I’ve been so busy for the last remaining weeks of 2005 that I haven’t even sat down and racked my brain to be able to come up with blog entries. Yes, that busy. Of course I just got through another term and I’m busy entertaining my kuya who hasn’t been home in awhile. I didn’t realize that I super missed him. But now that he’s here, I’m missing other people too. I’m missing school (now don’t be shocked), my friends and chocokak-a term that only duo and I could ever understand:). Anyway, so there life’s been hectic… but kindda boring. Okay, there I go again complicating things. Ohwell.
Anyway, despite the busy sked, my life is never without annoyances (ahh, it’s the “salt” that adds taste to any food, if you know what I mean…did I say that right…OHWELL!). I was watching the game with my family last Sunday and you know what annoyed me so much? THIS GIRL. OHMYGAD, whatta BISH. I swear! You see, this certain girl is all snooty with me eversince the season started, the reason? I have no idea why though. I haven’t even talked to her (what’s wrong with people these days?) and she gives me “the look” every fudging time. Not that I care, you see, I like making people happy and in some twisted way that makes her happy… then at least I’m contributing to make this world a better place. Anyway, what annoyed me about last Sunday was the fact that she FLIRTED with my brother. Suddenly, the event in Cuneta became a fashion show and not a ball game (if anyone asks, basketball games interest me more). Considering the fact that she had a BOYFRIEND, she still went and flirted with my brother. Whatever, I told my kuya about the evil looks and for the record, my brother doesn’t even find her pretty. Puede ba? You’re not my kuya’s type. For one thing, my kuya goes for decent girls. Ouch! Gad. Bishes, Sludges and Ershers are so invading the world!
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Ohwell. Now that that’s out in the open. I can write about “nicer” entries. Ohmy, there’s like a week left before 2006. Whoa. Where did 2005 go? It’s been a year of change, I tell you-major change. I’ve grown up a lot this year. I don’t even know where to begin. All I know is that I am stronger than I used to be and my priorities have changed over the past twelve months. I’ve let people go and I let people in. It’s been my “pruning” year, a little cut here and a little cut there made me better. The cutting did hurt, mind you, but still it made things somewhat easier for me. Oh and you know what? Although it may be hard to believe for some people, but I actually get along with my peers now. Wanna know why? Well, its probably because I’ve learned that I do not have to be friends with everyone. I can be civil and nice with people but I don’t owe them anything. Because of that I feel better. I realized that I cannot get along with everyone but that doesn’t mean I go and challenge anyone to a fist fight. As I’ve said, I treat people the way they treat me, as simple as that. Somehow, I am no longer a pushover. I know who I am and I stand up for what I believe in. I take account of my mistakes and I have finally become optimistic!:)

2005 was a bang in an unexpected way. Thank you to my new found friends and old ones who never change. I love y’ all. HAPPY NEW YEAR!

I have no idea how many hours left before Christmas..

Merry Christmas anyway;)

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What a chaotic month it has been so far.
I lost my phone in starbucks alabang of all places:’c
but its okay.
I’m not that shallow. I can live without it. Haha;)

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Pray for me.;)
won’t be blogging in awhile…;) will try to though:)

WHERE ARE YOU?
-natalie and justin romano

[Natalie]I’m staring out at the sky (I see you baby)
Praying that he will walk in my life
Where is the man of my dreams (right here)
yea-yeahI’ll wait forever, how silly it seems
How does he laugh? How does he cry? What’s the color of his eyes?Does he even realize I’m here?Where is he? Where is he? Where is he? Where is this beautiful guy?Who is he? Who is he? Who is gonna take me so high?Where is he? Where is he? Where is this beautiful guy?Who is he? Who is he? Who is gonna take me so high?
[Justin]There is someone out there for me (there is someone out there for me)I know she is waiting so patiently (so patient)Can you tell me her name (can you tell me his name)This life-long search is gonna drive me insane (that’s right)
[Natalie]How does he laugh? How does he cry? What is the color of his eyes?Does he even realize I’m here?
[Justin]Where is she? Where is she? Where is she? Where is this beautiful girl?Who is she? Who is she? Who is gonna complete my world?[Natalie]Where is he? Where is he? Where is he? Where is this beautiful guy?Who is he? Who is he? Who is gonna take me so high?

I was taking a bath this morning when it started raining. I love the rain, don’t get me wrong, its just really annoying when you’re taking a shower and its as if the water you’re using is the one from the heavens because the raindrops are thundering on your roof.
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I finally caught Harry Potter last Friday. It was the best Harry Potter so far. The director was really a good one. I totally loved it!:) Cedric was hot and so was Harry:) Haha. I was crying buckets towards the end of it (during the time where Cedric asked Harry to bring his body back). Tears, Tears and more Tears.
I really want to see a bunch of movies, but just my luck, finals is coming up in two weeks. I don’t think I need to retaliate the point that I AM FREAKIN’ OUT! Hahaha.
I heard Prime is good. Just for the record. I liked Bryan Greenberg for more than a year now. Yes, even when he was chubby Jake on Tree Hill. I loved him loads already:) haha. Some annoying people in my class yesterday was talking about it… Okay, okay I’ve resolved not to waste blog space on annoying people so I’d rather not talk about it. Hahaha.:)
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I know the SEA games is major deal for people but come on, couldn’t they have shown it somewhere else or had it during the June-September season. I’m totally a donkhead when it comes to these things but I wished they had it last September. Back when there no basketball games to interrupt. I really miss the basketball games. *sigh*. I haven’t even watched one Sea Games event without dozing off. Sorry just trying to be honest here. Hehe.
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Its only 9:30 am and I am so tired already.

*snore*

(From “Saving My First Kiss” by Lisa Velthouse. It’s this amazing book, that made me realize that my patience and sacrifice isn’t going to waste.)

“I must be able to believe that God’s timing of events is what’s best for me. I have to trust that He’ll work out the events of my life in the right sequence and on a perfect schedule.”

“Choosing to be modest is a very empowering thing. It is a sign that a person is confident and secure. While some women rely on low necklines to catch the attention of others, a modest woman depends on her inner, lasting qualities to set herself apart from the rest. While immodest womne showcase the cheapest versions of themselves first, a modest woman forces the world to see her internal value too.”

“A girl will attract a certain kind of young man by the way she dresses. If a woman’s desire is to have a godly mate, it only makes sense that the kind of man would value modestly, not only in a dress but also in speech and presence”

I am soooo busy. I can’t even visit other people’s blogs (sorry jen and sasha and thanks for dropping by from time to time, I will leave comments as soon as finals are over:)). And I haven’t watched a live game in awhile too! B00-hoo. Haha:) I miss araneta. :’c

Kings’ next game is on december 10, it’s so far away. NOOO!!! hehe;)

Go kings!:)

I used to describe myself as complicated, maybe because during those time I really haven’t figured it out… until college happened. Almost six months into it and I’ve seen myself become better. I know some of my old friends are probably saying that i’ve changed, I may have, but that doesn’t mean I deal with people in a negative manner. In fact, I think I deal with them better. I no longer find the need to please poeple or do everything to make them like me. Thanks if you, damn if you don’t. I am no longer a pushover, I already feel comfortable to say what I feel and be completley honest with people.
I have my own twisted idealisms about life and everything in it but I don’t impose them on people. Despite my evident cynicism, I still believe in fairy tales and happy endings, my story is simply begining. Karma is real, which is why I try my best to treat people right. I am still moody, but I do try to lessen my moody days. I am still as silly as ever and I still believe that barney’s hot.
Mess with me all you want, but never my family or the people I love. I can be your bestest friend, but once you break that code of trust…well, I don’t think we’d ever be friends again. When I create friendships, I give my heart and the best of me and the least I expect from people is to be honest and frank. Be up and front, I appreciate it more.
I allow life to surprise me. I don’t expect anything fromt it. I live each day as it comes. If it’s meant for me, it will happen, no matter how impossible or difficult it may seem.
The Lord is my strength, my refuge and the reason for all this change. He allowed me to get hurt for the sole reason that He wants me to be better.
My life is beautiful. Despite the failures, it’s a radical life. I wouldn’t have it any other way.

Disclaimer:
I know that I’ve hurt a few people on my journey of change and I’m sorry. I don’t live to spit on people’s weaknesses, I just grew up and I guess, we all grow apart. Harsh realities of life, but please don’t judge me because I decided to live my own life. Allow me for once to be happy. Cause finally, I am.:)