>Make a GAME of it whenever life presents a seemingly unconquerable difficulty.

>Somewhere between the bad hangovers and drunken heart to heart talks, you’ll realize that all you need in life are a few good friends and a few good shots.

>The greatest gift is the gift of love, and loving in return. —Moulin Rouge

>Sometimes, you’ll like someone; but they’ll never notice. So you pick up the pieces and move on. —My Name Is Earl

>Quote of the day: Life is hard–like a rock. —Manay Po 2

>Rule #2: DONT DRUNK DIAL. If someone gives you a call at the worst time of the night, and has had a drink – but isn’t drunk – is that still considered “drunk dialling?”

>You stood there, just stood there. Why?

>Stage 2: The TURN. Making something ordinary EXTRA-ordinary.

My sister and I grew up apart. She was in the States for the most of our young life and I was—well, here. I idolized my sister from the moment that she sent me her communion pictures. And for awhile there, a Jan-Marsha Brady thing existed, but that was more from me than her.

But I’m glad that those insecurities faltered and my love for her outgrew the insecurity, which is really an incredible thing. It is so empowering to see my sister and I growing closer despite the distance (thank God for GMAIL). And my heart’s just really big right now and really really happy. It’s like my sister and I have burned the bridge between us and we’re more open.

You know during moments like these, it just makes me grateful because even if I don’t have that significant other- yet. I’m pretty happy with what I have.

I hope it’s not too late for us to do all those sister things that I’ve always always wanted us to do.

**

Let me just say that this whole optimistic thing is really working. Ever since I became more conscious of how negative I can be sometimes, I’ve really worked hard on you know being less critical of people, myself and situations. Somehow, I outgrew it and seriously, the come back is just GREAT. Of course, it also helps if you just lean towards the positive instead of constantly thinking of what could go wrong. Seriously, it’s better to just let a few things slide.

My faith is just ridiculous right now. In months, I’ve never been this happy and secured.

**

Another reason to be happy: OBAMA WON. Ain’t this an exciting time to be alive?

**

Rediscovering people can be another wonderful thing given freely. I’m happy to rediscover you again. It’s just amazing and exciting how we’re back to square one, but this time I won’t be a devious little bitch and try to scheme things into happening.

I’m going to let it happen this time around, because as I always say if it’s meant to happen, it will.

It just feels so right. Now, I get all those cheesy people when they say how someone just feels right. I honestly don’t know where this little thing is going to lead but all I know is that well, he’s going to be in my heart for a really really long time and no one else could ever measure up.

To love someone this big can be dangerous but at least its nice to know that I have the heart to actually love someone this much.

Ciao people: IT’S GREAT TO BE ALIVE SO JUST LIVE!

Something snapped inside of me when I woke up today and I just knew that it was going to be a good week, heck, I knew that it was going to be a good month-period.

I’m on an optimistic run and I do believe that the last two months of ’08 will be a good one and I’m pretty excited to see what suprises the last quarter of the year has in store for me.

I do hope that Obama wins on Tuesday (Wednesday-our time)! That would keep a huge smile on my face for sure. 🙂

Well, not much drama has been happening and I spent the weekend on random dvd marathons: I’ve fallen in love with movies made nine-ten years ago. Remember when Freddie Prinze Jr. was Zac Efron? Those were the days! I cannot imagine Zac Efron being a has-been, well a few years from now maybe, hopefully not!

It just feels good to have a big enough heart to accomodate a lot of people and love a lot of people.

It feels good to love people even if they don’t deserve it, it’s nice to give back, because God knows that once, I have not been deserving to be loved as well and yet He and my family, friends etc did.

Okay, I know this is amatueur writing on my part but I only have a few minutes left on my lunch break and my brain is just turning into mush! It’s the weather.

But I do hope that I get my point across 🙂

Have a good rainy week ahead 🙂

I’m a…

very nice person. HAHAHAHA
Someday, I want…

BE A UN AMBASSADOR 🙂
There are…

are many reasons why we should be together 🙂 haha!
I can’t stand…

people who blab about themselves WAY TOO MUCH 🙂 and people who don’t reply: rude much?

I wish…

for my very own fairydust 🙂

I don’t know…

if SG will push through. boo 🙂

I want…

to watch HSM 3. Who will be kind enough to watch with me, please?! haha 😉

When I see…

ZAC EFRON, CHACE CRAWFORD AND LEONARDO DI CAPRIO: I SCREAAAM!

I need…

looove 🙂 haha. ano ba?

I love…

my keds sneakers. these days it’s the only thing i wear 😉
I hate…

people who don’t reply. 🙂

Why can’t…

we all be friends?:)
I wonder…

if the secret really works. I’ve been asking Robbie about it the whole morning!
I’m sad…

when SMB loses an important game. when a friend and i argue and when the people i love are sad and hurting and i can’t do anything about it 🙁
I’m happy…

when the people around me are happy 🙂
I don’t need…
a man.– haha. 🙂

I can’t…

use the phrase “i can’t” anymore. John Maxwell says it’s all about attitude 😉

I believe…

in miracles 🙂

If I could, I would…

have treated you better. 🙂

I’ve come to realize that my last kiss was..

haha. ——–

I am listening to..
Seal’s A kiss from the rose–classic 🙂

I talk…

A LOT WHEN I’M IN THE MOOD. AHAHAHA 🙂

I love…

chocolates. ice cream. pasta. pizza. good movies. my family. my lovelies and david slides—aahhhhhhhhh. genius!

My close friends are…

the craziest, ecclectic bunch of all. 🙂 The dears of my heart 🙂

My love life..

is on detox at the moment 🙂

I hate people..

who don’t reply.

Love is…

what it is. It doesn’t have to be complicated 🙂

Marriage is….

in my social calendar. sooner or later. 🙂

Somewhere, someone is thinking..

“damn, i miss her” -HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

I’m always….

trying to think positive. it can be a chore especially on deluded and hectic days but hey, the power of the secret is working 🙂

I have a secret crush on…

would you believe that I haven’t had a crush in the past month or so? except maybe for zac efron, but that’s really not a secret now, is it?

My cell phone…

is complicated! haha. but i love it 😉

When I wake up in the morning…

I pray and believe that it will be a good day 🙂

When I go to bed at night…

I pray 🙂

Right now I am thinking about…

IB symposium and sponsors– I hope they say yes!
Babies are…

cute but not YET for me. 🙂

Today I…

will be the happiest 🙂
Tonight I will..

GO TO THE GYM 😉
Tomorrow I will…

go to work. go the gym. and watch gossip girl 🙂 oo exciting ang buhay ko. haha 🙂

I really want to…

fly to the moon and dance among the stars. HAHAHA 😉
Someone that will most likely repost this is…

Carla Bianca–my namesake. Chastine. Or I don’t know someone as bored and perceptive as I am. HAHAHA:)

Ten things you wish you could say to 10 different people right now (don’t tell us who it is) :

1. I love you. You’re like one of the smartest, kindest people I’ve ever met. I hope we’d be friends for a reallly long time 🙂 Our beautiful kids will be friends right? 🙂 They do have beautiful fathers. HAHAHA.
   
2. I’m excited to see you tonight, it’s been too long!!
   
3. You make me laugh ALL THE TIME. GRABE. You don’t even know. Haha.
   
4. You’re awesome and I know that you’d grow up to be awesome as well, just don’t go breaking girls’ heart.
   
5. I hate you for what you did to my little brother. Didn’t anyone tell you that karma’s a bitch?
   
6. You think I don’t know, but honey, I do know. So stop it.
   
7. You’re so jealous and insecure. It’s not even funny anymore.
   
8. Yes, I’m going there mid next year! Can you tell i’m excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
   
9. Thank you. I have a good life because of the both of you so THANKS 🙂
   
10. I miss you and I’m sorry.

Nine things about yourself:

1. I’m very very frank but most of the days, I really don’t mean anything by it.
2. I can be very childlike, I like being taken care of 🙂
   
3. I love the Travelling Pants series. I’ve reread more than I should!
   
4. I enjoy watching informericals. I bet if I didn’t have self-control my room will be filled with silly things I saw on informercials.
   
5. I think “the rock” is really really hot. Have you seen him on gameplan? =)
   
6. I’m very quirky. I do really weird things and find them funny 🙂
   
7. I love giving people superlatives on facebook. NEW HOBBY!
   
8. I can stay at home the whole day and not be bored. 🙂
   
9. I’M NICE! HAHA 🙂

Eight ways to win your heart:

1. Reply to my text messages at the very least and call me in the morning and before you sleep 🙂 —demanding eh noh!
   
2. Love my family 🙂
   
3. Be bestfriends with my younger brother 🙂
   
4. watch a basketball game with me and enjoy it.
   
5. SURPRISE ME.
   
6. Be honest. Be There. Be Stable. Know what you want and don’t be a GROUCH!
7. Have an awesome mom who loves me 🙂
   
8. Make me laugh. If we laugh over the same things then we’re definitely meant to be together. 🙂

Seven things that cross your mind a lot:

1. Work.
   
2. My MBA.
   
3. Edinburgh.
   
4. Random Friends.
   
5. ZAC EFRON.
6. The latest season of the Gossip Girl, 90210 and The Hills. Take that! haha
7. I’M NOT TELLING. haha

Six little stupid things you want to happen to you before you die:

1. Edinburgh:)
2. Tour Europe 🙂
   
3. Be a marketing director 🙂
   
4. Own a charity.
   
5. Be a UN Ambassador.
   
6. FALL IN LOVE and skydive: I think they entail the same amount of risks. 🙂

Five turn offs:

1. guys who can’t speak english. sorry mean but true.
   
2. guys i cannot have a conversation with!
   
3. guys who are not responsive.
   
4. guys who dress funny.
   
5. junkies and guys who are just one thing. feeling daw. haha 🙂

Four turn ons:

1. SMILE 🙂
   
2. A good conversation
   
3. A great sense of humor
4. A crazy scent!!!!!!! 🙂

Three smilies that describe your life:

1. 😀
2. :-p
3. =)

2 things you wish you never did:

1. Lying to you. Again, that sucked.
   
2. I’d rather not elaborate. hahahaha 🙂

One confession:

1. You’ve got me forever in a day, babe 🙂

“Don’t ever be so afraid of heartache that you forget to love.” -RANDOM

“You’ve had a lifetime to process your feelings for me and I can’t spend the rest of mine hoping that you might throw a general glance in my direction in between your tortured teen romances” -Dawson’s Creek

“Letting go isn’t a one time thing, its something you do everyday, over and over again” -Dawson’s Creek

I’ve never been one to regret things. I’ve always believed in the age-old adage that every single, minute thing happens for a reason but today, because I’m bored at work (that actually happens when you cram everything in a single day, you’re left with nothing to do!) you tend to go back to memory lane and see places that you just want to smack yourself in the head for:

1) The Older Guy. Cringe. I was soo young and delusioned. Bad Boy Lesson Number One. Can we just delete him from my life? PLEASE.

2) A few shabby friends.

3) Letting go of a few good ones.

4) Tagaytay. 🙁

5) HURTING AND LYING TO HIM. — YEAH, THAT KINDDA SUCKED.

BUT if there’s one thing I don’t regret, it’s this:

I’d never regret that funny roadtrip (I mean this figuratively and litterally) I had with you. I look back on it fondly. As much as I dispise you right now, I don’t regret you. How could I honey?

I’m enjoying my job now-as in this moment.

I want to see HSM 3 sooo bad. This weekend please 🙂

I’ve never belonged to one particular clique. It was never enough for me to be categorized by one group of friends and I’ve always thought of myself to be a loner or a flitter depending on how you see it, so at times, it be can be a bit lonely (oh the irony or simply the lack of a better term at the moment) at times when you think that you have no one to turn to. But after posting this really dramatic entry on my blog, I’ve come to realize that eventhough I don’t spend every waking moment with them or do we share party pictures or any pictures for that matter (which is a travesty really), I’ve come to realize that I do have very very wonderful friends.

It’s a stong realization since I’ve been a bit lonely for the past few days (blame that aching, lonely heart) so there, thank you my wonderful friends for your kind and blunt words, they are more than appreciated.

Thank you my dear friends, I have been greatly blessed J

From my Soully:

“No matter how patient and brave you think and you say you are, one can only take so much. The waiting, the hurting – it’ll all just get you tired, it’ll all just take a toll on you, on all this. And trust me when it happens, you’ll know. As for you my love, maybe not now, maybe not tomorrow, maybe not YET. Operational word being yet – meaning it will. So why fret? You know you’ll be happy someday anyhow. Why not start now? You know you’ll get by through this. We both you know you will. Because you have friends like me, because you have people like me who love you, and simply because… YOU ARE SUPERWOMAN.”

From Kat:

We may all get hurt along the way.. but at the end, i know it’ll be worth it :). So cry as much as you can ( to let the feeling and frustration wash away), and just stop. Move on :)… Mr. Right is just out there.. 🙂
Someone who’s worth it and can give you all the love that you deserve :). You’re a beautiful lady inside and out. 🙂 Guys should be merciless at your feet 😉

From Abi:

Guys aren’t worth getting troubled over, hun. Love is too special to be complicated. 😀

From Kae:

You’re the captain of your ship, the master of your soul. 🙂

Those kind words would get you through the shittiest, ugliest days. 🙂 You lovelies warm my otherwise frozen heart. HAHAHAHAHA 🙂

I badly want to quit my job.

There is nothing in this world that I want more for Christmas but to quit my job.

But then after quitting my job, what’s next? I need dedication on my resume and switching to another job won’t be the same. So what’s left?

Wait three more months. Just three more months.

Oh God, have mercy.

( PLEASE OPEN THIS ENTRY. I NEED YOUR ADVICE! If you’re reading this then I do believe that I have chosen you to enlighten me, all replies will be appreciated)

Does the dulling ache ever stop? Or will it simply revive itself every time the person in question looms in your peripheral? Do you ever get over a love that influenced your life in the past year or does it just stretch into the kind of love that makes you look out the window in your rocking chair when your 80, thinking ‘what could have been’?

Why do two people stay away from each other when in fact they couldn’t live with one another? Or they could, but it hasn’t been happier since then. There are tears in my eyes as I write this, a love so profound has never hit me this strongly, there are tears because it’s a love that’s going to stay that way: trapped.

Maybe the timing isn’t right. Or maybe the person isn’t right. Or maybe, it’s just not one of those things that aren’t meant to happen. Not a single song can express the depth of what I’m feeling now. It’s both a feeling of fear, insecurity and happiness. Happiness because I didn’t even know that I could love a person this strongly, insecurity because of the hate I feel. Cannot believe that I could hate someone I care about so strongly.

Darling, where did we go wrong?