high school. Work is responsiblity, yes, I do know that. But it doesn’t mean that you get up every morning wishing it wasn’t another workday.

6) Boys are weird but you can always count on the honest ones

‘Nuff said.

7) Yes, you can get your heart broken, but you can quickly recover.

It’s a learning process. And in as much as you would love to kick the jerk in the shin, he did serve a purpose.

8) Faith is the answer to everything

I’m telling you, you can weather through everything with HIM and HIM alone.

“>“Did you know when you go it’s the perfect ending,
to the bad day I was just beginning
when you go, all I know is you’re my favorite mistake.

Your friends act sorry for me.
They watch you pretend to adore me.
But I am no fool to this game.

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I grew up in church. Having a pastor for a grandfather forces a five-year old to get up at the crack of dawn to attend Sunday School. Yes, I grew up reading the Bible, singing songs of praise and spending time in prayer, but that doesn’t mean that I understood what I was doing.

My spiritual life only kicked into gear after everything in my life fell apart and all that I could cling to was my faith and the promise that something better was in store.

When you’ve just been through an ordeal that eats you up, swallows you and spits you out, all you can do is cry for awhile, get up slowly and be grateful for the little things that used to be ordinary. I cannot explain the weight of this sentence but you start appreciating people more, you start being grateful for the situations that didn’t matter too much before.

I think it’s called humility.

It saves you, you know. It brings you back down to earth and makes you realize that life isn’t about perfection, it’s not as enchanting as you expected it to be but it’s what you have.

You appreciate it, edges and all. You just become grateful for the little things and let life surprise you everyday.

Because even if the whole world falls apart, you’ll come to realize that it can still surprise you and yes, it can still blow your mind.

That is if you’re tough enough to stand strong and take the next hit

You can try to run, hon. But i’m not going anywhere anytime soon.

You want to know why?

It’s because you’re not allowing me to.

• You prayed for a godly man, no one who has zero spiritual life.
• You prayed for a guy with compassion. Ditto him on this one.
• You prayed for a guy who’d open the door for you, treat your mom right and treat your dad with respect.
• You prayed for a matured guy.
• You prayed for a guy who’d make you laugh… Well, he had his moments.
• You prayed for an honest guy, no matter what the situation was.
• You prayed for a guy who will share your passion in saving the world. One who spent time on important matters and not partying 24/7
• You prayed for a guy who’d accept you and not try to mold you into his very superfical definition of beauty.

Looking back on this list, I have come to realize the reason why the answer to your prayers was a resounding NO. He wasn’t going to be your prince charming, he was just a frog that you HAD TO MEET along the way. Be grateful for the lessons and move on.

Carla, you were told that you deserved the best and I dare say that you still do! 🙂

Today was a stressful day. A really stressful one but at the same time, fulfilling because I got things done. There are times wherein I think that work is just work and that I’ve gotten used to the routine and how things work.

But on days like the one that I just had, I realized that I’m still a neophyte in this industry and there are a lot of twists and turns along the way. However, I’m not expecting defeat because I know that the Lord has made me more than a conqueror and I’m a victor, not a victim.

It’s just that, well, reality is reality after all. There’s still a lot to learn in this new world that I’ve found myself in and making mistakes is part of the whole process.

I was inspired by friend Marc’s entry in his blog wherein he mentioned that our weaknesses are made perfect in God and it makes me move forward with faith. What I’m trying to say is that I no longer let the little things ruin me, instead I’d use it as a challenge and realize that the only way to grow is to accept challenges, act on it and DO SOMETHING. I think that’s the biggest lesson I’ve learned: DO SOMETHING INSTEAD OF WAITING.

And I think I did that in more than one aspect of my life today and I can say that I’m proud. It’s the little things that make life more exciting really and when you go out there and encounter situations that was placed there to put a frown on your face, you realize that there are three other things that would make up for it. Going home and telling my family about the crappy day that I just had is one of them. Having friends who listen to you and comfort you is another and having someone who’s concerned about you and who tries hard to make you laugh when you’re down is another gem as well.

People disappoint you and there are just people who try thier hardest to make others feel miserable but then again that’s thier problema and not yours, so worrying about and feeling bad about it is worthless.

There’s another thing that I realized as well. The dream guy would never be the guy you end up with. That’s because you can never be who you really are when your dream guy is around primarily because well… the person you dream of could only end up with the person you’ve always wanted to be and even in our wildest dreams, we never truly become the person we dream to become when we’re fourteen.

The guy you end up with is totally different from the guy you’ve prayed for when you were fourteen, he has more quirks than good traits and he’s so “edged” that you don’t even know why you put up with him.

But then you get your answer immediately: It’s because he’s the one the Lord gave you. He’s the answer to every prayer you’ve fervently wished for when you were younger. He wasn’t what you expected, but finally I get the cliche that he’s the one I deserve.

And now I totally get the Angelina-Jen-Brad thing, although I’d rather keep the details to myself. Things just happen and you can’t blame people all the time, you can’t expect people or situations to be placed in a box.

Life’s too rich and exciting.

I had a long heartfelt entry on a current situation in my life but decided against because of two reasons:

a) I realized that it was too private

b) I realized that “that” story hasn’t ended yet so there’s no point in placing a period in something magnificent.

It’s a day too late but David Cook won American Idol and my heart is racing! It’s that always be my baby rendition that got my heart!

The main point of this entry:

I’m okay again, I’m not para-nnoying, I’m not bored, I’m just still. 🙂

I believe it’s God’s peace and knowing what’s for me for now. I’ve relearned the art of letting things be and enjoying things as they come instead of constantly worrying about tomorrow. Tomorrow will figure itself on its own 🙂