Artist: Plumb
Album: Beautiful lumps of coal
Title: Taken

I can see you standing in the pouring rain
Waiting for changes to carry you away
I can see the light fall from your eyes
As we get lost in the tears of this goodbye
But you can’t go farther
Than my heart can go
Cause I’ll still be loving you
Through the sadness and the madness here
And I’ll always be with you
In the distance
That has taken you
From meI can hear you laugh
When I close my eyes
I can picture your face
And the strength inside your smile
I can see the words
Dance across your lips
I’ll remember forever
Something more than this
And you can’t go farther
Than my heart can will go
Cause I’ll still be loving you
Thought the sadness and the madness here
And I’ll always be with you
In the distance

* WATCH COACH CARTER
-Everyone has been telling me that its a good film, I should’ve listened to them earlier. It was WONDERFUL, AMAZING and REAL. I loved it and what it spoke of. If you haven’t seen it, YOU SHOULD, especially if you love basketball:) (that’s channing tatum btw!)
* WRAP YOUR SCHOOL BOOKS IN PLASTIC COVER
– I found it very very relaxing. It relased my stress and whatever I was thinking of last week flowed into my mind but I was able to tihnk of them in a “rational manner” and I was able to depicit my feelings, my thoughts and my priorities. Ohhkkay…moving along. Hehe. *wink*

*INDULGE IN CHOCOLATES AND COFFEE
– My forever lifesavers! Thanks duo for the merci chocolates!! Chocolate and coffee helps, no matter what situation you are in and what mood you are currently feeling.

*WATCH A TREE HILL EP.
– Enough said. No matter how many times I watch it, I always get lost in it. Its pure delight. I love NATHAN!… Allow me to gush for a moment… HiHi.

* SHARE THE LOVE
– Even if your life is a bit crappy, it doesn’t hurt to make someone feel special and loved, in fact it even helps in taking away the crappiness:)

*READ THE SUNDAY NEWSPAPER
– Most especially articles by Celine Lopez and Lucy Torres. Very very inspiring:)

Hmm…. So, how has my life been? How has my heart been? I wonder really why whenever people would ask about my life they’d soon end up askng about my love life as well, as if that’s the only thing that could define me. Not my academics or my family life or my wonderful friends. Its as if they constantly have to ask about my love life and how it is (in my case, it isn’t hehe). . .

Want to know the real deal?

It upsets me sometimes…really. I mean my life is okay now. Everything is okay and I feel mucho blessed and there’s no room for complaining anymore. I am more than happy with what I have but well, I found this interesting fact out… I am human after all. Meaning that I do get lonely and I do wish for something as wonderful as that too. I was reading this article yesterday in the Philppine Star about Lucy Torres (she is SO pretty) and she was asked what was the worst thing that someone could ever experience in their life time. You know what she answered?

“Not falling madly, deeply and crazily in love. And not being loved back in that sense as well.”

How sad is that. It sent shivers down my spine and made my blood run cold. It seriously scared me but don’t think that my cynical side didn’t reason because it did. First I started thinking, “You’re lucy torres-duh. Who wouldn’t fall crazily in love with you?” But I stopped because I know it wasn’t about that. It was about this fear in me that maybe… that would happen to me. Tears are at the corner of my eye just as I realized that recoiling thought

I:
– am a 17 year old girl who dreams of being 23 but wishes she stayed 11.
– am still a contradiction but no longer complicated.
– would rather spend a day with real people talking about stuff that are considered “boring” rather than spend it with a bunch of people who do nothing but talk about what clothes they’re wearing, where they partied last night, who they know… please show me people who actually make sense!
– am no saint. I treat people the way they treat me. If you’re nice to me, I’ll even be nicer but if you’re annoying and oh so full of yourself… I’ll just pretend you don’t exist!
– take pleasure in the little miracles of life. I am a mush and the cheesiest person you’d ever meet. Cheesy lines were invented because of people like me who find the need to cry over them. I laugh at the corniest jokes as well and I am not hard to please at all.
– am moody, affectionate, sensitive, frank, honest, odd and geeky.
– am still a dreamer trapped in this chaotic maze called “reality”
– am who I am. I am sorry but I don’t try to change who I am to fit into this world of paperdoll people. I live my own life at my own terms. I make my own decisions and take life as it comes. What you see is definitely what you get.
I STILL BELIEVE:
– believe that conformity is boring. Life’s unique, live your own. (By living your own, I do not mean imitating someone else’s “uniqueness” and passing it off as your own.. okay that’s not exactly living your own life. As Morrie Schwartz said, “Accept who you are and revel in that”)-believe that “perfection” is a term that people use to ignite other people’s insecurities. And I think it’s plain shallow to think that you live up to perfection and thus making other people feel inferior. Grow up.
– Believe that my mistakes make me better. I am no longer afraid of making mistakes. My mistakes allow me to improve myself. There is always always something to improve on. I am still under reconstruction (kaizen).
– Believe that the simple life is the good life.
– fairytales, happy endings, fate, serendipity and in the saying that “all good things come to those who wait”. *wink*
THE THINGS THAT ADD COLOR TO MY OTHERWISE BORING LIFE:
– my faith
– my family and the people I love 🙂
– nice people (what a wonderful world it would be if it was just filled with nice and real people. NO users, plastic people and the like. Yeah, what a perfect world!)
– basketball<33
– cute and adorable kids
– anything bright
– coffee
– chocolates
– good books
– pictures, pictures,pictures!
– Ireland (still fascinated by it, no idea why!)
– Ritz bitz and Brite Crawlers
– One Tree Hill (NATHAN! NATHAN! NATHAN!)
– anything that compliments my geekiness (papers, pens, post-its, quotes etc etc)
– a playlist that is as eclectic as I am;)
– laughtrips
– chocokaklandia and my chocokak daydreams *wink*
MY HEROES:
– Barney
– Willy Wonka (not Johnny Depp!)
– Morrie Schwartz
– Howard Schultz (thank you thank you for Starbucks!)
– David Pelzer
– Wonder Raine and Super Cy:):)
– And the two people who has been there for me since day one, as cheesy as it may sound: my dear parentsJ

Laugh often. Love Much. Live Well. Sometimes you only get to once 🙂 🙂
“Perfection is static, even boring. Imitations are redundant. YOUR true unvarnished self is what is wanted” –Anna Quindlen
“Be who you are say what you feel, cause those who matter don’t mind and those who don’t matter mind” –Dr. Suess.
“Though I cannot fly, I am not content to crawl” –9 Days
rants, raves and misadventures:
http://undecidedroyalty.blogspot.com
pictures, pictures,pictures!
http://unauthorized.multiply.com

So far I am having a SLAMMING 2006. A few bumps here in there (intertwined with my mood swings- ohwell, I guess nothing ever changes). Anyway, mega happy that the KINGS are in the semfinals!:) WHOOT! I super enjoyed the past two games, the one on Christmas Day and the one yesterday:) BASKETBALL is forever fun:)

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I finally got to see my friends yesterday. I super missed them:) Anyway, i will try to write a more in depth entry in a little while… I still have a lot of uploading and editing to do:)

ADVANCED HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE MOST PRECIOUS AND SPECIAL MAN IN MY LIFE:
DADDY!! Love you so much!:)

and happy birthday JUNAR!

I’ve been so busy for the last remaining weeks of 2005 that I haven’t even sat down and racked my brain to be able to come up with blog entries. Yes, that busy. Of course I just got through another term and I’m busy entertaining my kuya who hasn’t been home in awhile. I didn’t realize that I super missed him. But now that he’s here, I’m missing other people too. I’m missing school (now don’t be shocked), my friends and chocokak-a term that only duo and I could ever understand:). Anyway, so there life’s been hectic… but kindda boring. Okay, there I go again complicating things. Ohwell.
Anyway, despite the busy sked, my life is never without annoyances (ahh, it’s the “salt” that adds taste to any food, if you know what I mean…did I say that right…OHWELL!). I was watching the game with my family last Sunday and you know what annoyed me so much? THIS GIRL. OHMYGAD, whatta BISH. I swear! You see, this certain girl is all snooty with me eversince the season started, the reason? I have no idea why though. I haven’t even talked to her (what’s wrong with people these days?) and she gives me “the look” every fudging time. Not that I care, you see, I like making people happy and in some twisted way that makes her happy… then at least I’m contributing to make this world a better place. Anyway, what annoyed me about last Sunday was the fact that she FLIRTED with my brother. Suddenly, the event in Cuneta became a fashion show and not a ball game (if anyone asks, basketball games interest me more). Considering the fact that she had a BOYFRIEND, she still went and flirted with my brother. Whatever, I told my kuya about the evil looks and for the record, my brother doesn’t even find her pretty. Puede ba? You’re not my kuya’s type. For one thing, my kuya goes for decent girls. Ouch! Gad. Bishes, Sludges and Ershers are so invading the world!
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Ohwell. Now that that’s out in the open. I can write about “nicer” entries. Ohmy, there’s like a week left before 2006. Whoa. Where did 2005 go? It’s been a year of change, I tell you-major change. I’ve grown up a lot this year. I don’t even know where to begin. All I know is that I am stronger than I used to be and my priorities have changed over the past twelve months. I’ve let people go and I let people in. It’s been my “pruning” year, a little cut here and a little cut there made me better. The cutting did hurt, mind you, but still it made things somewhat easier for me. Oh and you know what? Although it may be hard to believe for some people, but I actually get along with my peers now. Wanna know why? Well, its probably because I’ve learned that I do not have to be friends with everyone. I can be civil and nice with people but I don’t owe them anything. Because of that I feel better. I realized that I cannot get along with everyone but that doesn’t mean I go and challenge anyone to a fist fight. As I’ve said, I treat people the way they treat me, as simple as that. Somehow, I am no longer a pushover. I know who I am and I stand up for what I believe in. I take account of my mistakes and I have finally become optimistic!:)

2005 was a bang in an unexpected way. Thank you to my new found friends and old ones who never change. I love y’ all. HAPPY NEW YEAR!

I have no idea how many hours left before Christmas..

Merry Christmas anyway;)

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What a chaotic month it has been so far.
I lost my phone in starbucks alabang of all places:’c
but its okay.
I’m not that shallow. I can live without it. Haha;)

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Pray for me.;)
won’t be blogging in awhile…;) will try to though:)